Fate's Overpowered Gamer

I never expected to wake up as EMIYA fucking Shirou on that hospital bed nor did I expect to live past that hour seeing how Alaya would be just wanting to snuff me out while Kiristugu would want to destroy me but I lived past that day and I lived long enough in a world of despair presented as the story of a hero to the world.
This is the story of a boy who refused Shirou's ideals and carved his own path while wanting to know why he survived.