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The Chef x The Movie Emperor
Nix's P.O.V.:
Phoenix focused on Solaris's presence and focused on the weight of him on his lap helping to ground himself. He continued to focus on the little phoenix-dragon while he held his breath for 30 seconds in order to slow his racing heart and end this panic attack. With this he was able to calm himself down a bit as he found himself thinking that Solaris reminded him of a cat or dog curled up on its human's lap.
'He is just like a dog or cat trying to comfort their person, when they were in destress. Solaris seemed to do it instinctually. How and I did not think he could get any cuter.' This thought helped to calm Phoenix's chaotic mind and he began to calm down.
It was upon calming down that he had the vague reciliation that he might have heard a faint and distant familiar voice call out to him, 'Oh, Nikki my love...soon...' but that could not be right... right?
'Wait, what the, who the fuck was that? Why did that voice sound familiar. I know I heard it before but where? Also, Nikki... why does that name make my heart tremble, ache and long? It makes absolutely zero sense! No one has ever called me that before. Is that my original name... is that why it not only feels familiar but right? What the fuck is going on? I keep having these damn déjà vu feelings since I entered this world, and it all makes zero sense!
'That's it I must be losing my mind. Haha Nix you have finally done it, you have officially lost your mind! Perhaps I never left that hell hole, and I am just hallucinating in order to cope with it...' even if that is the case do I really want to come out of this hallucination? At least here I have a family who loves me, and I have a cute little phoenix-dragon as a pet and companion. But still I am not sure what is real or not now. Whatever now is not the time to be thinking about this or acting this way. Take a deep breath Nix and pull yourself together, weather this is real or not is not currently relative so just focus at the task on hand and treat it as if it were real, better to be safe than sorry.'
After thinking all this Phoenix, gathered his thoughts and strength and pulled himself out of his downward spiral. It would not bode well do dwell on all these what ifs and what nots. He had to get a grip of himself and suck it up weather he felt like it or not because on the off chance that this is all real, he did not want to mess it up. Truly the worst-case scenario is that he really is crazy, but if that were the reality of it all then he did not want to wake from this current delusion. Still, he could not shake the feeling that he knew that voice.
'Let it go Nix, at least for now.' he told himself over and over again until he finally calmed and collected himself. What was most important at the moment is how to explain his random outburst. His panic attack and bawling made no sense.
Well, at least it would not to the Beyols as Beyol Bong Tae-Hwan had always hidden his depression from his family, as he felt that it was his responsibility to keep up his sunny demeanor as everyone would always tell him that even on their darkest days, he was their only ray of sunshine and hope thus giving them the strength to carry on. He felt that if he told his family about his feelings that it would only make things harder on them and he did not want that. After all he understood that a lot of their stress came from him being a dominant omega. It did not help that his so-called best friend was as toxic as a radioactive isotope.
'That narcissist bitch really did a number on this shell!' Nix thought with disgust. Like a bolt of lightning, it hit him how he could explain his reaction and help protect his family a bit better at the same time.
Phoenix sat up and wiped his eyes and stumbled a pathetic apology for his unsightly dramatic outburst, guilt and embarrassment filled him upon seeing the faces of his family members. "You have absolutely no reason to apologize nae sarang" Mrs. Tae Eun-Kyung said voice cracking as she wiped tears away from her own eyes. This was followed by a chorus of agreements from the rest of his family. Phoenix had to hold back another bout of tears as once again he was nearly overwhelmed by the amount of love, understanding and acceptance.
'Would they even look at me kindly if they knew I was not their precious Beyol Bong Tae-Hwan?' I also cannot believe I reacted like that! I haven't cried like that since Solaris found me and I haven't cried at all for at least the past 10 thousand years not maybe it was more, either way it is still shell shocking to say the least.' Phoenix could not help but think bitterly to himself
'Mama, of course they would! I know for a fact they would, and I wish that you could see yourself the way others do, and I do not mean those from the prison you were in. All those lives were designed to hurt and break you. Even if you are not the same as Beyol Bong Tae-Hwan you are still an amazing person who deserves to be loved and cherished. Even if you doubt me, you must remember that the Beyols are truly pure hearted people. As for why you would react that way it is because you have significant trauma resulting in PTSD and now that you are completely free from your abuser(s) and have a loving family for the first time you were able to finally be able to release some of that built up tension and emotion. Honestly it would be more concerning if you continued to keep things in though I did not expect this reaction this soon. Despite what you have been brainwashed into believing you are more then worthy to be liked, loved and cherished. You are enough just as you are! I implore you to please use this life and allow yourself to heal even if it is in small stages, because you do deserve it Mama Phoenix.' Solaris said through the shared mental link between he and Nix.
Solaris did his best to comfort and reassure his Mama. He knew it was rude of him to pry into his Mama's private thoughts, but Phoenix did not hide them, and this time Solaris realized the importance of reassuring him. So that is exactly what Solaris did just that without hesitation. He knew his Mama never meant for him to hear or know any of that, but he did not care at this point Phoenix's mental and emotional wellbeing was far more important, privacy be damned when his poor Mama Phoenix was like this.
Solaris had a deep hatred for whoever did this to Phoenix. His Mama has such a beautiful soul even after everything he has been through and yet someone felt the need for reasons yet know, to someone who was pure, gentle and naive, well at one point he was now Nix was gray or grayer then white as freshly fallen snow, but he is far from the mud and sludge that forms once that snow melts away.
Solaris rubbed his head on Phoenix's stomach as a way to comfort the man and to his delight it seemed to work as Phoenix gave a weak but genuine smile.
Now that he had calmed down and the flood of memories and flashbacks from all he endured had ceased to run rampant in his mind, he was able to think more clearly. He finally looked up at his family before wiping his eyes and mumbling out, a pathetic apology for his unsightly dramatic outburst, guilt and embarrassment filled him upon seeing the faces of his family members.
"You have absolutely no reason to apologize nae sarang" Mrs. Tae Eun-Kyung said voice cracking as she wiped tears away from her own eyes. This was followed by a chorus of agreements from the rest of his family. Phoenix had to hold back another bout of tears as once again he was nearly overwhelmed by the amount of love, understanding and acceptance.
"Nix, Hyung can you please tell us what upset you so much? There must be something to make you react this way, after all it is just a name, and it is not even like you are asking us to call you by a different name. Phoenix is your name." Beyol Joon asked tentatively.
The whole Beyol family looked like a bunch of bobble heads as they were all emphatically nodding in agreement with Beyol Joon and this caused him to stifle a laugh. He bit his lip and looked at the table for a moment before looking up into the eyes of his family members and told them the truth, or rather a half truth.
"I have been struggling for a while now with depression and low self-image and self-loathing." He said softly. This took the entire Beyol family but surprise, never would they imagine those words would come from their brightest and happiest member. "Do you mind telling us what has brought this on and how long you have felt this way?" Mrs. Tae Eun-Kyung asked, her voiced laced with the fear, sadness and guilt she felt for never realizing one of her children were suffering.
"Well, I guess I should just tell you up front and get it all out on the table now, since you all really should know. I no longer want to be friends with Lee Eun-ae. I know we have been friends for a long time, but I have recently realized that she has always been a toxic friend and I think she may have even been sabotaging me.. She..." Phoenix a bit taken back when his father angerly interrupted him with what he could only describe as a thought said out loud, "How so?"
"Well, it started back when she befriended me in middle school, at first it was little comments that just seemed a bit off, but she would always play it off as if it were a joke. The only compliments she has ever given me were back handed ones not to mention she is constantly giving me advice on how to act and what to wear. Typically, that would not be a bad thing amongst friends, the advice part but as I got older, I realized that all that so called 'friendly' and 'lovingly' advice was just her way to tear me down and make others dislike me."
He was unsure just how much he should tell them. 'Go on Mama, they should know what kind of person Lee Eun-ae really is.' Solaris encouraged him lovingly.
"She is the one who convinced me to always wear baggy, discreet clothing, keep my hair down so that it always covered my face on top of convincing me that everyone was always taking bad about me behind my back and that only she truly had my back. I know now that it was just her way of making sure I kept everyone at arm's length because she was jealous. She would always talk me out of trying out for sports and clubs or even going out to social events.
I have never told yall but I have been in love with acting and the drama club for as long as I can remember."
This last sentence was a definite surprise to the bristling Beyols and it momentarily caused them to forget their building rage against Lee Eun-ae. Nix noted their surprise and confusion as he continued to explain.
"I never told yall because she convinced me that I would be letting yall down and undermining all of your efforts to keep me and my secondary status as a dominant omega a safe. She also convinced me that I would be disappointing you all if I did not end up working for the family business. She knew that if I were to become an actor or model that I would easily be famous just by my status alone. She said it was not fair and that the moment that people found out about me being a dominant omega that my horrible acting skills would be overlooked. She even convinced me to give up the lead role in our high school drama that ended up getting her signed into her current acting agency.
I am aware now how stupid it was for me to believe her, but she had managed to isolate me from all the friends I used to have until she was the only one beside me. I could not see that she had been bad mouthing me and telling everyone that I thought I was too good for them now that I was an omega. She tells anyone and everyone that I am an ungrateful, hateful and conceded person who is only out to find a golden thigh to hug. I did not want to believe it when a fellow acquaintance told me that Lee Eun-ae had been going around for years telling everyone that I had loose morals and was promiscuous with any alpha or beta who would have me.
Despite fining all this out I still harbored doubts because it was too hard to believe that the person I considered as close as a sister was actually a black lotus pretending to be a white lotus. That was until I accidently overheard her talking derogatively about you all to an alpha that turned out to be one of her numerous lovers. That was when I realized that everything, she had been saying about me all these years was in fact how she is and what she is doing."
Phoenix took a deep breath and allowed what he said to set in before dropping yet another bomb on his family.
Hi, my lovely phoenixes & dragons, as always thank-you for your continued support of my novel. I also hope you all have a great day. I am loving the comments so much! Thank you all for them. I have to take my sick kiddos to the dr today but once I get home I may publish another chapter With all the names & places so that it's easier for yall to keep them straight & a mini theater I have been considering for a bit now. But that may be left for the author's thoughts section. ai am not sure yet. ^^
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The Chef x The Movie Emperor
Nix's P.O.V.:
"I realize that though that all may be really bad it sadly is not the worst part." Phenix nearly spart out as he was unable to hide the bitterness or disgust in his voice.
"How can it get worse? Jagiya, you know you can tell us anything. Forget what she said and remember we will always believe you, no matter what you tell us. You are not a liar." Beyol Eun-Ha said in a comforting tone, but it was belied by the look on forced and tight smile she now sorted on her usually gentle face. It was easy for Nix to see the anger that was raging beneath the surface as his nuna did her best to stay calm and reassure him.
In fact, he had never seen the Beyols as angry as they are now. His mother alone not only looked fierce she looked like a wild animal ready to devour the threat towards her offspring. For a beta woman who was petite in stature she looked extremely capable of taking down even an alpha in this moment. The rest of his family was not fairing any better.
He then proceeded to tell them all about the nasty lies and rumors that Lee Eun-ae had been spreading about him for years. He also explained that it was because of her that he had been isolated and bullied by his classmates who were under the impression that he was the one talking bad about them and thought he was better than them. He also told his family how Lee Eun-ae had been telling anyone and everyone how he was promiscuous and had loose morals and was a gold digger, who was looking for a golden thigh to hug and hump in order to get away from my "pathetic, working poor, upper lower-class family."
"That fucking bitch! I will kick her ass myself!" Everyone was so taken aback by Mrs. Tae Eun-Kyung's outburst and her use of swear words that they were rendered speechless. It was already beyond comprehension that Lee Eun-ae would say those false and hateful things about Phoenix but to hear their equally kindhearted and gentle mother speak this way was almost too much to comprehend and handle.
'Oh, My, Galaxies! My new mother can actually have that kind of aura. I have no doubt she would kill Lee Eun-ae if given the chance. I need to do something and calm her and everyone else down.' He thought to himself before speaking up.
"Everyone please calm down, I have a plan, but I will need your help to make sure it works. I know that you all do not believe her lies and what I am upset with the most is how she talked about you all. That is my bottom line, and she knows it. I will take her down but for now she cannot know that I know about all this, so I need you all to act as normal as possible if she comes around or contacts you. I do not put it past her to hire a water army and enlist her fans to come after me and defame me once she finds out I will be on The Chef and The Celebrity. I know she will come after not just me but you as well if you do or say anything. The longer we all act like we are still in the dark the better. I plan to set a trap for her to fall into and make it to where she can never crawl out. I want her only way out to be death. I know that may be very hard to handle and comprehend coming from me of all people, but I do not care. No one, absolutely no one is allowed to come after those I love. She will pay dearly for all she has done. I understand if you are disappointed in me or even lost respect for me, but this is how I fell. I am done hiding my true self from everyone and that includes you all as well."
Once he finished speaking, he sat quietly and held his family's gazes, showing his resolve and determination. Though he was keeping up a strong and almost in different outward appearance on the inside he was fighting to keep his rising anxiety at bay as he waited for their answers. Luckily, he did not have to wait long just a mere 30 seconds or so, but those few seconds felt like a lifetime to him.
"Alright son, we will all listen to you and do as you ask. In return we ask that you be even more cautious and diligent against her. Do not let her deceive or gas light you again." Mr. Beyol Shin said with a tone that spoke of how much he struggled to hold back his anger and sadness for his son. The rest of the Beyols agreed though they too were struggling to keep their anger and instincts to protect Nix in check.
As difficult as it is for them to accept, they all understand that he is a grown man now and that they need to respect his wishes to deal with this problem as he sees fit. Although they were a bit taken aback by his cold determination to take that "fucking bitch" Lee Eun-ae down they were equally happy to know that he was no longer the naive and wide eye Bong Tae-Hwan he used to be. They all thought that it was rather fitting that he goes by Phoenix, now that he is no longer the same.
He felt so relieved that his family agreed and handled the news of everything fairly well; honestly, they took it way better than he was anticipating. He smiled, stood up and walked to his father, who quickly embraced his son if a big bear hug. Beyol Shin had never been this worked up in his whole life, to think his poor son has been dealing with all this own his own. Mrs. Tae Eun-Kyung felt the same and also hugged Phoenix as tight as she could when he and her husband were done hugging. Phoenix then went and hugged each of his siblings.
"Thank you, thank you all so much for everything you do for me! I know you do it because you love me unconditionally and do not expect a thank you in return, but I want to say it and I want, no I need each of you to understand just how much it means to me and how grateful I am to have you all! I promise to do all I can to make you proud and to give you all you have given me. I honestly would not be here now if it were not for you all!"
And that was the truth Phoenix honestly would not be here if it were not for the Beyol family, as it was Beyol Bong Tae-Hwan's greatest wish to give back to and take care of his family that had always selflessly and unconditionally taken care of him. They all smiled at each other as they shared this precious moment with each other, which strengthened their familial bonds and love for one another. Noticing the time Mrs. Tae Eun-Kyung urged her children to hurry up and get dressed and out the door for work and school.
Beyol Joon and Phoenix were tasked with clearing the table and when they finished, they each bowed to their parents and nuna. Beyol Young-Jae bid them all a good day and left for work, while Mr. and Mrs. Beyol along with Beyol Eun-Ha left to start the food prep for the day. Both Phoenix and Beyol Joon rushed to their rooms to quickly get ready and grab their stuff. He then he and Beyol Joon quickly left to change and grab their bags in order to head out the door for school.
Once in his room Phoenix looked through the closet and was utterly disappointed and disgusted with the options that hung in it. "Should I just burn all these horrific clothes? Hmm, no that would be a waste, I will just donate them to a homeless shelter or something. There are always those who need anything they can get. I know, all too well because that was me more times than I can count but that is all in the past now. Solaris, please remind me to take these to a shelter or even an orphanage oh and to donate a bunch of new and nicer clothes and toys to a few orphanages."
Solaris who jumped up on the bed simply replied, "Yes Mama Phoenix" and made himself comfortable while he gave his Mama privacy to get ready. After all he was a good little phoenix-dragon and not a perv, who gawks at someone while they change.
Phoenix unlike Beyol Bong Tae-Hwan refused to dress in the drab and cold and unobtrusive clothes that that nasty bitch Lee Eun-ae convinced him to wear. Instead, he had Solaris pull some of his favorite pieces from The Nursery. Once he decided on an outfit, he quickly styled his hair and stepped back to look at himself in the long body mirror that hung on the back of his bedroom door.
Today he wore a v neck, rolled ¾ length sleeves in a stunning pearlescent white silk button down blouse, tucked in so that accentuated his slim waist and toned arms and chest. Paired with black form fitting pants that emphasized his round perky butt and elongated his slim but toned legs with the pin stripes in the same pearlescent white color as his blouse. He paired them a black belt with a silver buckle, amethyst earrings that complimented his beautiful eyes, layered delicate silver chain necklaces, his communicator on his left wrist and a silver and amethyst special ring on his right middle finger. He wore a pair of black leather booties that were made up of a monster hide he had attained from a previous world he visited. He looked elegant, timeless, beautiful and yet sexy as hell all at the same time.
Thanks to the shell being a dominant omega and Phoenix enhancing the body to its optimal state he did not need any makeup as his skin was flawless, but he decided to add a little lip gloss. What stunned Phoenix the most was discovering the body had a single beauty mark delicately located on the outside of the underside of his left eye. It was a soft brown color that complimented his ivory skin with its soft pink almost neutral undertone. He was surprised because he had always had this particular beauty mark in every life he lived and world he had been to. He was not sure why it was this way, but he never thought much about it. But now it plucks at his curiosity, just one more thing to think about later when he has the chance to.
This particular leather hide was feather light in weight, skip proof, and were damage proof and needed special mana infused tools to penetrate or cut. This leather was typically used for mid-grade armor in that world but in this world, they would make for the perfect shoe to wear in the kitchen because of their properties they would keep his toes and feet safe from anything that may drop on them, not to forget that they are also skid proof which is highly important when working in a professional kitchen.
"Damn, and I did not think this body could look any better, but I was so incredibly wrong! Why in tarnation did he not realize that Lee Eun-ae was jealous and just wanted to make sure that people did not pay more attention to him. That crazy, bigot, black lotus bitch truly has an inferiority complex when it comes to the shell. Ha, I cannot wait until she sees the 'new' me! What do you think Solaris? How do I look and please be honest." He asked out loud since they were alone in his bedroom.
"Solaris, what do you think? Do I look ok, or should I change?" He asked and had to bite his lower lip to stifle a nervous laugh. Nix was not sure why but the little guy's opinion was very important to him.
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