Chapitre 62: Kel
So for the sake of transparency, there will be 3 girls in total (Mikasa included). It's hard to choose between so many girls so I decided on this. If the romance doesn't work out, I'll just shelve the entire thing.
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[Eren POV]
"Welcome, Tadano Shinjo! You have been selected as a player for the Great god! Pick three wishes and complete the tasks we provide you. If you accomplish this, you can have anything you wish!" A girl in an angel costume yelled out in excitement.
What is happening?
I remember getting head from Mikasa and then falling asleep.
[Maybe you died from snu snu?]
Don't be ridiculous. I can feel a faint connection to my body but it's hard to locate. I'm sure I'm alive, which begs the question of how I got here.
[Let's observe for now.]
Agreed.
The fat kid in front of me looked around in amazement before breaking out in a maniacal laugh. Hoisting his hands up to cheer he spoke out in a hurry about his plans to have a harem.
[It seems we are invisible to them.]
"YES BABY! I'm gonna rule the entire world. Fuck those normies who mocked me for believing in reincarnation. Who's the one laughing now!" The boy called Tadano Shinjo kept yelling out like a lunatic completely forgetting about the presence of the fake angel. Who despite the cringe, kept a straight face.
I want to get out of here.
[Give me a minute. I'm looking up the reasons for our arrival here.....DONE!]
So quick?
[Hmm….that's strange. You came here on your own.]
Huh?
[To be specific. It's your subconscious. I brought out the memories for you to see.]
Aren't YOU supposed to be my subconscious?
[You still believe that?]
…Fair enough. Show me.
The scene in front of me changed and I saw myself sleeping on the bed with Mikasa on top of me.
I'm not ordering but….maybe we should see a bit more into the past?
[…Pervert]
The scene changed again and I saw my body licking a small tight hole.
Yep. The look on her face is amazing. I'm going to drive her to insanity once I get back.
[Can we move on?] The voice spoke in a hurried voice. As if embarrassed by something.
OK.
The scene moved forward and I saw myself waking up. Everything seemed normal except for the fact that my eyes were closed.
The subconscious part of me seemed to be annoyed.
"At this rate, the completion will take more than 200 billion years. Efficiency is drastically slowed...….Catalyst required."
Great. I have an alter ego.
[Not really. This thing is you. None of that split personality shit.]
So then why does he seem to know stuff I don't?
[He's the part comprising of your discarded memories. Incomplete, and indifferent.]
He won't try to take over right?
[I've already analyzed him. He's indifferent to almost everything. Even his broken existence. The only desire he has is to help you.]
How'd you analyze him?
[He's your subconscious. Literally lives inside your brain.]
Right. Can I meet him?
[Affirmative]
Quit acting like a system.
[Quit treating me like a system then]
….You want a name?
[…]
Too bad you're not getting one. I consider you as a part of me, even though you're not.
[What?]
I don't know who you are. But you'll be stuck with me until I die for real. So stop trying to be a separate existence. You belong to me. You are me.
[….Idiot.]
The world changed color and I was back at the angel's place with the fat kid.
"I'd like to pick my wished now." He seemed to have calmed down at this point.
[Maybe he's not as big of a disappointment as we thought him to be?]
"I want my new body to have a big dick!"
[…]
"Penis size manipulation. Granted!" The angel cried out in her usual cheery voice.
"I want to be in the world of lookism as Daniel park. But make me an orphan. I don't want the family bullshit."
"Granted!"
"I want this to be a merged world. So bring this list of Japanese mangas to Korea."
"The last wish will be taken as a part of the second wish. You can now pick your third wish."
Wow. I could not help but be amazed at this fatsos idiocy. The angel was clearly scheming something
"….Then I want that world to allow polygamy!"
A sigh escaped the angel's lips and she then looked down at the kid with a cold gaze.
"Another loss." She swiped her hand after that and a portal opened below commencing his fall to god knows where.
The scene once again blurred and I was now in the familiar void.
The pitch-black void was strangely comfortable.
[I got you here to meet your subconscious.]
Where is he?
"Here."
A voice reverberated from below me and I looked down to see a clone of me, albeit with pale skin.
"How should I address you?"
"Kel."
"Very well. Nice to meet you kel. I presume you already know everything about me so I'll skip the pleasantries. What's your goal?"
"Death."
"Elaborate."
" I gave up on my true death and decided to split myself. One is you who survives and one is me who dies."
"I'm not original."
"Don't misunderstand. You are the original kel. I'm just a clump of suicidal memories you discarded."
"You're garbage?"
"Yes."
[He's the insane part of you.]
"…"
"Why'd you bring me to than angel's place?"
"To help you. You discarded your obsession with death but still ended up developing it all over again."
"Yeah. I still want to die."
"And I wanted to help you with that."
"Why?"
"Impulse."
"...Meh. So how are you going to help me?
"The fat kid's causality was altered by the angel every time his wishes were granted. I already collected his causality. It's basically his wishes solidified, just inactive."
"How is that helping me?"
"You need to grow. Grow large enough to get noticed by the tower. Once you get in. You'll figure the rest of it by yourself."
"Don't just dump all this info out of the blue. What's the tower? How do you know about it?"
"The multiverse is real. We can both agree on that right?"
"Yes."
"Since the first world was from an anime. It won't be wrong to think other fictional worlds exist too."
"...That's a 50/50 possibility."
"Well, I'm banking on the possibility that the tower exists. Grow big enough to get an invitation from the tower. I'd love to tell you more about this but my end is close."
"Can't you just give me the memories of this tower anime that you know of?"
"I wish I could."
"I don't want to leave Mikasa, so I refuse to go to this new world."
"You don't have to abandon her. It's like a body switch. Every time you fall asleep, you'll wake up in your other body."
"Damn."
"The voice inside your head should've found the causality by now. Farewell."
"This leaves a bad taste in my mouth."
"HA-HA don't be sad. This is what I want. What we both want. I can finally rest. Don't mistake my tears for sorrow. This is my salvation. I yearned for this. I love this end. I cannot be happier."
"You mind if I hold you?"
"I don't."
He opened his arms to me and I silently hugged him. It felt weird to hug myself but also peaceful.
The silence lingered for a while even after his figure faded away.
[He could've survived a lot longer if not for holding onto this causality.]
Will I die too if I hold this?
[No. Unlike him, you have a body and a soul that adapts. You would've probably ascended to godhood.]
A lucky clump of memories.
[Should I trigger the causality?]
No. I need some time to myself.
[….Call me when you need me, Eren]
The place turned deathly quiet with me just staying in the void.
A place for me to rest.
A place for me to die
A place where I do not exist.
When will I reach that paradise?
État de l’alimentation hebdomadaire
-- Classement
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