I love you

[] = The interface or something related to Subaru on a power basis

" " = Normal convo

' ' = When the MC or SC is thinking something really important

-- -- = sound effects or missions

PS: Should we just make Subaru a heroic spirit Alter although he is mixed with Shinigami blood as well just to avoid confusion.

And secondly just because Subaru has power now doesn't mean the suffering will be any less, as a matter of fact, I will tell you this now, I'm going to make his life a living hell in this world.

And thirdly, as you can see Subaru mother mom is way out of character, I actually wanted to do an arc when he comes back to the Re: zero world and back to Earth, so I made Subaru mom an OC of mines as her backstory play an important role in the future arcs

And lastly, this will be a long chapter consisting of 10,000 words since it is the chapter where he gets transported and has a very important conversation with his mother.

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I just finish touching many things in this house a while ago, and I found myself in a rather troublesome situation regarding Excalibur right after I finish, and to be honest, I curse my luck-- you see when I was fooling around my eternal partner [Exca: (Excalibur)] I notice I couldn't remove the sword from its scabbard.

Contemplating this fuck up situation I tried to find a way to remove it from its scabbard regardless knowing that I won't for some reason.

It got so annoying till I literally wanted to destroy the thing right where it laid-- but later failed as I found out the sad and realistic truth that the scabbard itself was nigh-indestructible.

Of course, this information came from the "Book of truth" which gives me information about things I want to know.

And to my annoyance, I began to grief at the loss that I may really and truly never wield Excalibur-- so in my anger, I began to curse my luck along with Excla's stubbornness.

"What the fuck is this-- first my devil gamble skill that I can't use because of my shitty Luck."

"Now the fucking sword of my dreams is acting stubborn-- talk about fucking tsundere."

But amazingly as I said those words, I suddenly felt an immense electric shock course through my palms and travel through my entire body.

--Buzz--

--Aghhhh--

I collapsed to the floor with tears in my eye as the sudden pain took me by surprise, causing me to lose all control over my body for a short period of time.

If you see me now, I know for a fact you would laugh or pity my current situation as I was seen twitching on the floor-- eventually, goosebumps became visible all over my skin.

And after about 30 seconds of shocking pain, I manage to stand up, and when I look down that when I saw it the sword guard was glowing a bright red-- and that was when I hit me as well, or more like I kind of figure out where that sudden eclectic current came from.

I wasted no time to make my anger known as I looked down giving Exca a hateful glare and said with an angry tone.

"Y-You dare shock your master, you fiend."

And when I said that it hit me with another shock and I think we all know how that played out-- and yet again after I managed to compose myself, I could not help but say.

"Sonova bitch that hurts."

"Why are you hurting me."

The sword simply vibrates almost like it was pouting in anger and annoyance.

I couldn't understand what it was trying to tell me but I more or less got the intention of what it wanted to say-- almost like some kind of six sense between two best friends, and if my Tsundere translator skills are working it roughly translates to.

[Drop dead]

"What the heck did I do to you-- are you fucking crazy you tsundere bitch or asshole either way gender or not the fact still remains that you are a fucking psychotic tsund...

--Buzzzzz--

--Aghhhhhh!--

The sword then commenced to shock me as it began to vibrate like crazy, and believe it or not it was confirmed my sword was a fucking tsundere because the intention behind this one was.

[Im not a fucking tsundere you idiot]

I drop to the ground yet again as my hair was standing up due to electric current traveling through my body, so in my anger, I remove my hands from the sword as I say with disdain for Exca.

"Fuck you."

I know it was a pathetic comeback but I couldn't do anything to this disrespectful sword because as I throw it away, it always teleports right back to my side, so getting rid of this useless hunk of sentient metal was impossible.

"I guess the term, be careful about what you wish for really backfired on me ha... ahahaha... how laughable is this situation."

That was all I could say to myself, so I went ahead and open the book of truth to get some answer on why the fucking tsundere sword was turning on me, and believe it or not, the answer I got just pissed me off even more than it should.

"As it would appear that my Zanpakuto has finally awakened according to my desires-- but you see the fuck up catch was that my Zanpakuto just got cocked from its own existence."

"I know it sounds ridiculous and hilarious at the same time."

"Even I started to believe that my luck was so the real villain out to get me."

"Now to show you how fuck up this whole situation is, I'm going to have to explain to you what happens to my poor Zanpakuto."

"You see the problem lies at the very birth of my sword spirit itself, according to the book of truth, why you ask, well it was simple, and the answer to that question was like this."

"You see my Zanpakuto scabbard which bears the name "Avalon" was housing the soul of some unknown entity within it, and the original Zanpakuto spirit that was supposed to be born from my desires was overtaken by the soul inside."

"Which caused the original Zanpakuto existence to be suppressed, in short, the person that behaving like a tsundere straight-up replace my Zanpakuto existence."

"Now tell me, if this situation doesn't define the true meaning of bad luck, then I don't know what is-- because now I can't even use Excalibur."

And When I read all the information from the Book of Truth, I curse my luck even more and, in my anger, I took out Excalibur in a fit of desperation and gave it a look as if to say explain yourself

But it didn't answer, so I asked it upfront.

"You're not my Zanpakuto are you."

[...]

The sword still didn't answer, so I demanded once more.

"Who the hell are you and what did you do to my poor Zanpakuto you fricking Zanpakuto wannabee spirit."

And just as I said that the bright glowing red light it glows dimmed down to nothing-- and any response I try to get out of it cease to exist.

And Exca was now a sword without a voice and for some reason, I feel as if it was going to avoid this question for as long as it can, in short Exca was useless to me if it refuses to even co-operate with me.

"Fuck my shity luck."

That was all I could say, there was nothing else to explain this situation, for it was a tragedy-- I somehow wish for someone to feel my pain now.

"But you know what I won't let this stop me from becoming the strongest so what if I can't use Excalibur if there is a gun there is a way, but my only question is how this whole situation started."

"How the fuck did a stray soul take over my Zanpakuto existence, I could have sworn that the Hogyoku just created a perfect replica of the original Excalibur unless...

"Unless the sword wasn't mine from the very begging, it could be a possibility though, maybe the Hogyoku usurped the blade from the original owner and just converted it into a skill in order for me to use it... and as a result, the mysterious soul transmigrates over as a result... agh can't I get a break for once in my life."

But as I was about my curse my shit luck for the ninth time an alarm went off sweeping me from my thoughts that reek of chronic depression.

--Beep--

This alarm wasn't anything too special, it just served as a schedule and a reminder.

You see I set it up as a way to tell me that I only have two more hours remaining before I get kidnapped, and transported to another world.

And with that said.

"It would seem that it was time for me to say goodbye or at least apologize to both my parents."

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I was walking down the stairs; I know I only had about an hour before I headed back upstairs to change and leave for the other world.

I was still in my tracksuit, believe it or not I had 40 pairs of these things, thankfully I have already taken a shower, I prefer to be clean when I leave for the other world.

But enough of that you see the first place I was going to head for was the kitchen where I would talk to my mom first, but on my way there I met my father instead.

"Truly fate is a mysterious thing."

I ponder to myself since the person I intended to meet first was my mother and not my father but so be it.

I then went near him; he still hasn't noticed me yet.

He was watching a pre-recording that he had recorded one week prior.

It was a Martial art movie called the Dragon fist-- that was so like him he has always loved things that pertain to violence, martial arts, or sports.

He then looks at me as he patted the chair telling me to sit down.

I wasted no time, after all, I don't have much of it left, and knowing that I won't spend the entire hour with them was hurting me more than I wanted it to, truly fate is a bitch.

'Why am I destined to suffer in a world I had no intention to go to anyway, maybe I should destroy it to impose on my happiness here, Asura isn't to blame since he was going to send me there anyways-- after all, he said he would give me these abilities regardless but in the end, I can't even decide for myself where I want to go, I hate it, I really hate it, you know what maybe I should give that world a piece of my mine yes world domination seems fun, but I don't want to be tied down by its rules.'

As my negative thoughts started to surface in my head, I began to feel something well up inside me, something that I shouldn't condone but yet just the thought that I will be separated from my family when I'm finally aiming to be a better person distracted me from suppressing such horrible thoughts.

And as if my innermost desire started to manifest in my consciousness that is when it appears my first mission and the hardest of them all, but it was also the very mission that would forever change who or what I am.

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[Notice the mission "Doors to the Pantheons" has been established]

[Mission Synopsis: This mission could be considered a mythical grade mission as it will offer you something similar to God-hood upon completion but yet something far from it as a whole, this mission will be split into five sectors and after completing all five sectors the true ordeal shall be tasked upon you]

--Misson logs--

Mission 1: Enslaved the witch of Envy

Mission 2: Get five divine sponsors of any rank

Mission 3: Reach level 999

Mission 4: Bring the world political order to its knees

Mission 5: World Domination

--Rewards--

one Grand spin

(A/N): A grand spin in Subaru case still relies on luck but whatever he gets will absolutely be considered as something powerful.

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When the interface came before me the words on it were blood-red instead of orange and the background was purple maybe as a way to show me just how hard this mission truly was.

I then saw it went onto another interface that marked [quest] honestly my life was getting more and more like a game by the second

But I couldn't worry about this quest now and honestly, it sounded interesting but even I know that going to another world to rule it was a task that would be harder than ruling the Earth itself, after all, if my anime instinct is right.

Then there will be a couple of Deus Ex Machina existence over on that end, or maybe some all-powerful type dragon, spirit, or deity that oversees it-- honestly speaking even I know that I can't beat any of them as I am now.

'Yes I most likely will have to manipulate or use a couple of important individuals If I want to see my way over there, but honestly speaking this sounds like a pain now that I think about it-- but anyways Asura did say I had to make an army for some apocalyptic event that was to come, so let's make my goal in that world one were everyone grovel at my feet it's not like I have any connection to them anyways, yeah let's just make use of them to make my life easier, after all in four years there will be nothing to save if I don't do anything about it so I'm taking the world as my reward.'

And just when I was thinking some rather menacing thoughts in my head that even shocked me a little, since I had never thought of something so evil in my life or did, I want to but for some reason doing what I want just felt so right.

But little did I know at the time was that my slow change of personality was all Asura doing in some shape or form, after all, taking a demon's hand wasn't something a lot of people would do since the cost was immense much less a demon God one so, in the end, my nature was bound to be corrupted and turn into a more demonic one over-time.

But as I was thinking to myself my father brought me back to reality, as he said with a rather concerning tone.

"S*b&^%."

"S*b&r%."

"Subaru."

I snap back to reality.

"Ahh... yes father."

Kenichi was enjoying one of his favorite martial art movies till he suddenly felt some beside him and when he looked to his left his heart almost left him, at first, he thought it was his wife because the person beside him was giving off an oddly familiar facial expression when they think of something is interesting or fun, and whatever they were thinking was far from it.

But upon further inspection, he notices this person was his son-- at this very moment, he was becoming very concerned for his son, and his very own safety, why you ask, well his beloved wife was born with a very concerning family disorder.

'It was what he called yanderism, in short, a mental disease that can turn them either into homicidal sociopaths or clinically insane psychopaths in the moment of a rash decision, the worst-case scenario is that they will start believing that self-harm or suicide is ok or the easiest suggestion when they reach a roadblock in life.'

Truly this was concerning since his one and only son was giving off a rather scary aura along with visible a terrifying and sadistic smile which makes his facial expression terrifying even worse with his seppuku which he also inherited from his mother.

Truly this was a disaster waiting to happen so in concern he voices out his thoughts as he said.

"Subaru."

"Subaru!"

Kenichi called out his son's name three times but he still wasn't hearing him.

"This was very concerning, I can't even reach him, he is in his own little world --sigh-- sometimes I wonder why my luck is so shitty just when I was trying to raise him into a fine young man, without his mother genes interfering but it looks like all my work was futile in the end."

Kenechi then began to call him once more.

"Subaru."

And after doing this for about two minutes he finally got through to him.

"Ahhh... yes father."

I was deep in my thought I completely forgot that I was in front of my father, but it's kind of weird that he was giving me a look as if he was looking at my mother.

So, I looked at him and spoke.

"Sorry father I was just thinking about some rather important things regarding my future, actually I came here to talk to you."

"I see, yeah your future is very important."

"Hahaha... yeah... but I just wanted to tell you something very important."

At these words Kenichi raised a brow, normally his antisocial cool-headed son would normally act normally in front of him and his wife Naoko while behaving emotionless most of the time when they interact with each other.

But as lately he has been acting weird from the very moment, he got up this morning.

Last night as well, as of lately he was more interactive than usual.

"Was this same person who ditched school for two months due to an emotional turmoil within himself."

But Kenichi was saying that he was taken by surprise by Subaru's sudden bow and apology.

"Father... I know this is sudden but please allow me to sincerely apologize for everything that I had done till now, I want to say I'm sorry for being a total disappointment, the truth is I have always wanted to be like you, but no matter how hard I try I just end up in your shadow."

"Suba...

"I know it was horrible mentality to muster up, I know that I shouldn't think like that but after some thinking, I decided I wanted to have a fresh start, so I can do something with my life, something worth mentioning some that can make you and mom proud an achievement like no other."

"Subaru."

That is why I decided that I at least want to tell you I'm sorry, And I want to make it up to you guys by becoming a better person and I will also study harder to before to make sure, honestly with all the failure I have achieved I don't blame you for wanting to kick me out of the house and tell me to get a life, after all, I been nothing but a hopeless selfish parasite leeching off of your generosity...

"Surprised fatherly head butt."

"Eh...

--Smash--

I watched my father get up with a rather annoyed expression on his face as he lifts his right leg high in the air ax kicked me in the head again-- but this time I wasn't the one to scream in pain.

As the sound of bones cracking echoed through the hallway along with father's screams of pain, he wasn't expecting it at all.

"Agh, the hell is this, did your head get harder overnight or some shit."

Subaru gave a defeated expression since it does make sense his father's attack was akin to that of a toddler, since his ascension to a spirit, but he still refuses his claims by saying.

"Well, first of all, father this is just proof that you are getting old, and second of all why are consistently trying to bash my head in."

Subaru's father gave him a serious look as he said.

"Why am I trying to smash your head in, well it's because you don't get it you moron."

"Moron me."

I said while pointing to myself.

"Who else but you son, but you know, you're pretty dumb, aren't ya?"

I gave him a surprised look and all I could say was.

"H-Huh?"

"A lot about what you said bothers me. but you know what's the worst?"

"You wanted me to hate you."

"So, you tried to achieve that by playing hooky? are you dumb?!"

"No, your definitely dumb, and if want to get me to throw you out, pick a more active method for Christ's sake."

"And I will say this again because honestly speaking you blocked out everything, I told you yesterday and again who would ditch their own kid just because he retreated into his shell?!"

"You're so twisted, you're on the fast track to being an idiot."

"I'd be glad to set you straight by force if want...

"But it looks like you've already been knocked down, and stood yourself back up, so there's no need."

"Hehe...

I look at my father rather shocked at how he just let out all his emotions in one go, and to be honest now that I think about it-- "I truly have been an idiot."

So, to make sure I don't disappoint him any further than I have, I got up and looked at him with a smile and spoke.

"Thank you, dad, you have no idea how much those words mean to me like... sob...sob... I... sob... I really love you... I really love you guys more than what either of you can understand."

I didn't know why... but I felt all the build-up emotion I have been suppressing for the past two months release itself without my consent, as I break down in tears right in front of my father.

"I'm sorry, I really have been an idiot but I promise that I will stop today so wait for me and...

--Grab--

But before I could say what I wanted; I was embraced by my father as he gave me a bear hug well slowly rubbing my head.

"See, was that so hard, was it so hard for you to be true to yourself and just be honest for once instead of suffering on your own, truly you're an idiot but you are my only son, so I will end it with this, stop been some you're not and be yourself for a change you're not Natsuki Kenichi the greatest athletes nor are you Natsuki Naoko the cook, but you are Natsuki Subaru the greatest Idiot, but I'm sure you will find your goal or objective in life sooner or later."

"Yeah... thanks dad I really have been an idiot that was not a lie."

"Now that's out of the way, why don't you go help your mother finish baking the cookies in the oven."

"Yes."

I then leave to go to the kitchen where I see my mom humming a tune to herself smiling while she was washing some dishes and upon arrival, the smell of freshly baked chocolate chip cookies enters my nose.

The smell could only be described as heavenly, something I really loved ever since I was a child, and just when I was about today something my mother interrupted me as she said with her usual smile.

"I see so you finally awaken your mother's genes so tell me Subaru, what do you plan on doing now since you have come to a decision tell me who is the lucky girl, what do you strive for, or what is your end goal."

When Subaru heard her mother end goals, he was completely bewildered what the actual fuck was going on.

"W-What are you talking about mo...

--Stab--

But before I could finish saying what I wanted to say I was interrupted when I noticed something was coming in my direction at a really fast speed and it may be reflex or instinct.

I heard something sharp cutting through the air and when I looked, I saw my beloved mom take her kitchen knife and literally throw it at me.

And when it was literally one inch from my face and about to take my right eye, my left-hand move with incredible speed as I grab the knife causing blood to drop down from my hand, I look up in fear to my mother who was crying while slowly clapping her hands, as she said with a very scary and gleeful tone as to state her enjoyment.

--Clap--

"Subarashii."

"Truly magnificent indeed, it's beyond my comprehension, a miracle beyond any miracle I have witnessed before now has given birth before my very eyes, yes you truly are inconceivable existence my son what I thought impossible is now glimmering with brilliance truly you are a star indeed, I was starting to worry that my family heritage wouldn't flow thru your blood since you're not a full blood Enuma."

I watch my mother in pure shock as words couldn't describe how confused and terrified, I was at this very moment if my reflex wasn't upgraded by Asura, I would definitely be dead by now.

But even so, I couldn't be trapped in this confusing trance for too long so I looked up at my mother and spoke.

"M-Mother."

"Yes, my beloved son."

"Did, you just try to k-kill m...

"Kill you with that knife, well yes."

My heart pause at this sentence, I hope it was an accident but yet here she is my beloved mother admitting that she indeed plan on killing me, it bewildered me, it scared me, it completely destroyed me inside.

"To think my own mother wanted me dead, I know I was failure hahaha... I guess I can't blame you."

I said with a dead impression on my face.

But the reply I got next, took me by surprise.

"Failure no you far from that, if anything you are complete success my greatest creation, a blessing that will make the family I so earnestly try so hard to create prosperity even further."

"Haa... what do you mean success."

"Son I didn't throw that knife to kill you, it was a mere test to see if my bloodline awakens in you, and to be honest I'm still not sure, but you definitely use mana to enhance your senses at the last minute for sure, it's faint but I can sense the mana dancing around you, but it enough to considered you a magus."

Ok now I was really confused what the hell she is even talking about and why does she know about the existence of mana when this place doesn't have any.

"Mom, what are you talking about."

My mother looks at me with the highest form of glee one can muster up as she walks toward me and speaks.

"Give me your hand."

I was so shocked by her action, but I gave her my hand just to see what she would do to me out of mere curiosity about the situation, and what she did next really did shock me, which let me secretly question if my entire life was just a lie.

My mother then took my hand as she placed hers over mine and spoke.

[Kuṇappaṭutta]

And right after she said those words a red aura started to leak from her hands and the wound, I received from her earlier started to slowly disappear.

I look at this in shock, how could I not my mother was using magic right before my very eyes as it was nothing-- the person that raised me, I know my mother was very fuck in the head but now I find out she is able to use magic and she also knows about the existence of mana like who the fuck are you woman are my mentally sick in the head mother or are you my mentally sick in the head mother that can use magic.

I watched as the wound finished healing at an unorthodox speed and after it was finished my mother removed her hand and went back to humming.

While she went toward the oven and retrieved her pair of kitten mittens and removed the hot trays of cookies from the oven, and placed them by the window to cool.

From there I watch as she casually pours herself a warm cup of hot tea, and another that I guess was for me.

She then taps the seat across the next side of the table while saying.

"Sit down I'm sure you have a lot of questions."

"A lot of questions are too humble of a word if you ask me."

"I see please sit down and allow me to explain."

I then proceed to take a seat a little weary since my mother literally tried to kill me, but nothing I can't handle hopefully I don't want to think or imagine If I use something that might kill her, I would rather kill myself if it comes to that, was what I was thinking at the moment.

But I soon swatted out of my thoughts as my mother said.

"So, what do you want to know first."

I ponder the question while I look at the time thirty-eight minutes before I'm Isekaied.

So, I took a deep breath and began thinking about what I should ask first and the most obvious question was this.

"Who are you really."

She smiled at this question, not something new to me, she normally does this when something intrigued her, so I know this might be important.

"To answer that question, we have to get into my family history something I rather not talk about or much less discuss as of now, after all, there Is so much I want to protect you from, let us just say I'm a dirty traitor label by many of my lineage."

"In short I am but a nameless rouge magus with some rather unique magic."

"A rouge magus.... mom so is you really a magic girl that pretty awesome, does dad know about this whole magus business though, he seems pretty loss."

"There was a time when he knew but I know I couldn't live a normal life with the man I love if he knew about my status as a magus so I erase his memories."

"What?!... are you serious well I can't blame you but why are you trying to hide."

I ask with great interest.

"Subaru magus or mages is far from the word friendly, they are corrupted human beings who wouldn't hesitate to kill if it means they can get some kind of benefits, and I don't wish to bring either you or your father into that world not yet that is."

"What... I see, so you planned on telling me about this sometime in the future ha...

"To be honest I plan on telling you when I was sure that you were capable of learning magic you see I come from a rather prestigious family of rather a powerful magus."

"Wait, are you serious?"

"Yap but they want me dead more than anything else since I kill my elder brother and forcefully extract his magic crest that was on his heart and transplant it into mine."

"Transplant a magic crest haa... if you don't mind me asking what is that."

"Think of it as an archive of sorts, it basically a crest that contains information of former predecessor pass on to one generation to an another, and every time it passes on it becomes more powerful and easier to use, in my case my family goes back all the way to the age of the Gods exactly around the time when Gilgamesh ruled Uruk, and another thing we are secretive family so much so not even all of the five great magus family know of our existence probably only two of them."

I was really shocked at this statement, I was finding a lot of things about my mother, could Asura know about this as well so I decided to ask and see.

"Age of the Gods you say, am mother was there by chance a God name Asura that existed around that time."

I look at my mother who had a confused face as she said.

"What?"

"I said do you know if there was a God named Asura in the age of the Gods."

"Subaru can you say that name again honestly you sound demonic just saying it."

"A-su-ra."

"I don't know what the hell you are saying son, to me it sounds like your talking gibberish while choking on a fishbone while your echoes of agony and cries for help are being enhanced by a loudspeaker, it sounds rather ominous what a weird name for a god, if what I heard could even be considered one."

It was at this moment that I realized something really important.

'My mother couldn't even comprehend my God's name; it was a weird phenomenon.'

So, I decided to just drop the topic and speak.

"It's ok I just wanted to know because I was reading a rather interesting book about Gods of old and that one deity had an interesting story."

My mother gave me a rather suspicious look but thankfully, I managed to keep a poker face, she couldn't see through, so she just moved on and said.

"Is there anything else?"

"Well yeah, you said that I awaken and miracle, how did you even know I awaken your family magic."

"Well for one I could sense the mana coming off you, and you didn't have that yesterday so yeah, and also when I saw you this morning your hair was white, and I must say you can fool your father but you can't fool me, I guess your hair went from black to white due to your awakening your origin."

"Origin what might that be?"

"Well, you see an Origin is a...

--Beep--

Just when my mother was about to explain what the origin is, fate started to play a very odd game with me as the beeping sound started to come from the microwave oven.

Which caused both I and mother to look in its direction.

"Oh my, it would seem that popcorn is finally finished."

Stated my mother who was getting up to attend to the food she was preparing.

"Agh... mother am...

"Subaru let's finish this conversation another time I still have some important things to tell you such as what are servants, the holy grail war, the mage association, and the importance of mana transfer."

"And also, your father didn't ask me to make some cookies and popcorn for movie night, so I will have to deal with that, we will talk later."

When I heard those words, I frown because in my case there is no later.

I think my mother saw the sadness on my face so she took out something from under her skirt and placed it in front of me.

It was a small rectangular box, it had some rather ancient marking on it, the edges were crimson red, and the rest of it was a menacing purple almost like Asura's hair when he got mad at me.

While on the center of it was a white skull with a serpent going through its mouth and eyes along-- but what was also noticeable was a beautiful bloody rose was growing from within as well.

I looked at it in shock, while I looked back at her and spoke.

"What is this."

"Well there is a scroll inside that will explain the importance of the real thing inside which is called a catalyst I don't have time to explain nor do I know the origins of the catalyst, but it was something my family guarded with their life, I also snatch this from brother corpse as well-- so I'm giving it to you and if fate so decide that it is your destiny to participate in two years when the next holy grail war comes by, then so be it."

After that, my mother then left with all the snacks to the hall but before she did, I said.

"Mother I love you, and like I told my father thank you for everything, and also look at the top shelf to the right the code is 6,7,4,4,2,1 if you forget it then look under the bed where my safe is-- look underneath it and the answer you seek will be there."

My mother gave me a rather confused look but she did overhear my previous conversation with my father and probably misunderstood my last statement like I planned, so she simply said these last words to me as a way to make me feel better.

"I didn't make you because I wanted you to do something for me, I made you because I wanted to do something for you so, please don't overwork yourself in your studies to become a master and a magus."

'A master --sigh-- I don't understand most of these terms she is using.'

After that, my mother left the kitchen to go and watch some recorded movies with my father, while I spend the last remaining minute just watching them enjoy themselves as I partake in her lovely cookies and delicious tea, she made herself, and a couple of minutes later my alarm went off.

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[20 minutes remaining]

'It was hard to come clean upfront even I know that wasn't a proper goodbye, despite finding out the truth about me, my mother.'

'So, it was kind of meh at best-- it was just a half-ass attempt at it, but yeah I had no choice in the matter as half-ass is the best, I can do right now it hurts me, it really those, I really wanted to come clean About everything.'

'I wanted to come clean about Asura, I wanted to come clean about me being an apostle, about my powers, about my hair, about my eyes, and about my disappearance that was about to occur.'

'But in the end, I just told them sorry while saying the best I love you I could at the time, I know well my mother would definitely believe me even I don't know why I hesitate to come clean.'

'It really hurts, it makes me feel sick with myself so much I could vomit right here and now-- but for their sake, I didn't, after all, this goodbye is only temporary but it still hurts nonetheless.'

'And now knowing my mother mysterious Origin I believe that women will definitely come to a conclusion about my whereabouts but I do have a couple of things prepared to make the truth known to my parents, I have no hope for my father finding it though-- but my mother well she definitely could maybe use some weird magic again.'

'But honestly speaking this just got me worried about a lot of things like who is she hiding from and why was she established as a traitor, maybe because she kills her brother but then and again, I feel as if the crest in her heart holds more importance than the mere life of my mother's brother.'

I sit back knowing that I couldn't stay here long and when I got enough, I took the mysterious gift my mother gave me and put it in my pocket, as I will pack it with my belongings to carry with me to the other world.

And after that, I watch the face of both my mom and my dad enjoying a movie that was pre-recorded from last week-- but even I know that I couldn't watch them for too long, after all, my alarm went off again, as I watch the timer in despair.

[15 minutes remaining]

"I see I can't waste any more time then."

So, I gave my parents one last look and burn their happy smile in my memory, and said in a soft melancholy tone.

"Take care."

And with those words, I rushed upstairs to my room as I began to gear up.

The first thing I went to put on was the single pair of stats boosting clothes which consist of an orange and black robe with the external feature of the robe being pitch black and the interior was a beautiful shade of bright orange.

Underneath it was a skin-tight black shirt that was rather comfortable despite the material, and on my lower body consist of black work pants along with black and orange fur boots, the entire shoes were black except for the orange fur on the top of the boot exterior.

From there I took the gift my mother gave to me and placed it inside a pocket close to my boots, which were meant to hide knives.

It didn't have lases but instead, an orange zipper going up at the back of it, from there I took the beautiful long full-colored orange scarf and wrap it around my neck, and right after I did that my body began to feel a foreign power that started to invade it, my entire body then began to leak an orange aura, it was so bright that it outshines the light in my room.

And if you were before my presence your entire body would feel like it was been engulfed by a warm flame that was slowly healing you.

(A/N): Imagine Reinhard when he starts to absorb the mana in the atmosphere which causes the raw mana to dance off his body practically giving him a major boost in power in his case.

And right after that surge of aura that was leaking off my body, a set of notifications came before me starting.

[Your agility stats have increased by +20 due to the boots of the purge king]

[Your Vitality has increased by + 25 due to the Pants of the purge king]

[Your endurance has increased by +35 due to the cloak of the purge king]

[Your strength has increased by +35 due to the cloak of the purge king]

[Your Mana has increased by + 30 due to the scarf of the purge king]

[Congratulation you gain the unique grade purge king costume set]

[Notice due to getting the full purge king set you gain the universal skill "The Mercy of Mana"]

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--Ability logs--

.The Mercy of Mana: A healing type universal skill with two functions the first being singular healing and the second being domain healing to start off singular healing gives you +1 health point every 30 seconds and it is always active while domain healing is active type healing ability that makes you stretch your mana which potentially heals your allies once they are within the domain range which is ten-meter circulating at 360-degree radius, only this time its +5 Health points every twenty-second-- please note the skill second function burn mana at a rapid rate.

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When Subaru saw this his reaction was like this.

"Holy shit, this is some pretty awesome starting gear although the name purge king sounds kind of ominous the guy that had that title must have been really fuck in the head to be labeled as such."

"And the best part is that I gained a brand-new skill due to just owning the costume set and it a rather useful one as well, and to make things even better it's a healing skill at least I know I won't die easily, plus this awesome starting gear included is by far the luckiest thing that has happened to me all day, with this I can slowly accumulate health when I'm injured, and if my allies are fuck I can fix them up in a short span of time."

"Kind of lucky that it a universal skill, and if I remember correctly universal skills are skills that can act as both active and passive skill, or that what the book of truth said."

[10 minutes remaining]

--Sigh--

"Time is running out on me, we'll let's just put the rest of the gear on and leave through the window."

From there I then take Exca and place it around my waist, honestly, if we were in another world I most likely would be mistaken as a powerful swordsman since the mere presence of the sword itself gives off an ominous aura.

But the reality is that Exca was just a useless hunk of metal that refused to let me wield it but thankfully I have other weapons I could rely on.

"But I must say-- this shit looks good on me."

"And with the sword on it, a proper cosplay setup done right-- which means that I only have the book of truth and the Hydra eye mask left to equip."

I then took the book of truth and placed it inside a pocket that was located in the interior of my cloak, making it impossible for anyone to see.

And after I did that the Hydra eye mask was the last of the gear-- so I picked it up and gave it a look.

But for some reason, I was hesitant to put it on almost like a sixth sense telling me to prepare for something.

"Agh... it's just a mask Subaru, so stop wasting time."

And with that said I strengthen my resolves as I brought it closer to my face, but you know how this goes right.

And when the mask was literally 4 inches away from my face, the fucking thing began to transform into a head-size orange and black spider monster as it jumps on the face which cause me to fall on my bed, struggling to get it off.

"THE FUCK is this shit!"

--Screech--

The weird monster then screeches a loud triumphant roar as to say it was successful but it sounded like it was in my head more than anything else.

I couldn't pull it off since it was too fucking strong and when I stop resisting it stick on to upper part of my face as it took its sharp and pointed spider-like legs and drill eight holes that went through my skull easily, eventually reaching my brains.

Strangely though there was no pain, and after it did that the mask started to fuse with my face as it started to transform back into a mask, and right after it settled.

A weird feminine voice rang off in my head as it said.

[Now Synchronizing psyche link with the current host]

[Connection establishes]

[Now reading memory to gain further intelligence-- time till completion, 8 hours]

[Now giving the master access to five basic abilities of the Hydra eye mask to increase the survival rate till the completion of memory withdrawal]

[Aim bot function activated]

[Night vision activated]

[Heat sensory activated]

[x-ray sensory activated]

[Mana sensing activated]

This took me by surprise so much so I hurry ran to a mirror in my room just to see if my face still looks human.

And thankfully it did, the only difference is the fact that I had an eye mask on my face-- and new trauma thanks to it.

But apart from that nothing looks different at all.

--Sigh--

"Now that took me by surprise, I even frightened myself in the process."

"Well fuck, I guess I should leave now."

I then went to my locker and pulled out a pair of envelopes which were letters to my parents, I left them right on my bed, from there I turned off the light, and amazingly everything looks grey with fine details despite the darkness that engulf me.

"I guess this is the night vision capabilities of the Hydra eye mask it almost looks like I'm seeing from the perspective of an animal-- very interesting."

[5 Minutes remaining]

"Well, I guess that is my call to leave."

After I said that I went straight for my window and look down in fear I might have power but I'm not so sure if I could escape a drop from two and a half stories without injuries, so I took a deep breath and said to myself.

"Ok Subaru it's just a lesser leap of fate and with the amount of shit that you were destined to go through in the other world without the aid of Asura, this is nothing so let stop being pussy."

And after I gave myself a lecture, I began to close my eyes, grit my teeth, and pray to the devil that I don't hurt myself.

And after ten seconds of thinking, I jump from my window with everything I could muster up in my legs all the way down to my feet.

The bearing beneath me seems to have vanished which meant I jump in the heat of the moment, my eyes still shut as I am afraid to see what happens and the only thing, I could think about was.

"I hope I don't break a leg when I touch the ground."

Those thoughts were all I could think about in the heat of the moment, but the outcome was different from what I expected, why you ask well it was simple-- after about ten seconds of waiting for the impact to touch my leg, I realized something equally amazing and scary.

So, I opened my eyes and what I saw shocked me.

There I was at least forty meters away from the window I jump from and thirty meters in the sky traveling at high speed above the ground, something impossible for a human to achieve with their weak physical prowess.

But here I am traveling with the wind like it was nothing, and to boot up, I suddenly feel the second wave of power as soon as my body gets the first taste of moonlight.

I almost feel unstoppable, after all, it was my first-time holding power that was beyond human comprehension-- and almost if I have reached an answer, a state of enlightenment one would say.

And at this very moment, I realized two things.

The first was the fact that my worries were trivial-- if I were to add or compare my stats with the human of this world then in terms of physical prowess the average was a 3 or 4 in most physical attributes according to the book of truth.

While humans themselves exceed in leaps and bound in wisdom and intelligence field more than physical prowess-- like an average human intelligence would be between 8 and 12, while the abnormal, or as we called them, prodigies would be somewhere around 20 to 25 in terms of knowledge.

And if finally, I compare myself with them I would at least be ten times stronger than an average human, that is to say, quality doesn't play a role for example if a human with the stats of level 10 and has about 60 in each stats field while I am measly level 1 rookie with the said of 20 in each state field.

Manage to beat the said opponent with relative ease then that means that a single one of my stat points would be equivalent to 5 of that human state points.

If that is the case then race definitely plays a big role as a massive advantage.

But apart from that, the second thing I realized was probably the most important so much so I actually brought me to tears a little as I wiped the single tears coming down my face.

"In all my life I have always felt inferior despite some of the achievements I made on my own, but now I was blessed with unmatched potential I finally feel that my existence has meaning but at the same time why do I feel so empty."

"Aww I see, it's because I couldn't achieve all this on my own-- In the end, I'm still dependent on others no matter what I do ha.... haha well might as well make the most of it."

--Stomp--

Subaru then began to lose altitude as he continues to jump from roof to roof, his destination wasn't anywhere, in particular, he just wanted to get as far away as possible from his house as he didn't trust whatever the hell was going to kidnap him from this world.

Better safe than sorry thought to himself as he didn't want his parents launching into his mess.

But it still puzzled him what the hell would take him away from this world as he began to think to himself.

"How the hell will I be taken away from here, I know that it's a powerful entity-- but I don't know what its nature or intention are hence forts I can't trust it."

But just as Subaru was thinking about how he would be transported over to the other world, he was cut short by a sudden voice.

It was cold in nature but it sprouts out words of love in an indifferent tone that sounded caring, obsessive, and scary all at the same time.

Normally I wouldn't pay interest in things like that but the voice world almost felt like it holds a lot of power, as it began to go off inside my head in a never-ending notion.

And it was at that moment that I realized that I wasn't hearing things, no this voice beckons my existence, and men I wish I wasn't the person it beckons why you ask well it simple its mere voice stop the very fabric of time itself and how I know this for a fact.

Well minus the fact that I stop mid-air when I was jumping to the next roof-top I pause mid-air and not just me even the people walking on the street pause, the stray dogs fighting for food pause, everything before me have been put to a halt, even the very concept of sound itself was put on pause.

The only thing free from this stagnation was my consciousness as I can perceive everything around me with ease but it wasn't an enjoyable experience.

Why you ask, well like I said earlier everything was suddenly put to a halt even the feeling in my body was paused, I felt nothing but my own consciousness lingering I couldn't move left nor could I move right.

And at that moment I felt fear, truly I was terrified, I wanted to scream but that right has been revoked

I want to run but that has been revoked.

Even the urge to breathe fills my mind but even something as important as that has been revoked

Everything that was me has been revoked, and the only right I was given was the right to witness what is before me, yes whoever or whatever did this to me wanted me to look at it and only it.

This feeling of hopelessness was a new sensation that I disgust.

I felt weak and yes, I know I am weak but this level of depravity of any freedom made me feel a certain unexplainable level of weakness like no other.

At this point and time death would be a blessing, I desire not to know what lies ahead of me because the fear I felt at that moment was taking over my rationality to think straight.

But deep down for some odd reason, I felt as if, even the deepest clutches of death felt mean less before this thing-- it gave off an aura so intense and so menacing to the point that even death would gladly fuck off it was put into a predicament.

Inside my mind, I felt like I was trapped for centuries in an endless void of nothing, but in reality, only a couple of seconds passed by.

But because time stopped the perception of it was mean less and not worth mentioning at all, but I was shitting myself in my own thoughts that why I heard it.

A gentle and soft voice of a girl filled with indifference repeating three words over and over again and again, but the emotion behind them all carried deep emotion of want and long as it said with the obsessive tone while maintaining an emotionless atmosphere about itself.

["I love you"]

That was the first of many billions of "I love you" to come, the first time I heard it my heart fluttered for some reason, it felt so real but yet so unreal like love was there but the will to live for it wasn't.

It was weird, scary, and uncomfortable at the same time-- but I couldn't move because I was forced to listen to the entity's confession of mundane love.

["I love you; I love you; I love you, I love you, I love you."]

The voice continues to ring in my head, the repetitiveness became like a revolting drug, that made me sick-- my mind was crumbling and with each passing seconds or maybe years or even hours go by, but honestly, I don't know.

And the voice drowning me with its love wasn't making this any better at all, but then that when it happens my vision became hazy instantly giving me the urge to scratch my eyes, but I couldn't and then when I gain my sight, I notice wasn't at Earth but in a world of pure darkness surrounded by nothing but shadows.

And after I gaze in the endless abyss my right to the movement had been returning, but the place I had been summoned to didn't give me enjoyment, but instead, it fills my very soul with fear like no other.

And after I composed myself, I started to brush myself off as I look left and right, and shortly after I began to walk till, I stop why you ask well I felt a strong and penetrative gaze drilling into my soul from behind me and that when I met it for the first time.

"The Darkness."

I watch as a figure no less than 5'5 or 5'6 in height was standing there just watching me-- its eyes were white with no distinct features but yet it was like staring in a never-ending spiral of despair.

For appearance, I couldn't make it out as it was nothing but a humanoid made of shadows, or was it surrounded by shadows.

It lacks a mouth, ears or nose, and all it had was nothing more than those pair of soul-destroying eyes almost as it could read everything about you with a single glimpse.

The figure then started to walk towards me as it maintains its endless confession of love repetitively saying

["I love you."]

["I love you so so much."]

[loveyousomuchsosososososososomuch... IloveIloveyouandnoonelse]

["ILoveloveloveloveloveloveyouyouyouyouyouyouyou."]

It said all this to me as it wraps its cold arms around me, and gently, slowly, gleefully, and caringly started to hug me while moving it moves her hand all over my back.

I began to tremble in fear, as my body refused to move and pushed it away from me, I guess I was too afraid to even retaliate as I surrendered my existence to it like the coward I am.

"I don't want to die."

["I love you."]

My thoughts became a mess as the only thing I could think about was the safety of my life.

It then began to move its face closer to me till its mouth, well I guess its imaginary mouth was at the very entrance of my ears as it said for the last time.

["I Loooove you!"]

Those were the last words I love you I heard from it-- but those three words that were meant to bring joy and show affection would never be the same for me again.

And right after that, I love you, my entire consciousness was filled with bright and blinding light till...

--Gasp--

I began to gasp for air almost like I hadn't had it for years and when my eyes within the blindfold adjusted to the light, that was when I began to see and hear my surroundings, which was very noisy.

--Trattles--

--Galop--

"Hey who is that guy."

"I don't know some slum gum I guess."

"Are you stupid or blind look at those gears, they look expensive and glimmering."

"What weird style, maybe a noble."

"Yeah, maybe a noble, I swear I won't understand their style what's the point of that blindfold."

"He could probably be a knight looking at that sword."

"But why is he gasping like some idiot."

"Maybe he is a Fishman, I heard they quite a lot in Gusteko despite the cold."

"Or maybe he is just some crazy and deranged noble."

"Hey don't look at him sweetheart or he might cut you down."

I began to look around and despite the eye mask on my face I could see perfectly if not better-- I then, I then began to hear the voices of the people around me, some taking for a fool, some who had genuine curiosity.

But I could have cared less because the feeling I got from meeting that entity was still haunting me, I already know I was in another world since I'm seeing a lot of inhumane people like a giant beast-like human with cat or dog ears or just full-on cats wolves or even reptile people with a humanoid form.

--Drop--

The reality hit me I was now in another world was what I whispered to myself but because of my earlier encounter, I fell to my knees as I held my heart, well hearts and began to think to myself with my voice still shaky.

"W-W-What the h...he...hell was th-that?"

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