How do I feel?

"Have you ever killed someone before?", the trainer asked Anbu after giving him the dagger. "No sir, never" replied Anbu. "I can't train you much in just 2 months, but the most important thing about the knife is, when you are hunting someone and when you get the right moment to kill your target, you shouldn't hesitate at all". Anbu looked at his eyes in the reflection of the dagger. The trainer started walking towards a room and Anbu followed him. The trainer stopped outiside a room whose walls were made up of glass, there were obstacles placed in there and there was a deer standing in there. "That deer knows that it has been brought here to be killed, killed by a dagger, it has seen around 20 deaths of other deers, it knows that one who is holding a dagger is its hunter and now, as your first task, I want you to go in and kill that deer" said the trainer. "That deer?" Anbu hesitated but he slowly started moving after the bulky trainer gave him a terrifying look. Anbu entered the room holding his dagger and as soon as the deer saw the dagger, it started running crazy and Anbu started chasing it, the deer was too fast but Anbu kept pushing his stamina. The deer kept running around the rectangular room without a break and Anbu realised that he is getting tired, that's when he noticed a wooden stick around there. He grabbed the stick, slowed down, aimed it at the deer and threw it right at its legs, the deer fell down without balance and Anbu pounced at it. He locked the deer with his body, the deer was lying at its side, unable to move. Anbu brought the dagger close to its neck, the deer started screaming heavily, he pressed the dagger along its neck, it cut its skin and it started bleeding slowly. The trainer was waiting for him to kill and was watching keenly "kill your prey quickly", he told himself. Anbu looked at the eyes of the deer for a second and then backed off, the deer pushed him away and started running away. The trainer punched the glass and roared at Anbu. Anbu looked down in guilt.

2 MONTHS AGO

Anbu came out of the bank with a bag and lot of money in it. A 6 feet tall and lean young man, dark brown skin; black, silky and curly hair and an ignored beard which covered half of his face. He gave the look of a boy next door and of course, he was. As he was checking the money in his bag he got a call from his friend, "Anbu, I have a job for you, an hardware shop needs a guy who knows designing software, are you interested?", he asked. "No, I have another job right now", Anbu replied with a blank and tired face and cut the call. As soon as he cut the call, he received another call from an unknown number.

"Hello, who is this?" asked Anbu. "Is this Anbu Chezhiyan?", it was a voice of a young lady and her voice sounded really amazing. "Yes.....you are?". "I'm Andrea, Andrea Rachel, do you remember me?" said the lady. "ZAMBROX..... my competitor right? what do you want". "I need your help, to figure out what's really happening, I know you are just a college dropout and need someone's help in this too". "I don't need anyone's help, I don't know what is happening here but I've already planned what to do....". "Cash out all the money they gave you, giving it to your family and dying, is that your ultimate plan". Anbu looked around if someone is watching him and continued talking, "How do you know?" "What better will you think? I read your bio data they gave us and I know your family situation. A 20 year old guy like you can only think in this way". "Who are you even?" asked Anbu. "Didn't you read the bio data?". "No, who are you and why do you need me?" "I'm an E.A.G.L.E agent, a really secret crime investigation team, even my parents don't know about my occupation but it was mentioned in the bio data given by ZAMBROX. I don't know why I am in this, just like you but, as a agent, I need to figure this out and solve it before we lose a lot of lives" said Andrea. "And why me?" "There were only 3 people in the list who are well educated and lead a normal life and one of them is you. You could be the easiest target for others and I wanted to save you first". "Do you think I live a normal life? I'm going to die anyway Andrea, at least let me support my family before I die". "What if we could stop this before things go out of hand. Please think about it and I can't do this alone", Andrea requested. "OK, I'm in, what about the other two?" "Thanks Anbu. The other two, one of them is a family guy but he rejected my offer and the other one is a college student, he is really scared and he even cried when I was talking to him, he immediately accepted my offer". "Crying? really? why did they even choose him for this". "I don't know, but you need to get some training now, shooting, knife fighting, martial arts, etc."

PRESENT (2 MONTHS AFTER THE TRAINING)

Anbu was sitting on top of an abandoned building, looking at the evening sky. He was tired, exhausted and his hands were covered in blood. The blood was warm hours ago but now it has turned cold. He recieved a call from Andrea. "What happened, is everything fine?", Andrea asked. "I was chased by a group of 20, they were all wearing black suite. I somehow managed to run and escape from them but one of them managed to chase me down till the end and I had no other option other than killing him", said Anbu. "It's OK Anbu, we have no other choice". "How did you feel after your first murder", Anbu asked her. "I don't know...I don't remeber it.....It must have been a criminal and I might have not felt guilty.....How do you feel?"