'I just need to make a decision. That is all.' Evelyn thought, trying to pick between the two emerging natures in her.
She was torn between her distrustfulness born from many past experiences and her desire to have companions again.
However, while she figured that it would be easy to make a concise decision and bring her emotions under control, it was not.
Fear gripped her heart and mind whenever she thought about truly becoming attached to anyone again and then having them die violently.
Yet when she thought to give up on ever having any relations and living a lonely solitary life, only using others for her own ends, sorrow welled up inside her.
Either choice felt like it would be tearing her apart and leaving her not herself anymore.
After finding Mason's will that had been left behind for her, she decided to reach the heights of magic and try to find him again.