Chapitre 2: Staring At The Sun
CHAPTER 2
BELLA P.O.V
Graduation was getting closer and closer everyday and I knew that if I didn't apply to any schools soon, it would be too late. As much as Jacob didn't want to me to run away to school, he was the one who was sitting at the table with me helping me fill an application out.
"You promise you won't forget me?" He asked.
"I could never forget you." The thought made me tear up. I didn't want to leave home. There wasn't much that I could do anymore in Forks. "You can come see me on weekends and I'm sure I'll come home some weekends too. And for Thanksgiving and Christmas break." I knew life was going to change a lot but there wasn't much to do in Fork. "I plan to move back once I'm finished."
"Will you take me to a college party?"
"Jake, I probably won't even take myself to a college party."
"You gotta get the whole college experience."
"Get your grades up and maybe you could join me at college." Now that would be chaos. Imagine both of us at one school? I'm sure we could find something really reckless to do. Our dads would have no way of stopping us.
"Wolves don't tend to go to college." I sighed. I knew that his first priority would always be the pack. I also knew he hated it. He deserved more.
"Can you ever stop phasing? Or is this a lifetime thing?"
"I'm sure someday I could stop but then I would start to age." Well my plan A was to stop aging too. We're on to plan B now. "I can control it a little better now but it would be difficult to stop right now. Like my grandfather stopped once he had kids and a wife."
"I see." I nodded. "Do you want to have kids?"
"Only to carry on the gene." He shrugged. "Do you?"
"Not really. But if you hate this so much, why would you want to pass it down to your kids?" I asked. He sighed. I know he was young. This wasn't really something that guys discussed with their friends.
"I guess you're right. Why would I want to torture them with this? But I think I would be a good dad." He shrugged. "I would figure it out if it ever happened."
"You're too young to have kids."
"So are you."
"Yes, that's why I am not having any."
"What if you met a nice man and he wanted kids?" I never really thought about it. With Edward I knew we would never be able to have children of our own. I was okay with that fact. It felt weird talking about this with Jake.
"Maybe not until I'm in my thirties." I shrugged. After that he was silent. "Wanna go do something?" I asked.
"Sure. Bikes? Hiking?" I wasn't sure what I wanted to do but I didn't want to do either of those things.
"Neither. Let's go to a movie or something. Go cause some trouble or something."
"Okay but we cannot get arrested." He commented making me roll my eyes. "Chaos follows you. I'm surprised we haven't been arrested yet." He smiled standing up.
"Jacob." I commented standing up looking up at him. "Let's go get a cat." He breathed out a laugh but I was serious.
"Wait what?"
"What do you think Charlie would do if I came home with a cat?"
"Bella... Why don't you start small. Get a nose piercing." I didn't want to give Charlie a heart attack.
"Uh." I looked at him. "A cat."
"Or." He smirked. "You should get a post break-up hair cut." I sighed.
"Cat."
"My god, fine. Let's go get a cat." He commented grabbing my keys off the hook and heading out the front door. I followed behind him. He got into the driver's seat. I don't what it was with these boys never letting me drive. "You already have a pet wolf. Why do you need the cat?"
"Cause the wolf doesn't fit inside the house." I joked getting another chuckle out of him. He pulled to the animal shelter that was right outside Forks and quickly went inside. "Awe, Jake!" I gushed over a cat. "Kinda looks like you." He glanced over at me making me laugh. "I meant-"
"I know what you mean." He commented. A worker came over and offered to help us. There were a few cats that I thought would fit well in our home.
There was an older black cat who curled up in my lap and was purring.
"I want this one." I whispered to Jacob. "I think Charlie would love him."
"His name is Lou." Jacob commented rubbing his large warm hand over the cats back making the purrs get louder.
"He likes you." I smiled.
"I'm very likable." I smiled up at him. He stood going to talk to a worker who came over to me. "We would like this one." Jake commented.
"Oh great! He's a great cat for a young couple starting out." I laughed at her words. Jake was silent.
"We're uh, not together." Jake corrected her.
"Oh I'm sorry." Jake looked over at me. He kept his face in the same expression but I knew that every time someone assumed that, his feelings were hurt.
Once the paperwork was settled, we were able to leave with the cat.
"Let's go over to Petco and get a litter box and stuff." Jacob commented as he drove. He was quiet on the ride to Petco. He made a few comments about things I should buy.
"Are you okay?" I asked once we were done shopping and heading home.
"Yes." I sighed.
"You don't have to lie to me."
"You know my feelings. And I know yours." I kept to myself as he parked my truck where I usually park it. He helped me grab everything and thankfully Charlie wasn't home so that we could get everything inside and get the cat settled before he freaked out.
I set the cat down to explore the house while I set up the litter box in the bathroom. Jake stayed downstairs and claimed he was going to watch the cat but I know he was raiding the fridge.
"Can I eat these Poptarts?" He called up the stairs.
"Of course. Eat whatever you want." The cat made its way into the litter box. I left it alone and went back to Jake who was settled on the couch with a few snacks and the t.v on. "Want me to make you lunch?" I asked leaning over the back of the chair. I was a little surprised that he didn't take off right after we got back.
"Only if you were going to make something for yourself."
"If you're hungry I will cook." I commented going to the kitchen. I grabbed the chicken nuggets out of the freezer and turned on the oven. "Jake? Do you want french fries or tater tots with our chicken?"
"Tater tots." I began cooking as he turned the t.v up.
"Did Victoria come back yet?" I asked him as I set a timer and sat down beside him. I grabbed the blanket on the back of the couch and wrapped it around myself.
"Hasn't been back. At least not that we can tell."
"I hope you're getting enough sleep." He looked over at me. His face was blank. I knew he wasn't getting enough sleep. Sam had him running around in the woods all night long. "Are you ever going to go back to school?" I questioned.
"Not right now. Not with all of this going on. I'll be fine, Bells." I sighed. Education was important.
"So that's it? The pack is going to support you your entire life? What about a job Jake?"
"Will you relax? Not everyone goes to college like you, Smarty Pants."
"I'm not saying you have to but jobs rarely hire someone who didn't graduate from high school."
"I'm a mechanic. It wouldn't be that difficult to get a job. Maybe I'll even start my own business." It was a good idea but he has no idea how to run a business.
"What would happen if you imprinted? How would you support her and your future kids?" They were heavy questions for a young kid. I'm sure he hasn't thought about the future. I'm sure most teenage boys don't think about what is going to happen in the future.
"Why are you worried about so far into the future? Calm down."
"This is the thing that woman worry about."
"Well what if we get married?" I looked over at him.
"You would marry me?" I asked. I never saw myself as a wife. Or a mother for that matter. Before Edward left, I figured we would just always be together. Plan A was to be a vampire. I'm now on plan B. Maybe Jake would also be a part of plan B.
"In a heartbeat." He answered. I was still looking over at him and he turned his head to look at me. "If I asked you, would you say yes?" I had no idea what I would say. I never thought about it.
"I would have to think about it." I said making him chuckle and turn back to the T.V.
"But you love me right?" His question made me sigh. "Not the same way I love you but you love me right?"
"Yes I love you."
"Then in time, you'll love me the way I love you." He seemed so sure of it. I smiled a little at words. The timer went off and I went to the kitchen to grab the chicken and tots out of it. I gave him more on his plate knowing that he would eat most of it.
"Ketchup?" I called.
"Sure." He answered. I tucked the ketchup under my arm and carried our plates out to him. I set them on the coffee table before sitting beside him. He took the ketchup from me and loaded his plate. "Thank you."
"Welcome." We sat together while we ate. "Do you have patrol tonight?"
"No. Sam is giving me the night off." He answered. "Maybe we should have a movie night or something."
"Sure." I smiled. I had no movies he would probably want to watch but I'm sure we could find something. "How come you don't want to hang out with Quil or Embry tonight?" I questioned. I had seen Jake pretty much every single day since we started being friends again.
"Cause you're more chill." He shrugged. "It's easy with you. You'll just sit there. I have to entertain them." I laughed a little making him smile. "And you're prettier than them." I blushed at his words. "Are you ever gonna tell me what happened?"
"With what?"
"With your boyfriend. I mean I know they left. But why?" He asked. I knew eventually I was going to need to talk about it. It would probably be a good idea to talk to Jacob about it. I knew he hated vampires but he didn't hate me and he didn't hate my feelings.
"Edward's family threw a birthday party for me. I cut my finger and his brother Jasper tried to attack me. They packed up and left."
"And he left you to fend for yourself? Knowing that there were two vampires running around?"
"He didn't know that they would come back." I defended. Thankfully Charlie pulled in the driveway which ended the conversation. I knew that Jacob wasn't going to give it a rest though.
"Hey, kids." Charlie said as he took his belt off and hung it up before taking his shoes off. "What are you two up to?"
"Nothing. We're thinking of having a movie night. Can Jake sleepover?" He seemed shocked by the question. A teenage girl asking if her male teenage best friend can sleepover would alarm anyone. And then the cat ran by his feet.
"What is that?"
"Um... A cat." I commented picking him up.
"And what is it doing here?"
"I adopted him." He blinked at me. "I thought we both needed a little guy to keep us company."
"I just wish you would have asked me first." He commented heading to the kitchen. "What would you guys like for dinner? Since you're having a movie night." He didn't answer my original question.
"Jake?"
"I'm down for whatever." He answered from his spot on the couch.
"So can he sleepover? We'll sleep in the living room." He sighed before looking at me. "Please?" I asked.
"Only if Billy allows it." He answered.
"Jake? Will your dad let you sleepover?" I asked peeking my head around the corner.
"I can ask but I'm sure he'll be fine with it." I smiled before tossing him the phone. Jake called his dad. I only heard one half of the conversation but he moved the phone from his ear to talk to Charlie. "He wants to know if we should all do dinner? At the diner?" Jake asked.
"That sounds like a great idea." Charlie commented. Usually we only went to the diner together but it would be nice to add a few more people to our regular dinner's out. "Tell him we'll be to him in 20 minutes." Jake finished his conversation while Charlie went off to change. "He said I could sleepover." He confirmed laughing a little as he put the phone down.
"Why are you laughing?"
"Told me to protect myself." That could be taken a few ways.
"From me?" He laughed again making me smile.
"You kids ready?"
"Yeah." We both answered before heading out to the car. We sat in the back together so that when we got Billy he would be able to sit in the back.
"I really hate seeing you two back there." Charlie commented as he drove to the diner.
"Please don't ever arrest my boy." Billy said looking at the two of us in the backseat. I rolled my eyes. I'm sure Jacob would be able to talk himself out of any situation. I was a good kid, I would never get arrested. Unless I was with Jake.
Billy and Charlie argued back and forth for the whole drive. Jacob sat next to me with his hand placed on the seat beside us. When we finally got to the diner, Jake and I walked in front of them. He opened the door for me.
"Thanks." I smiled.
"Welcome." He grinned before holding the door for Charlie and Billy. I right away walked over to our usual table and moved a chair for Billy's chair. I sat down with Jake next to my left and Charlie to my right.
"So, what's happening at this sleepover?" Billy asked looking over the menu.
"We're just gonna watch movies." I answered.
"You don't have plans with Sam tonight?"
"Nope." Jake answered sternly as he put the menu down. The waitress came over and set my drink down before asking Jake and Billy what they would like.
"If it isn't Billy Black." She said with her hands on her hips. "How are you?" She asked. Jake looked over at me confused. I had the same react to her when I first came to forks too.
"This is my boy, Jacob." Billy said getting his attention.
"My have you grown." I laughed and covered my mouth while Jake shoved me. "It's great to see you all together." She said before hurrying off to get their drinks.
"What are you gonna get?" I asked Jake.
"Probably the bacon cheese burger." He answered. "You?"
"Fried chicken sandwich." I confirmed. Both Charlie and Billy got steaks. After dinner we headed to Billy's to drop him off. Jake ran in to help him get settled and grabbed some clothes before coming back to the car and getting in the front. "That's unfair!"
"You snooze you lose, criminal." I rolled my eyes but sat back as Charlie pulled onto the street. As soon as we got home Charlie said his goodnights and headed upstairs.
"I'm gonna go grab some blankets. Move the coffee table." I said as I ran upstairs to my room. I quickly grabbed pillows and blankets off my bed and in the closet before coming back downstairs. He had moved the table to the corner of the room and was waiting for me. I laid down the blankets for us to lay on before setting up the pillows against the couch. "What movies do you want to watch?" I asked going over to the shelf where we kept them.
He picked one before putting it in the DVD player. I shut the lights off before laying down. He laid next to me with his arms behind his head. I wasn't watching the movie, I was watching his face.
"You're not very good at watching movies." He chuckled.
"Sorry." I turned my gaze to the t.v.
"Are you okay?"
"I'm perfect." More than perfect. I hadn't felt this happy in months. My own personal sun. His warmth of not only his actual body but his heart made these last few months much easier on me. I knew that he was going through something too. Something he couldn't control. We needed to be there for each other. I planned to be there for him for as long as he wanted me.
"I'm glad you're happier." He commented making me smile before he pulled me into his side.
"I am too." I wasn't myself for months. Everyone noticed but Jake was the only one who never commented on it. He never commented about the bags under my eyes or the fact that I stopped liking music. He was just my friend and he didn't care if I was struggling, he was going to be there.
He was the best friend I had ever had. And I was in love with him.
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