Jared
Yesterday I spent all day feeling sorry for myself. I crawled into bed after my heart walked out the door and cried. I cried for Laynie, I cried for my mother, I cried for our child we lost before we were blessed with. I barely ate, didn't shower, I just walked around the entire house going through the motions.
Here is where I pushed her into the wall, here is where I called her useless. Here is where I told her to get away from me. I let myself go through every memory of pain I put her in. I re live every bit of agony and let myself relish in it.
Today is the day I right all my wrongs. I knock on the door to my father's office and wait for him to answer. I march right past his secretary as she screams at me to stop, so I know he is in here and I know he was informed I'm here. Security has not come to escort me out yet so it seems like he wants to see me.