Chapitre 185: Ugly cries

She removed his hand from her body and looked at him with mixed emotions. Her eyes were burning but she managed to halt her tears. 

"You don't understand." She shrieked. "Nobody does. I am not well. I am not right in the head, why can't you see it?" She leaned closer to him and shook his body in sheer force. Long Jie didn't know how her weak body was able to drag him out of the bed, but she did. " Go out. I said go out. I don't want to see you. I don't want to see anyone at all. Leave me in my condition, please." 

She fell on the floor and looked at him through a tear-stained face. " I beg you. Leave me alone. Don't console me. I don't need it at all." 

  It was not his pity that was piercing her heart, it was her own guilt. She knew he wanted to help her only but she couldn't see him hurting because of her. She was hurting him so much and she was unable to do anything about it.