Chapitre 2: (2) Unprepared.
His lips smashed against mine, my mind was foggy, my pants tightening against a certain area, his hands were gripping my hips pulling me closer than we already were, my teenage hormones got in the way and I could feel the passion between us.
Doing something that was totally out of character for me I turned us around so that he was pinned against the wall, he was surprised by my sudden dominance and to be honest I was a little more surprised myself.
My first time kissing a boy and it was like we were about to fuck.
No no I'm a virgin, I'm not gonna loose it in a disabled bathroom.
I gently pushed off of him finally able to breath, "Did I do something wrong"? He asked with concern.
"No it's just...this may not mean something to you but if I kiss some one I want it to mean something" with that I unbolted the door and made my way quickly to my family, "Can we go"? I asked looking over my shoulder, Louis was about to come over but I quickly grabbed Gemma's hand and made a run for it.
No one spoke to me in the car, they knew something was troubling me but didn't press on it, I was glad.
You see I had a small problem, a tiny disorder I got diagnosed sing when I was 13, Social anxiety.
It started a few months after my 13th birthday,
It wasn't as bad as other people had it, the doctor said mine was mild.
They knew that when ever I was upset I had to be left alone for a day and then the next day my mum would bring me pancakes in bed and we would talk it out.
But this was not something I could talk to anyone about.
I slammed my room door as soon as I got home, Louis had called me 11 times and I let my phone ring out.
I couldn't do this, why did he have to confuse me, any other day fine yes confuse me but the one day my dreams come true and I get into X Factor? No.
No matter how many times I tried to be mad at him his lips would always wash away the anger and I would be left with nothing but happiness.
Some of my friends rang me that day congratulating me on getting three yes's , I still ignored Louis who wouldn't stop texting, I saw the first two:
To Harry.
From Louis.
I'm so sorry Harry, I didn't mean to make you feel that way, I just had to kiss you:'(
To Harry
From Louis
Please Harry I really like you ,please reply to me.
Me being my selfless self I texted him back .
To Louis.
From Harry.
I'm sorry too I overreacted.
I like you too .
To Harry.
From Louis.
Good to hear, listen it's only 4:00pm, I'm gonna drive to were you live so we can talk properly,
We're do you live?
What the actual fuck?
He wants to see me, again!
To Louis .
From Harry.
I live in Cheshire, you don't have to drive all the way here.
To Harry.
From Louis.
I'm omw text me your address x
I texted him my address and put my phone on charge, looking down at my outfit I cringed.
I walked over to my wardrobe and tree on my grey tracksuit bottoms and white tank top .
I didn't bother to fix my hair, it was always curly no matter what I tried to do to tame it .
An hour and 54 minutes later I was woken up by my room door closing, Louis stood there.
"Your mum let me up" he said sitting on my bed, I wanted to die right now!
"K" was all I said.
Way to be fucking creative Harry!
"So it's simple I shouldn't of kissed you" Louis said , well that hurt.
"Okay" I said.
"It was wrong" he said again.
Okay Louis I get it, you don't want me, I'm just some loser who you felt like you wanted.
Who would want me anyway?
My hairs to curly, my lips are literally like girls lips.
My smile is ridiculous.
"But I like you, that why I kissed you, I don't just like you in a friend way, I know its stupid swing as we only met today, but I would like to get to know you better" he said making my hearth leap, he liked me.
"Why"? I asked stupidly, he looked at me in confusion, "why me"? I asked genuinely curious, why me? I wasn't anything special.
"Because when you smile it feels like home" he said grinning, we were much closer now, the atmosphere in the room hot, "I know this may see bloody stupid, and a bit forward but can I kiss you again"? Louis asked his blue eyes boring into mine.
Yes you can, I wanted to say but when ever I'm around him my tongue is tied , so I just nodded like I did in the bathroom.
He closed the small gap between us and brought our lips together.
This kiss was different, it was soft and gentle unlike the last one,I liked this kiss but my body was talking me I liked it rough , so I pressed my body against at his so now he was lying on my bed with Me hovering over him, every cell in my body came alive.
I've never felt this way before, ivw never had this ... need for anyone.
I guess Louis was the one who brought out this side of me and I wasn't complaining.
His hands stayed on my waist until he finally pulled away, "I want to take it slow, I'm 18 and your 16, I don't want to rush you, when your ready I will be too" he smiles softly at me.
Louis left an hour after cuddling and kisses here and there, he promised to see me back in Manchester tomorrow at the X Factor.
Speaking of the X Factor I began to get more nervous than usual.
But then I got a text before I fell asleep.
To Harry.
From Louis.
Your gonna be fine tomorrow, you have an amazing voice, the judges would be crazy not to keep you.
Sweet Dreams Hazza.
Yours always Louis;-)\x
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