Chapitre 28: Same in the End
It has been over a year since I have advanced from my initial training. While it is hard to admit, I have seen the necessity of the type of training that I received. Initially, I was not one of the people that had to perform the deeds that I found dreadful. Now, though, I am one of those same people that I have previously found evil.
I still do not find what we do to others, as something to be praised, but I can see where certain aspects of it is beneficial. It has become apparent that emotions do let someone untrained use Putere. And with the dangers that power can unleash, there is a definite need to curtail the use of said power against someone that can not control it.
As someone that has regretfully done what I have done to others, I have been attacked, without knowledge, from those that I have debased myself on. The person wield their power without any regard to what they are doing. If they were around people that did not know how to help with such unbound power, numerous injuries could be inflicted.
As I have continued in my studies of Putere, I have learned things that the power can do. Let alone the notion of heat and healing that I have had some personal experience with, there are also powers to control movement, sound, and the scariest one, mental. Each and everyone of them can be extremely scary when used.
Heat is an easy one to comprehend on how scary it can be, let alone talking about mental powers. Let me use the example of healing. While on the outside, healing sounds like a benign power. Unfortunately, that is the furthest thing from the truth.
Someone, especially with knowledge, wielding healing power can be downright frightening. When I was first learning about the healing power, I assumed it was just healing a person, or increasing the functions of the body to promote healing. It can also be used to promote the growth of bacteria and viruses. The human body contains countless amounts of pathogens both benign and malignant.
A benign pathogen can be just as detrimental as a benign one. Even the process of a body can be weaponized against the host. The overgrowth of certain types of blood cells will wreck a body quicker than any type of pathogen.
While the different types of Putere can be utilized for warfare usage, the majority of what is learned is to utilize it in everyday use. A hunter can use sound to dampen what sounds are produced by them when they are hunting an animal. Another example is a blacksmith. Being about to control where and when heat dispels on the metal that they are working on, speeds up the process of each piece, and can lead to less critical failures.
As I am learning more of the usage of my powers, I am put in discussion groups with the other un-Chained, to debate on best to use powers in different disciplines. Unfortunately for all of us, we are still emotionally stunted, but that leads to more productive debates. Instead of being weighted down by wasted emotionally based arguments, we are more able to logically contrast the ideas we have.
The Chained Unleashed are not part of these discussions. While one or two of them are there as we deliberate or ideas, they only help lead the ideas to more fruitful thinking. Children, which we are, are discussing complicated ideas as if we were full-fledged adults with advanced knowledge. I have never been in any type of group like this. Nobody is ignored for ignorant ideas, instead we are growing our knowledge from the place of that ignorance.
Emotional growth, or the facsimile of those emotions is the hardest for all of us. Learning on how show show happiness and interest is a difficult chore, to say the least. If I would have to compare us to anything from my past life, I would say that we are nearly schizoid. For us, it was forced on us, instead of being a natural outgrowth of other conditions.
It is a little easier to read someone's emotions than showing our own. I can, through study, learn traits of what someone is feeling through motions. I am not empathetic or sympathetic in the slightest, but I have learned how to approximate how to react to how others react. At this point, I am able to act callous to other's emotions. It is at least a human reaction, compared to how I was just a little while ago.
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I would not say that I am attached to another person in this enclave of Unleashed, but I have started forming some bonds with some of the others. One of them is with one of the girls that started after me, Oana. She was one the un-Chained that broke fairly quickly, in a matter of months.
I know it should be wrong, but I am physically attracted to her. I, who have lived nearly fifty years, am attracted to a fourteen year old girl. She is already taller than me, though girls usually start maturing at a younger age. Maybe it is because of the training that is given here, but though she is athletically healthy, certain assets are not the most prominent. Though it could be that she was just going to naturally going to be like that. Piercing green eyes are a stark contrast to her dark brown hair. And add on to that, she is smart. She grasps concepts that are beyond me.
I am not sure if I am just a pervert, or if it is because of this body that I now wear. Is my biology controlling my sexual desires, or is it that due to my lack of emotions, that I am attracted to her. The stigma of attraction does not truly bother me, when logically, I should find it a disgusting feeling.
Though I am attracted to her, I do not let that interfere with my relationship with her. Maybe it is lucky for me, that I do not have emotions to control my actions. Admittedly, there are others that I am physically attracted to, both young and older than me. Some of the Chained Unleashed, that are significantly older than my physical age, are also objects of my physical lust.
From what I have learned, most Unleashed do get married. It is not due to having an emotional connection with others, though. It was a product of adopting to the conventions of society. It is a crutch, of sorts, to more easily blend in with others in a community. Usually, though, it is two Unleashed getting married to each, as we do not have to build emotional connections to others. Being around someone else that does not need to reciprocate feelings of love is more simple than other options. That, and Unleashed also do have physical desires like normal people.
In all truth, if I were to be paired with any of the un-Chained girls, to be in a permanent relationship with, it truly would not matter to me. We are, and will always be, muted to emotions. Physical attraction maybe something important to others, but to Unleashed, it is just that, a physical attraction. Emotions are not part of us.
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ApollyonDais A little more growth in the chapter. Development of Unleashed is starting to happen. If you have any questions of what is what, just ask. I'm developing notes as I go.
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