Bab 42: Confession

Tina said, 'I wanted to ask you something.. ' Jason looked at her and said, 'yes.. ' she cleared her throat and said, '. how was life after Sarah? ' Jason looked up.. his eyes started tearing.. he wiped his eyes and said, 'difficult.. very difficult.. ' she looked at him and said, 'its ok if you don't want to talk about it.. ' he smiled an empty smile..he said, 'I got addicted to drugs.. I tried to commit suicide many times.. Sarah's parents blamed me for her death.. they were devastated.. no one blamed me more than myself for her death.. I loathed myself.. I lost myself in drugs.. as I took injection after injection I felt Sarah smiling at me.. she asked me to come and join her.. I really wanted to.. looking at my condition, my parents were seriously affected.. especially my mom.. she couldn't take it any more and she collapsed in kitchen due to all the stress, I was under the affect of drugs and locked my door from inside.. my father admitted my mom in hospital, he came home, broke down the door and found me unconscious.. I slit my wrists with a glass window pane.. he rushed me also to the hospital.. me and my mother both were undergoing treatment, once I gained consciousness, my father came and spoke to me.. he said that it's high time I let go Sarah, he asked me to at least think about my mom who was admitted in hospital.. he said that my wound will heal.. ' Jason sighed and continued.. 'I was admitted into a rehabilitation center, it took me six months to recover.. I was back in college.. I became distant to my friends.. I stopped interacting with people.. I concentrated on my education ,I wanted to leave this place,I tried to run from my past..I left to Europe to complete my post graduation im management .. post that I landed in a very good position with a reputed company.. I started having harmless flings with women.. never forced anyone.. just had physical relationships.. as I got promoted , few women tried to get benefits through sex.. if they were worthy, I enjoyed with them and promoted them.. but no one could move my heart.. I made it very clear to them that it would only be a physical relationship and would not involve any emotional feelings.. but I never had a woman against her will.. they came to me.. since few years, I stopped all this.. I felt that these flings were meaningless.. I lost my parents in a car accident,they left me huge amount of property and money..I earned so much..I am all alone now.. looking for love to bloom again .. recently I met a woman who moved my heart.. but.. ' Tina squealed in excitement.. she said, 'who is she? '..