Chapitre 165: Unexpected

****** I was on the mood thru out the day. And it felt like they wanted me to be in my best today but I just cant. I feel that my mind is rebelding. shouting that I should stop pleasing everybody. That it isnt my fault if they got offended with who i am and how I want to treat them. That I dont have to feel bad if they got angry at me or offended at what I do. That I dont have to think that they are talking behind my back. that it is okay if they will leave you out. After all, it is what they do always. 

Taking me for granted. leaving me out in everything. that I have to always care first on what they would feel and say.

and my mind says 'FU all!! why would I cre for you if you dont even care what I feel or think'

and i feel si tired. I feel myind have left me a long time ago. and Im just a case moving. i just want to leave.

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