Chapitre 12: Chapter 12
BELLA P.O.V
The first week of college went by without any issues. Classes had started in full swing and I already felt like I had so much work to do. But thankfully, I had more than one day to do each assignment. I only had 2 classes a day. But each class was an hour and a half long. One was at 10am and the other was at 2pm. Usually in between classes I would either do homework and study, eat, or take a nap.
The second week of college, I turned 19. Dad had sent a care package with some money, tons of snacks and candy and a foam covering for my super uncomfortable mattress. Embry was distracting me all day long. He even treated me to lunch.
"So, what are you planning?" I asked as we walked around campus. Jacob had called me earlier in the morning to wish me a happy birthday but I hadn't heard from him since then. I could tell Embry was hiding something from me.
"Nothing." He shrugged. I knew that they had to have been planning something.
"Just tell me." I begged. I hated surprises.
"It will be here soon." He said which made my eyes widen.
"Oh god. What did you do?" I asked suddenly nervous. I did not want to make a big deal about my birthday. Hell even my roommate said happy birthday and then moved on. Maybe she was in on the secret.
"I didn't do anything. Will you relax?" He asked. Eventually we stopped and got a coffee. This time I treated him since he bought us lunch. We often had lunch or dinner together. Usually it was in one of our dorms and we were heating up frozen dinners. Sometimes we went to the dining hall for food but usually our roommates would join us.
When we stepped out of the coffee shop that was on my campus, I did a quick scan of the walk way to make sure there wasn't going to be a flash mob or something. Instead, I found Jacob leaning against a pillar and smiling at me.
"Jacob!" I shouted and took off running to his open arms. I only tripped over my own feet once. I jumped into his arms as he lifted me off the ground.
"I can tell you're not wearing a bra." He laughed as he held me.
"What are you doing here?" I asked avoiding his statement about my boobs all together.
"Came to celebrate with you. Figured I could stay the night." He shrugged smiling. "Embry is having a party in his dorm." He continued.
"I knew he had something planned." I huffed. Embry seemed pretty proud of himself as we walked back to my dorm.
"I'm gonna take you to dinner and then we'll go to the party." I did not want to go to this party but Jacob had been begging me all summer to take him to a college party. I'm sure he meant at one of the frat houses but so far we hadn't gone to any frat houses. I'm sure eventually Embry or Maya would drag me to one.
We headed up to my dorm room so we could spend a little time alone. Maya hadn't been around all day so we had the room to ourselves. Jacob was laying flat on his back on my bed while I was sitting leaning against the wall with my legs resting over his stomach. He slowly ran his finger from my ankle up to my thigh.
"How has classes been?" He asked moving his other hand to hold my neck.
"Good. Lots of work. I have an essay due at midnight on Tuesday." I commented. I was halfway through with it and was going to get some of it done today but leaving it for another day wouldn't be the end of the world. "It's much more fun than high school."
"You don't have as much free time." He answered running his finger's through my hair.
"No but that's okay." I still tried to call him every night before I went to bed. Most nights I ended up leaving a voicemail because he was out with the pack. "What have you been doing?" I asked.
"Just mostly been with the pack. Helped Leah pack for her move." He answered. "She's leaving in like two weeks." He answered.
"Is it gonna be weird not having here?" He shrugged.
"I think it'll be good for her." He answered. "Of course her mom and Seth are having a difficult time with it." I couldn't imagine having your child move away. I never realized how much it was affecting Charlie until I started living with him.
"I'm sure." I smiled. I laid beside him for another hour before his stomach rumbled and he sighed. "Ready to go eat?" I asked sitting up a little bit. He sat up and just as we were about to put our shoes on, the door swung open and Maya came in.
"Hey, guys." She smiled as she took her shoes off and took her sweatshirt off.
"Hey. We're gonna go eat. Are you going to the party?" I asked her as I grabbed a sweatshirt. Jacob was just wearing a plain black shirt. I knew he wouldn't get cold but I did steal a few sweatshirts from him that he could use if he needed it.
"Yeah, I'll be there." She smiled. "Enjoy your dinner."
"Thanks." I smiled making sure I had my keycard on me before we headed to one of the restaurants around campus. It felt so nice having Jake here. I wanted him to stay for the next four years. He sat across from me at the restaurant as he flipped through the menu. "What are you getting?"
"I was thinking the chicken parm." He answered. "What about you?"
"I don't know." I huffed. I was also thinking the chicken parm but wasn't sure. "Probably the same." I answered as the waiter came over and set our drinks down.
"Are we ready to order?" He asked looking between us. Jake ordered for both of us before the waiter rushed off to put our order in. He came back with bread. We made small talk and I complained about the party before our food was placed in front of us.
I was barely able to eat half of mine while Jacob finished his. I decided to take mine back so that we could have something to eat after the party. Maya was heading to Embry's dorm room when we were getting back.
Jacob was wearing a simple pair of jeans and a black t-shirt.
"I left you something on your bed. Wear it. You'll look hot." Maya winked as she left. I turned to look at a top that was lace. Pure lace. It looked like lingerie.
"Oh god." I groaned holding it up. It was maroon, with spaghetti straps. Jacob smirked as I held it up. It was a body suit that clipped between the legs.
"She's right." He answered moving behind me and pressing himself into my butt. I giggled a little as he shoved onto my bed. Just my top half was on it as he kissed my neck. I sighed content and closed my eyes. "We have time right?" He asked.
"I always have time for you." I whined. I unbuttoned my jeans and quickly stepped out of them while he did the same. He still stood behind me as he thrust into me. I took my shirt off and held my boobs while he thrust into me. "Jacob." I moaned wanting him to kiss me. He reached around to rub my clit and ran his other hand up my spine and into my hair. He pulled it so my back was against his chest and he kissed my neck. I put all of my weight on him while rest my head on his shoulder.
He bit into my shoulder making he gasp and pull his hair. I reached my left hand up to hold his neck. Every time he thrust I moaned out. Trying to stay quiet knowing that the people in the dorm next to us could probably hear every little thing in here. Hell I could hear when the bed squeaked from the dorm next to us. I'm sure they could hear us.
I orgasmed first, clenching around him. He thrust a few more times before orgasming. He shoved my onto the bed and collapsed on top of me.
"Jake." I moaned trying to push up. He moved as pulled away. He grabbed a paper towel to wipe himself off before he sat down on the bed. It took me a few seconds to get my breath before I stood and put on a pair of sweatpants. "I'm gonna go to the bathroom. I'll be back." I said. I went to the bathroom and cleaned myself up before heading back to the dorm. I sprayed the room just in case it smelled like sex in here.
Then I fixed my hair. Then I stepped into the body suit and put a pair of jeans on over it. I stood in the mirror looking at myself.
"Damn." I heard Jake mumble behind me. I was wearing a black bra that didn't make it look right.
"I think I need to take the bra off." I knew that Jake would love for me to not wear a bra but I also knew that if other guys were looking at my chest, he would be pissed. I pulled the top down enough to get the bra off before putting it back into place. We both checked to make sure that my nipples weren't out before we headed out the door. He walked with his hand on my lower back, nearly on my butt.
"Happy birthday!" Everyone shouted as we walked into Embry's dorm. I wasn't sure how so many people were crammed in here. Half of these people I didn't even know. Drinks were automatically shoved in our hands.
"What is this?" I asked.
"Punch." Embry smirked. I shook my head and took a sip. I nearly spit it out. I knew that if I had more than one of these, I would be drunk for days. Everyone had a red solo cup, including Maya who was sitting on Connor's lap and laughing. I raised my eyebrows at her before she looked at me.
"Hey! You look amazing." She smiled.
"Thanks. Are you suppose to wear bras with these?" I asked looking down at my chest.
"No. It looks better without." She answered. I nodded and took another sip of my drink. "And I won't be in the dorm tonight so you and Jake can have it to yourselves." She smiled.
"Thank you." I smiled. Eventually Jake came over and wrapped his arm around me and pulled me into him. "This drink is disgusting." I commented to him. He leaned on Embry's desk while I stood between his legs.
"I know." He chuckled.
"We have the room to ourselves tonight." I smiled running my hand down his chest and resting on his abs.
"Awesome. I have tons of plans for you." He answered pulling my top down to peek inside.
"Jacob!" I shrieked my hands automatically moving to cover my chest. It wasn't that I cared that he looked, it was that there were other people here.
"I've seen you naked." He huffed.
"No one else besides Embry has."
"Embry?!" He looked at me bewildered.
"I know he's seen me in your head." He looked at me and then threw his head back laughing. I know that he had issues keeping his thoughts to himself. I wasn't stupid. I knew that everyone in the pack saw everything we've ever done.
"I'm gonna keep my mouth shut." I rolled my eyes and smiled. The music suddenly got louder which worried me. I knew that the RA would be down here so quickly if we got a complaint. The lights were shut off and there were blinking LED lights. I felt a hand move around my hip, it wasn't Jacob's. My eyes widened as I looked at him and he just shook his head and laughed. The person was grinding on me. I had to brace myself on Jake's shoulders. I'm surprised he wasn't throwing punches. When I turned around, Embry stopped his movements.
"Embry!" I shouted shoving him back a little. He smirked at me.
"C'mon, Bella." He tried to grab me again. I shook my head quickly and moved back into Jacob's arms. Jacob was still leaning against the desk and I leaned into his lap. He wrapped his arms around me to protect me from Embry. "Just be lucky we didn't get you a stripper." I would kill them if someone started stripping.
"Want a piece of cake?" Maya leaned over to ask us.
"Sure." We both answered as she handed us each a piece. We both ate in silence before Jacob stood up and bumped me to stand up. He grabbed my hand and dragged me to the middle of the room.
"What are you doing?" I asked.
"We're dancing." I said holding my hands as he moved his hips. "Move your hips with mine." He commented knowing that I had no idea what I was doing. He rested his hand on my hips to get me to move.
"I can't dance." I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him down so he could hear me. "And you'll get turned on." I chuckled.
"That's the point." He answered chuckling in my ear before kissing my neck. It distracted me and I stopped moving my hips with him. Eventually Embry came over and gave us another drink. I tried to say no but he shoved it into me and then he poured a shot into it. I turned around and regretting it because Jacob started grinding on me like Embry did. He again grabbed my hip to guide me. I reached up with my free hand to tangle it in his hair. "Turned on yet?" He asked.
"I've been turned on since I saw you." I answered. I pushed back into him. It was harder to feel him through both of our jeans. I drank more of my drink knowing that either way Embry would expect me to drink it. I also wanted to have fun. I never did stuff like this. I knew that Jacob was having a good time.
We partied for a few more ours before the RA came in and told us it was time to quiet down. I held Jacob's hand as we stumbled back to my room. And by "we stumbling" I meant me because I drank a lot more than he did. He had to get my key in the door and open it. I giggled as I stumbled inside. I kicked my shoes off before he grabbed me and held me up. I wrapped my arms around him and kissed him hard.
"Please." I whined arching my back trying to get friction. This would be the first time we ever had sex twice in one day. Sure there were times that he got me to orgasm more than once but usually we only did it at night when our dads we asleep and then I usually fell asleep right after. He quickly got my jeans off and threw them on the floor. He then set me on my desk. I spread my legs for him, giving him a view. He looked at me in just the body suit. He grabbed it with one hand and popped it open. I tried to get his jeans off but when I got frustrated, he chuckled and got them off himself. I shoved his boxer's down just enough for him to be exposed.
He licked it finger's before setting his thumb on my clit and fingering me. I moaned throwing my head back and leaning back on my elbows. I looked up at him. His eyes were dark and he was watching me. I arched into his finger's trying to get more.
"More." I whined. He added another finger but that wasn't what I wanted. "No." I cried out. "Please." I was trying to tell him that I wanted him inside me but the words wouldn't come out.
"What do you need?" He asked holding my legs open with one hand.
"You. I want you inside me." I finally got out. He pulled his fingers out of me and thrust into me. I gasped as soon as he entered me and leaned back again. He was holding my hips and thrusting into me. My head was spinning and I was sweating. I wasn't even sure if I was making any sense but I was having fun. "I love you." I got out and tried to move my hips to meet his thrusts but he held me down. I'm sure it would bruise but I didn't really care.
"I love you." He kissed my neck as his hand came down to rub my clit, sending me over the edge to my orgasm. He came right after me and pulled out breathing hard. If he hadn't caught me, I would have fallen off the desk. He took the body suit the rest of the way off before finding a t-shirt for me. He set me on the bed while he put his boxer's on. I climbed under the covers before he got in beside me. I was up against the wall facing him, one leg thrown over his lap.
I ran my hands through his hair as we fell asleep.
We didn't wake up until nearly 2pm the next day. Maya was in her bed when I woke up. Jake was snoring lightly which was unusual for him Usually he was super loud in my ear. I laid with him feeling a little nauseous. I had a slight headache and reached above me to grab a water bottle that was on the shelf.
I laid there for another hour before Jake woke up.
"Morning." He smiled kissing me.
"Morning." I wrapped my arm around him and rested my head on his bare chest.
"I have to get going soon." He commented. I knew that it was a long drive back to La Push. I didn't want him to leave. I hugged him to me a little tighter almost in protest of him leaving. "I don't wanna go either. I miss you."
"It's weird not being able to see you everyday." I commented. Maya stirred a little before turning over to face us. We both looked over at her. She was looking at us.
"And what did you two do last night?" She smirked. I slowly sat up remember that I wasn't wearing any bottoms. I looked around the room to where our clothes where thrown all over the place and most of the stuff on my desk was on the floor. I blushed as I saw it all. "Had fun?" Jake laughed while I nodded. She turned back over which gave me the time to find panties and a pair of sweatpants. Jake got up and get his back to her as he got his pants and shirt on. His shirt was stretched out making me laugh.
"I'll call you when I get home okay?" Jake commented as we stood outside the dorm building.
"Okay." I kissed him standing on my tip toes. "I love you." I hugged him tight as he wrapped his arms around me.
"I love you too." He answered. "I'm running home so it should only be a few hours." He confirmed.
"Okay, be safe okay?" I said. I watched him disappear into the woods before I went back to my room. Maya was up and making herself some coffee. I organized my desk and got my hamper together. "I'm gonna wash that body suit and then you can have it back." I said to her.
"No rush. Did you have fun?" She asked.
"Yes! Thank you for my party." I smiled at her. I usually hated celebrating my birthday but being surrounded by people I loved and people who were having fun, it made it all worth it. And this year, there was no blood or stitches.
The next couple of weeks were torture. I had tons of tests, tons of essays. Two books to read by the end of the month, and I was missing Jake. We hadn't been able to talk lately. Even on my days off I was busy doing work or trying to catch up on sleep. So when I was laying in bed and my phone rang, I got super excited.
"Hey!" I said as soon as I answered the call.
"Hey." He didn't seem as happy to hear my voice as I felt to hear his.
"Are you okay?" I asked concerned that there was something going on that I couldn't help him with.
"Yeah, just haven't heard from you." He simply said.
"I know. I've been swamped." I sighed.
"I knew this was going to happen." He said. I could hear how upset he was in his voice and I feared the worst.
"I'm sorry. I'll try harder." I rushed. "I'm just getting used to everything. Once everything settles I'll be able to talk more."
"I don't know." I was so confused.
"You don't know what?"
"That you'll keep your word." Now that pissed me off.
"What?" I said into the phone. "What does that mean?"
"I think you want to be single." The breath hitched in the back of my throat and I nearly choked it.
"What? No I don't. I want to be with you." I felt like I was going to throw up. "Please don't do this." I said.
"I have to." Was all he said.
"You really don't. I'll come home. I can take online classes. We can do this." I said pushing the covers off me and jumping off the bed having every intention of buying a bus ticket to get home.
"No, Bella. I want you to get an education." He stopped me. "Maybe we just need a break."
"What? No."
"You have different priorities right now."
"You're my number one. You always will be. I'll try harder. I promise." I tried to not cry. I didn't want to cry. I wanted to fix this. I mean even if it was only a two week break I think that would kill me. My heart was beating as fast as it possibly could without exploding. "Please don't." I whispered.
"Bye, Bells." With that he hung up. I looked at the phone. I couldn't believe that actually just happened. I stood there shocked. I wanted to call him back. Work this out. I felt numb. I grabbed my keycard before heading down to Embry's dorm room. I knocked on the door. He opened it within a second.
"Bella? What are you-" He started but then I burst into tears. I quickly got me into the room and shut the door behind us. "What happened?" I just shook my head and buried it in his chest as he held me. I could feel him fumbling around and then a phone ringing. I heard the person on the other end say hello. "Bella's freaking out crying." I couldn't hear what the other person on the other line said over my sobs but I imagine it was Jacob explaining that we broke up. "Okay." Then he hung up. He was silent as he rubbed my back. I knew that I shouldn't be crying into the arms of Jacob's best friend but I didn't have anyone else right now. "What happened?" He asked again.
"He said that I had different priorities and he broke up with me." I had no idea what to do. I mean I had been broken up with twice in the last year. There had to be something wrong with me. "It's gonna be okay right? He's gonna call and get back together with me?" I asked looking up at him.
"I think it'll be fine. He's in love with you. I think he's just having a hard time with you being gone. He'll come around." I nodded at his words. I was suddenly so exhausted but didn't want to sleep. He helped me into his bed and got me under the covers. "Are you okay?" He asked standing next to the bed, resting one hand on my back. I nodded looking at him.
"Thank you." He let me rest in his bed while he did some school work. I don't remember falling asleep but when I woke up, his roommate was back and they were talking in hushed tones to not disturb me.
"Why is she here?" Connor asked.
"Jacob broke up with her. She needed a friend."
"Who break up with her?" He asked. Embry didn't respond but I sat up.
"Hey. You okay?" He asked turning to look at me. I nodded again getting off the bed. "Want something to eat?"
"No thanks. I'm gonna go back to my room." I commented.
"Okay just, call me if you need me okay?" I nodded. I headed back to my room and grabbed my stuff to shower. Maya was there and looked alarmed when I came in.
"Are you okay?" She asked.
"Yeah." I answered. I didn't really want to talk about it right now. I'm sure things would return to normal in a few weeks. He just needed some time to think over some things. I knew what I wanted. Him. It would always be him.
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