"Who knows? I miss him so much that I think I'm going crazy." Monica could only be honest with Jeanne.
"You clearly love him so much. Why can't you be a little more selfish?"
"I just can't do it. Besides, I don't regret it now. I just feel terrible whenever I think of Finn. You don't know..." Monica swallowed the words that were on the tip of her tongue.
Forget it. She planned to endure the fact that Finn slept with another woman. It could be considered her making up to Finn for her choosing to help Michael.
She could just... forget it.
Jeanne waited a long time, but when Monica did not continue her sentence, she said, "About you and Dr. Jones, you have to be mentally prepared."
Jeanne was reminding her that it was very likely that they would not be together again.
Nevertheless, Monica did not care, or perhaps she was in denial.