Bab 2013: Retaliation

"Master, are you talking about Senior Sister Zhi Xuan? I heard Yan Ya mention it before." Sima You Yue said, "Master has always dwelled on her death, and you've been blaming yourself, right?"

"You could tell all of that from the tune I played on my zither?" Lu Yan did not deny it.

"Mostly, but the rest was just my guess." Sima You Yue said, "Master's longing did not possess that touch of emotion that lovers do, so I doubt that you liked her the way others say you did. Senior Sister has already died for so many years, yet Master is still unable to let go. The biggest possibility would be self-blame."

Lu Yan let out a soft sigh, "Back then, I knew that Mo Wei was restless, yet I still allowed her to follow everyone out. If she had stayed behind in the sect back then, that incident would not have happened."