Chapitre 3: Vol 1 : Ch 3 - Friendship is over?

Vol 1: Ch 3 - Friendship is over?

Vin got prompted for a new message from Rei and after reading Rei's long message, Vin sigh and sighing again before replying to her.

"See Rei, I'm really right and you really got hurt because I didn't feel the same way as what you feel towards me but I'm really sorry Rei, I can't really force myself to be with you. It's not that you're not pretty and smart because you really are but then if you're talking about us and to our relationship between us, nothing gonna change between our relationship except for a friendship only. Yeah, I know already that you have a crush on me during our High School years but I didn't mind it because you really know your limitation and never cross the line between our friendship. There's one time that my friend Lan, you know him right? He teases me and asks why not try to confess to you since your over heels towards me, not only him but some of our friends. So listening to their advice, I want to try it but I can't, I really really can't do it and only sorry would be the right answer for both of us. Sorry, Rei and I really didn't think that we will become a couple and I think we're not perfect to be with each other."

"By saying that one, it's like you're disgusted to me and for your information, I'm not that dumb to over heels towards you, I mean try to look at the mirror, yes, you're really an average, not a handsome one. I have a crush on you only because you're smart. For me having a crush is like having an admiration only. Vin, don't forget that we're still teenagers at that time and it's only puppy love for me, so in other words, were still young at that time to know the real meaning of being in a relationship and in love. So please don't forget that we don't really talk that much you know."

"Yeah, yeah I know but the crush is the start and the beginning of changing the friendship into a relationship and I'm sure you know that one Rei"

"Yeah I know but it's not applied for me you know, because I only see you as a friend and that's all"

"Tell me honestly Rei, do you really want us to change our relationship to each other from being friends into a love relationship?"

Rei quite speechless for a moment and ask, "so, do you really want me to tell the truth?"

"Yes"

"Okay and so before I tell you the truth, answer me first."

"Deal as long as I can answer it and beyond my capability to do so, so what is it?"

"Vin, what if you confess to me during that time (2nd Year of High School), so what do you think of my answer would be then?"

Vin message her confidently "Of course it would be a yes because you have a crush on me during that time"

"I see and a very confident of you Vin but it's only you who think that one. Have you ever thought about the pros and cons if we really become a couple at that time? Yes, I do have a crush on you since you're smart but if you confess to me during that time, I assure you that you will be get busted from me for sure even I have a crush on you that time, one of the reason why, because both of us were still young during that time, and most of all I'm not in love with you since it's only a crush especially I'm a person who never violates my parents' house rules.

As I said a while ago we're still young at that time and it's only a puppy love for me, so in other words, it's only a relatively shallow romantic attachment from me, and it's part of being a teenager and an adolescent one. I don't know why you thought that one but please don't misunderstand it."

Vin got speechless but it didn't stop his ego and he retorted back to her.

"Please Rei, can you stop pretending that you're alright? I know you're in pain right now but please tell me the truth maybe my decision for being sorry will be changed into something."

"I already tell you the truth a while ago and I'm not pretending because I'm really alright after all. Well, I got hurt because of your words but it's not because you didn't feel the same way instead I got hurt because it comes from you, who's my very first male friend."

"Rei, do you really want us to cut the tie, I mean, our friendship will be going into nothing?"

'I can't really understand with him now and I don't know if he's the Vin I know' looking at the time from her phone 'geez, I need to finish it soon or else I will be late from work.'

"Vin I don't really understand why you become like this but if you really want our friendship to be over then it's up to you. If you know or not and so I tell you again even I already said it many times that you're my first male friend and I want to cherish it but if you really want to get rid of it then go ahead, I won't stop you and it's your decisions and most of all I'm not going to die because I lose you as my friend. By the way, I need to prepare myself or else I will be late for work. Bye"

"Wait, Rei" he wants to stop Rei from signing out but it's too late for him since he heard a new notification sound and a pop-up that your friend Rei already signing out. 'Geez Rei, you're really signing out for real and you didn't let me finish first. See, you're really hurt. Why you didn't like to admit it and just keep denying instead? Geez, I don't really understand the woman's mind at all.'

Since Rei already signing out, Vin left a message to her since he knows that Rei will be signing in again and without knowing, it's only his thinking since Rei will not be signing in again at this moment and few days ahead for some reason.

"Rei, I'm not really going to stop our friendship. I know you've been hurt and I know that you're in love with me because it's been almost seven years passed since 2nd year of High School but until now you still don't have a boyfriend or being in a relationship with another. By that actions, you're just waiting for me, right? Let's meet up and talk about it personally. This is my number, contact me after reading this. Sorry if I hurt you but I think we need to talk personally and not with the chat. Talking personally is more useful than chatting since we can't see our expressions at all and we can't tell if both of us were being honest or not."

After leaving that message to her, he's just chatting his other friends and exploring Rei SNS account, like a stalker one, every time he sees her picture he smile but every time he sees her with another man without knowing the identity of the man and his relationship with Rei, his expression change from smiling into a pouting one.

Being angry and upset about it he signs out from his account then prepares himself since he also has a job.

That night, he excitedly signing in because he taught Rei already read it but to his knowledge, he got it wrong because he got a big miscalculation about her. After signing in, he checks the message but still unseen to Rei and then realizes that Rei signing in last 10 hours ago and that's what's after their chat.

At first, he didn't mind it at all, but every day and every night he checks it again and again but the message he left still unseen to her, most of all it's already been a month since he left that message. Because of this, he got upset and in order to release it, he goes to the nearest bar and now drinking to release his emotions through drinking.

After 2 hours of drinking, he feels that someone helping him getting up, so he looks up and it's a lady but then he taught it's Rei and mistaken that lady like her that she's Rei.

"You're finally here and what took you so long Rei?"

"Sir you got it wrong and I'm not that person you mention, I'm just here helping my friend and I notice that you're drinking alone, so after dropping my friend back, I got here again and check if you're still here. And yeah, you're still here, so I'm glad that I got back and it's still not safe here. I can help you Sir since it's still not too late for me" she has another meaning and the truth, she's only here at the bar because her group of friends notice him and got informed by them that Vin was here and drinking alone, so she hurriedly left and go to this bar. Then her groups of friends were really right because when she entered the bar, she saw Vin and indeed his already drunk when she arrived.

'Vin, are you an idiot one? It's already been 4 years since I know you but that woman is still in your heart and now you just mistook me of her. Well, why not use it since it's really a big chance for me, right?'

"Rei you're finally here" without blinking an eye he hugged her tightly and release the hug then said to her honestly without confirming if it's really her or not since he's already drunk. "You know Rei, I really like you and I really love you. I know I have many ex-girlfriends but it's only to get rid of my feelings towards you and to make you jealous but still, it's not working so please hear me out, okay? You're always in my heart, Rei, do you understand me?" Before waiting for her reply, Vin goes forward and closing his distance from her, and touches her face before giving a passionate kiss without confirming if she's Rei or not.