Chapitre 14: Vol 1 : Ch 14 - Do you love me? Do you like me?

"I don't know if I sound ridiculous or not Rei but this is really my honest feelings towards you. When we become classmates and became friends with each other since you're just seating at the back of me, I already notice you and want to know you more but I'm scared because you're just moving to a new class. Then that time our Teacher gives us an activity on how to become close with our new classmates. All of us already know each other since we're old classmates and that when we became the first year of high school and then some of our classmates were new to join the class including you, so I start talking to you and then that day we became close. At first, I thought you're just only a friend of mine, so I pretend that I have a crush but then when you suddenly hear from someone else that I have a crush, you're always teasing me and you're eager to know who is she, how come I would tell who is she when the person who asks me was the one I like or I have been crush with, it's like I'm confessing my feelings indirectly. So in order for you to stop asking me that one, I just told you that I will tell you who is she during Valentine's Day. You don't know how I am excited that day because I will confess to you on that very day but then it became go unto nothing because I heard that you have a crush, who also a member of your organization that you happened to join. I'm just lucky enough that during Valentine's day, my friends, list our name for being in the love tent and can talk to talk with each other face to face, so instead of confessing to you that day, I ask about you of what I heard about your crush and got satisfied with your answer since you've answered me that time, that you only admire him and you joined the organization not because of him but because your sister also want to join, so in order for you to be with your sister, you also joined. Day by day I forgot that I'm going to confess to you and until the time when we were almost graduating you heard that my friend teasing me being together with you, so I told them you're only my friend because I want to say it in my own mouth not from them or any rumors and I want it that you're the first one who will hear it from me, that it came from my mouth and not from my friends. You just smile when my friends teasing about us and never minding that teased. We only talk during our break time since we're not classmates during our Graduating Year from our High School. Our contact became lesser until our contact became blurred, we graduate but you never approach me or talk to me if I didn't initiate it. We're both enrolled in different schools during our tertiary but you never left me a message if I will not and I will call you once a month every year to know your update. I got a girlfriend just to make you jealous or trying to forget you and purposely I used it as a profile pic to provoke you and make you jealous but instead you congratulate me even asking me how long we've been dating. As I said, at first, getting a girlfriend was for you to make jealous of me but then I realized it's for my own self to stop my feelings towards you but then it never occurs to me. Then you message me last month, so how come I reply directly how we became a friend, it's like you're stabbing me right away without knowing, so instead I purposely misunderstood what you ask and replying to you that we're just only a friend and nothing else. I got upset by your reply and I didn't mean it. Rei, for you to know, I like and I love you for seven years now. I know it's too late for me since I also got involved with Xue this time, but Rei, I really really love you."