Chapitre 5: Staring at the Sun
STARING AT THE SUN
CHAPTER 5
BELLA P.O.V
On the second day of our trip Jacob had sent me and my mother off to the store and told me to buy something nice and that he was taking me to dinner tonight. I quickly realized that he must have gotten in contact with my mother somehow before this trip because she was giddy the entire time we were looking at clothes.
"What does he have planned?" I started to get nervous. I was even more nervous that we had left him at the house with Phil and who knows what they were going to be doing.
"It's a date, Bella. Relax. Let him do something nice for you." I sighed as I tried on a jean skirt that came just passed mid thigh. "What are you so afraid of?" She asked sitting down as I looked in the mirror. I sighed again. "You're allowed to be happy."
"I just think his feelings are a lot deeper than mine right now."
"Is that a bad thing?" She asked. "Do you like him more than a friend?"
"Yes." I whispered finally confirming it out loud. "I just..." I trailed off.
"He's not Edward." She was the first person to say his name to me. "He's Jacob and I can tell he likes you." She smiled. "There is nothing wrong with moving on." She handed me a purple shirt to pair with the skirt. I was glad to go back into the dressing room and shut the door. I was able to get my breathing back to normal without her hounding me with questions and asking why I was afraid to be with Jacob. I changed into the purple shirt and came out to show her. "You look amazing." She smiled. "I'm buying it."
"You don't have to do that." I commented trying to stop her.
"Please, Bella. I miss having you around. Let me do something for you since Charlie has been supporting you for a year now." I nodded and looked at myself in the mirror. "It's cute."
"It is cute. But is it me?"
"No. That's the point. You gotta put yourself out there more. And it's hot here. You don't wanna wear pants." She was right. And the skirt was a step up from any other clothing I had. It was simple and cute but also me. I didn't feel uncomfortable in it and I knew that Jake would like it.
"Okay I'm gonna change. But I'm getting hungry."
"Phil is making baked mac and cheese for lunch."
"Well with Jacob there wanting to try everything there won't be any left." I commented closing the door and changing back into my shorts and t-shirt. I folded the outfit we were going to buy and headed back out to her. "I'm ready." I handed her the clothes. I followed her to check out. She paid for everything before we headed to the car and back to the house.
"Is there any food left?" Renee asked as we walked in the house. Jacob was standing in the kitchen leaning against the counter drinking a soda. He was only in his bathing suit and he was smiling at me. I smiled back and leaned into him.
"There's plenty left." Phil said scooping us each a bowl.
"Wanna go swimming when you're done?" Jacob asked.
"Sure." I smiled. "Your face is looking a little burnt." I poked his cheek. "I'll go get sunscreen too." I commented sitting down at the island to eat.
"How was shopping?" Jake asked looking from me to mom. "Get anything cute?"
"You'll see." Mom said winking at him before looking at me. From where I was sitting, I could see Jakes back but unless he turned around he wouldn't be able to see my reaction. I glared at her. He spun around and leaned against the counter so his face was directly across from mine.
"What does she mean by I'll see?" He asked. I looked into his playful eyes and smiled. I kissed his nose making him gently close his eyes. I watched his eyelashes flutter on his cheek and it made my stomach flip with how peaceful he looked.
"You'll see." I finished off my bowl of mac and cheese before getting up to clean it. I stuck it on the drying rack before going to get into my bathing suit. Mom tried to convince me to get a bikini but I refused. I grabbed the sunscreen from the bathroom before going out the back door. "Come here." I said to him opening it and putting some on my fingers.
"I don't need this, Bells." I groaned.
"Lean down." He bent his knees so that I could apply it to his face and ears before putting the extra on his shoulders. "Do my back for me?" I asked him handing it to him. I knew I shouldn't have asked him because he was going to be thorough with his job. However his warm hands running over my shoulder's and back felt amazing. I kept my eyes closed as he worked it into my skin.
"Ready?" He asked pulling me out f my daze.
"Yeah." I made sure our towels from last night were still out here drying before heading down to the water. He held my hand as we got closer to the water. "Where are we going tonight?"
"To a little Italian place that Phil suggested." He answered. "I think you'll like it."
"Our first date."
"We've gone on plenty of breakfast dates." He commented. Which was true but I hadn't admitted my feelings about him to anyone at that point so I didn't count those ones a dates.
"I don't count those ones as dates." I answered letting the water run through my toes before moving out a little further.
"Why not?" I looked over at him and had no idea what to say to him. I wanted to tell him. Tell him that I liked him a lot more than just a friend but I was afraid of hurting him and afraid of what it could do to our friendship. "What?" All I could do was let go of the breath of air I didn't know I as holding. "Tell me."
"I'm afraid." I answered honestly. "I'm afraid everything about us is about to change." I sighed looking away from him and towards the sky. "Things are about to get complicated."
"Why?" He stood in front of me holding my shoulder's. "What are you worried about?" I bite my lip as my eyes met his. He pulled my lip from between my teeth with his thumb. "Talk to me. It's me. You can tell me anything."
Before my brain could tell my mouth to stop moving I said, "I think I'm falling in love with you." I watched his face as the words sunk into him and he finally realized what I had said.
"Really?" He asked smiling softly. I slowly nodded watch him. "I told you." He whispered grabbing my face. "Can I kiss you?" He asked. I nodded wrapping my arms around his back as he kissed me. It was soft and gently just like every other kiss we had shared before but this one was different. This one meant a lot more to both of us. "I'm falling in love with you too." He whispered against my lips letting his softly brush mine once more before pulling back.
"I want to be with you but I'm afraid. I don't want something to happen and for us to not be friends anymore. It would crush me to not have you around."
"I'm not going anywhere. As long as you want me, I'll be here." He smiled. His warmth and his energy made this whole thing seem so easy. Like he had all the answers and we would get married and have kids and be together forever. "If you'll have me, I would love to have you."
"Yes." I smiled at him. He lifted me into his arms. I wrapped my arms and legs around him as we kissed.
"Left La Push single, going back with a girlfriend." I laughed and buried my face in his chest as he wrapped his arms around him.
"Now Embry and Quil can stop making fun of you." He laughed as I looked up at him. "Charlie isn't going to let you sleepover anymore." I commented moving away from him so I could dip my body lower into the water and move further out. He followed me as I swam out further before wrapping my arms around him. He held us up as we floated.
"They already think we're dating I just never corrected them." He said making me shake my head.
"Of course you didn't." I dipped my hair into the water. "So they think we do more at these sleepover's I'm assuming."
"Yup." He grinned at me.
"And you haven't corrected them on that either."
"Nope." I giggled as I moved from his chest to rest on his back as he swam. "I should have know that you liked me. Your mom was so excited when I called her and asked if while we were here if I could take you to dinner. She was like screaming about it."
"I told her before we came here. That's why she insisted we sleep in the bed together. To see if I would finally admit to you that I liked you." He laughed at my words. "Charlie is going to freak out."
"We can sneak around him." Jacob said.
"I think not." He would eventually find out that we were dating either through Jacob himself not being able to keep his hands and lips to himself or from my mother who had no idea how to keep a secret. "He's gonna find out. And I know you're gonna go blabbing to your friends who will tell Billy, who will tell my dad. I would rather just come out and tell him ourselves." He sighed.
We stayed in the water for another hour before we decided to walk down the beach to some rocks. Jacob had no problem walking on them and picking up sea creatures that he found. I however decided to just sit and watch him. He made a few friends with a group of kids a few years younger than us who were too afraid to pick up crabs so Jake held one so they could see.
"Bells? Wanna come over and look?" He called for me. I stood and carefully walked towards them. One I was close enough he reached his free hand out to help me. I crouched down to the kids level as we looked at the crab in Jake's hand. I held onto his arm as we all looked.
"We're gonna have to head back soon." He said to me.
"Awe." One of the kids complained. "But we're having fun with you, Jake." I smiled at Jake.
"Made some friends Jake?" I asked.
"Yes. This is Ellie, Jordan, Olivia, Tom, and Tom's little sister Odette." Jake said pointing out each of them to me. "This is my girlfriend, Bella." He said to the kids.
"Girlfriend?" Ellie said.
"Yes, girlfriend." Jake confirmed as he put down the crab. "And I'm her boyfriend." He stood up pulling him with me. "Do you guys live here?" He asked.
"Yeah." Odette confirmed. "Will you come hang out tomorrow?" It warmed my heart that these kids took a liking to him.
"Sure. We'll come out when we wake up." He answered smiling. "But we leave on Monday morning."
"Leave? Where are you going?" She asked.
"We live in Washington." Jake answered helping me off the rocks as the kids followed behind us. Jake helped each of them off the rocks. They pointed out their house that was only three houses down from moms so we walked with them.
"So what are you doing in Florida?" Jordan asked. He looked like he was the oldest of the group. I held Jake's hand as the kids walked in front of us.
"We're visiting my mom." I answered.
"If your mom lives here why do you live in Washington?"
"Cause my dad lives in Washington." I answered. As we got closer to the house I could tell that they were trying to get us to stay and hang out with them. I knew I needed to shower and get ready for this date. "If you guys are out when we get back we'll come hang out."
"Bed time is 9." Odette commented.
"So we'll see you tomorrow. We're going to dinner and will probably be home late." Jacob said as I headed towards the house.
"Bye!" I shouted waiting for Jacob to follow behind me. If I didn't leave he would have stood there forever talking with them.
"I'll let you shower first cause I'm sure I won't take too long."
"I won't take that long but I'm showering first anyway." I answered heading to my moms bathroom to shower. Her shower had better water pressure. I showered as fast as I could before getting out. "Mom?" I called out the door. She came into the room.
"What's up?" She asked as I wrapped a towel around myself.
"What should I do with my hair?" I asked her.
"Let it air dry. Light makeup?" She asked. I just looked at her. I didn't bring makeup with me and I had no idea how to do it anyway.
"No." I answered. "But Jake needs to get in here and shower so I'll go to the other bathroom." I grabbed my clothes and headed to the other bathroom. "Jake shower is ready for you." I called closing and locking the door. I dried off before getting dressed. I dried my hair a little so it wouldn't get my shirt wet. I suddenly got nervous as I looked at myself in the mirror. I don't know why. It was Jake.
When I stepped out of the bathroom I could see him standing in the kitchen. I took a deep breath before going over to him.
"Ready?" I asked him. He turned around and looked at me.
"Wow." He smiled. "You're so beautiful." I blushed looking down at my feet.
"Thank you." I smiled grabbing his hand.
"You can take our car." Phil handed Jake the keys. "Try to be back before midnight." He looked from Jake to me. I nodded as I grabbed my purse. I walked out the front door and to the car where Jake held the door open for me.
"Thanks." I smiled getting in, before closing the door he leaned down and quickly kissed me. He then ran around the car and got in. "Do you know how to get there?" I asked.
"Yeah. Phil showed me while you were shopping." He confirmed pulling out of the driveway. "Don't you worry, Honey." He grinned at me. I held his hand in mine as he drove. I reached to turn the radio on and he seemed shocked.
"What?"
"Not use to listening to music with you." He said. "You're happy." It wasn't a question.
"I'm so happy."
The restaurant was huge and crowded and I automatically got nervous when we walked in. Jake kept his arm around me as he guided me to our table in the middle of the room. He pushed my chair in for me as I looked around.
"I'll keep you safe." He said sitting down across from me. I nodded as our waitress came over and introduced herself. Jake kindly smiled up at her and it made me jealous.
"Can I get you anything to drink?"
"I'll have a water with lemon. And a coke." He answered her. "Bells?"
"Same." I smiled.
"You got it." She said before leaving. I looked over the menu trying to decide what to have.
"Oh they have personal pizza's!" I said excited. "I'm getting the buffalo chicken one." I said as our drinks were placed on the table.
"Are you ready to order?" She asked turning to me first.
"Yeah. I'm gonna have the buffalo chicken personal pizza with extra blue cheese on the side." I answered closing the menu and handing it to her.
"I'm gonna have the chicken parm with bowtie pasta and extra sauce." Jake said handing her the menu.
"Alright." She wrote everything down. "I'll go put that in now, would you like bread?"
"Please." Jake answered as she rushed off.
"She's giving you eyes, Jacob." I sipped on my drink.
"Does it make you jealous?" He chuckled as he leaned back and crossed his arms which made his muscles pop out.
"Yeah, it does." I answered.
"Didn't take you as the jealous type Miss. Swan." He grinned leaning forward toward me. His minty breath blew over my face as I leaned in. "I only have eyes for you." I knew it was true. I knew that he didn't look at anyone else like he looked at me. I smiled meeting his eyes. "So when did you know?"
"Know what?" I asked.
"That you were falling in love with me." He cockily smiled at me. "Your words." I shook my head and looked down.
"I'm not sure. Somewhere along the way." I answered leaning my elbows on the table and resting my head in my hands looking at him. "You did say it was going to happen. You make me happy."
"I was expecting it to take years." He said honestly. "I know why you're afraid. Because he left. I'm not leaving."
"I know you're not." I said. "Even though I know it, it still scares me. It's always going to be a fear that I have." I shook my head. "I really loved him."
"I know you did. And it's okay to move on."
"I have moved on." I answered.
"You also know it's okay to talk about right? It was a huge part of your life and you don't need to just forget about it." I nodded at his words. It didn't matter to Jake that there was someone before him. At the end of the day he was still my friend and he was still going to act like a friend not just an overprotective boyfriend. "I don't like him. You know that. And not just because he's a blood sucking leech. He left you a shell of a human being."
"Couples break up, Jake." I commented.
"Couples don't break up the way he broke up with you." He reached across the table to hold my hand. Our waitress came over and put our food down.
"Can I get you anything else?" She asked.
"I think we're good." I said before she rushed off to the next table. I traded Jake a piece of pizza for some of his chicken. We mostly ate in silence. He paid the bill before leading me back out to the car.
"I heard that we're allowed to have fires on the beach here." He smiled. "Would you like to join me?" He asked on the car ride back.
"I would love to." I smiled holding his hand. When we got back mom and Phil were already out on the beach with a group of people having a fire. "The kids are there." I commented as I took my shoes off and heading out to everyone.
"Bella!" Odette shouted running over to hug me.
"Hey." I smiled gently wrapping my arms around her.
"You guys know each other?" Renee asked.
"We met earlier when we were playing on the rocks. And her boyfriend, Jake."
"Boyfriend huh?" Mom said making me blush. I shook my head before looking at Jake. He sat down in the sand and pulled me onto his lap. "Boyfriend?" I nodded looking at her.
"Would anyone like to hear some stories about the tribes where we live?" I looked at him. Of course to these people they were only going to be stories. To me, they were real and we were both living it. As Jake told stories of his ancestors, I found myself leaning further and further into him. I have heard the stories before. A few people asked questions. The kids we met earlier were very interested in knowing if the wolves were real and if Jacob knew any.
It felt right being here in his arms listening to him talk about his tribes. I felt protected and like nothing was going to hurt me. I liked sitting here with him, wrapping in his arms as he talked and every so often would kiss my head or rub his hand up and down my back.
I was excited to see where this relationship took us.
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