The waters engulf me,
As the darkness surrounded me,
As I drown, I thought to myself, this is it.
I'm about to give up
Give up everything I fighted for
This slow torture brought me back to my senses.
I need to think straight
I need to act fast
I need to breathe.
As I willed myself to go up,
to light, to life, to air....
I awakened to my truth
It's worth it to fight
It's worth to be happy
It's worth it to live.
But I wondered, do they appreciate me?
Or am I some kind of pawn
Only recognized if someone wanted to use me
I felt alone in the dark
I never felt such freedom,
My peace of mind and my freedom, all gone
I even wondered what would happen if I die?
Would someone cry or even laugh?
Would someone even worry or maybe someone doesn't even care that I ended my own existence.
And would someone even remember me after all those years that I was gone?
In my mind, someone said, "No one will remember you for the rest of their lives. Their so-called sweet words were just a facade. You need to go."
But in my heart, my conscience speaked. And that was enough reason to live again. Conscience.
I had the courage to go up and finally I was up in the surface.
I am in the raging seas full of angry, tall waves and stormy clouds
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And I woke up,
Realizing that I am still trapped in my own delusions.
My mentality is a fight between angels and demons
My mentality contains a dark storm inside it.
But I don't need to worry about it.
Because I have the hope that someday. Somehow. Somewhere.
I will finally see daylight.