Chapitre 50: Aster and Canis Majora
Aster POV;
-Do you hear me again? Princess of the Star?
"Y-Yes!"
-While the prophecy holder is doing its training, come with me for a moment.
"W-What about the m-magic circle?"
The Holy Beast let its eyes glow and the magic circle on the ground glowed as well.
-It will follow you around, now let us go.
"Okay" I gave a short reply, before I followed the holy beast, to be in its presence is such an honour.
-Do you know the pink stream?
"Yes, I-It's also called, the stream of the d-dead…"
-Very good.
"A-Are we going there?"
-Yes
I wonder why we are going to the stream…
-You do not stutter in your thoughts.
W-What…?
-I can also hear your thoughts, temporarily having a connection with us Holy Beast makes us hear your thoughts.
"P-Princess Seraphine as well?"
-Yes, we can hear the prophecy holder's thoughts very clearly.
I see...so that's why she can communicate with the Holy Beast, does that apply to all?
-You are comfortable inside your mind, than speaking vocally.
I blushed at how the Holy Beast Canis pointed it out, I clearly know what to say in my mind but when I finally say it, the words falter.
"It i-is a speech p-problem I acquired when I was fi-five years old…"
-Do tell, I am most curious.
"Is it okay i-if, I tell you, u-using m-my mind?" My voice shook.
-Alright.
I needed to deliver a speech, in front of the nobles at that age, my mother wrote a speech for me and I practised very hard to please my family, I practised every day until I memorised it.
When the time to deliver the speech finally arrived, we were at the throne room, my family was there, my mother, the Queen, sits proudly at her chair while she waits for me to deliver it.
In my mind, I knew the words, I had the confidence, but when I was in front of the people, my voice didn't come out, I became nervous, I panicked.
The nobles laughed at me, and I was humiliated. Of course, mother got angry at the nobles because of their demeanour towards me, but I knew it was my fault.
-You need practice at speaking with public crowds then.
Yes, I admire people who can talk to a huge crowd, they can speak without being nervous or afraid, but, I, on the other hand, couldn't handle it, my mother needed me to speak in front of the nobles in order for me to get used to it, since I am the Crowned Princess of our Queendom.
But I already failed her…
"Hic…"
-Wipe those tears away, Princess of the Star
"Huh…?"
I didn't realise I'm crying…
-A small mistake that can easily be overwritten.
"I-It never w-went away…"
-You can solve your problem by showing your confidence and becoming a true epitome of a Crowned Princess to them, while on this journey learn to accumulate your confidence.
"W-What if I d-do not...I c-cant"
-Do not think that you can't do it! Have this onto your mind 'YOU CAN DO IT'
"..."
-You can practice talking and improving your speech by talking to everyone around you, including the Prophecy Holder, so little by little your speech improves.
"S-Seraphine i-is…" I blushed "is very kind"
-When the time comes, you can act without looking down on your feet, remember, you are a crowned princess.
"Y-Your words somehow r-reminded me of mother…"
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"Aster, when the time comes you need to come out of your shell"
"I-I can't mother! I'm a f-failure!"
"You are not a failure my little star when a star is born it shines brightly up into the galaxy, you haven't showed them how bright you can shine my little star"
"..."
"You just need that pressure for you to shine brightly"
"B-But…"
"No buts!"
"..."
"One day, when you shine brightly, that light you illuminate will be able to help everyone around you"
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"Just believe my little star, that you CAN"
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"Her words n-never left me"
-She is right.
"D-Did you also s-see my memory?"
-Yes, and it was beautiful
I got flustered at what the Holy Beast said, I did not think that, it is also able to see memories.
-I did not see it, you made me watch, you felt strongly at what your mother's words and your memory, and she is right. Right now you are going to help your friends.
"What d-do you mean?"
-Some enemies scattered, when the attack on the Sun Palace occurred.
"H-How?!"
-I am one of the watchers of Celestia, we know what happens and the changes that are happening and right now…
Holy Beast Canis Majora had a serious tone.
"The enemy empire, w-will not s-stop, until their E-Emperor gets w-what he wants"
-We are here.
"T-Those are!" I gasped at the sight of shadow monsters scattered around the edges of the stream, I recall those monsters attacking the Sun Palace! Specially the giant one that entered the banquet hall!
-We need to destroy this disease.
"D-Disease?"
-Yes, it is one of the powers of that Empire's Emperor. The thing spreads and scatters like a disease.
"H-How can I help?"
-You already know the answer to that
I felt the smug look on the Holy Beast face, I gave a slow nod, and it sprinted towards where the shadow monsters were.
"Ah!"
Following the Holy Beast, I am also exposed to attacks of the shadow monsters, but I easily dodge and froze them in place, as well as provide support for the Holy Beast while it tears and slashes the shadow monsters into goop.
The shadow monsters did not spare me as well in their attack, even if I just do support for the holy beast.
"Cryo!" I shouted dodging a leap from a shadow monster dog, it freezes and breaks on the ground, I kicked another one that dashed towards me right towards the face.
-It seems you are a balanced fighter, you know melee and spells.
"Aha…" I got flustered at the compliment
-It looks like that is all of them.
"G-Good thing…"
-Those shadow monsters are looking for both you and the holder.
"They a-are not g-giving up easily...are they?"
-They are targeting both of you for a reason, and that reason is to cripple this Empire further.
"How h-horrible"
-Be vigilant when you are returning to your Monarchs, enemies will be targeting both of you, be prepared.
"...returning"
-Is something the matter?
"N-No, of course, n-not"
-Let us return to the Prophecy Holder and see if she is already at the trunk of the tree that I told her to climb.
"O-Okay"
Both of us went back, but the thought of returning to my Queendom scares me, does Seraphine get scared too? Is she scared of being a prophecy holder? If so, how can she face the things of what's to come?
I wish I was more like her, she can gain the confidence she needs in order for her to stride forward, while I feel like I am frozen in place…
But maybe she is the one that can help me as well? I cannot directly say it towards Seraphine that I need her help, but I hope she can feel my pleading…
I know, I'm being complicated but…I was never one to express my emotions, I just nod, smile and give it my all when I work… but I never asked for help for anyone, even if I knew that I needed it.
Mother knew the attitude that I gave so she secretly helps me when I need it…
I am thankful for those small gestures of her, but I do not want to be a burden on anyone, sometimes my Father and siblings help me as well, but I feel guilty when they do…I just can't help that guilty feeling.
When Seraphine came to my rescue at the banquet hall, I was thankful, but I also felt bad since she was eating, I bothered her.
I am a complicated person, I hate myself for being like this…
When she came forward and helped, feeling guilty was my initial reaction but when she spoke about; that I should stay with her and pointing out me being a pushover without any hint of malice or ill will I felt at ease.
Because I knew, I'm a pushover, Nyx points it out to, that I should stop that personality of mine.
But when Seraphine said it, it was different, her eyes were clear, I'm not saying that when my family helps they have malice, but Seraphine's honest but kind words are very comfortable.
She did not sugar coat anything, she reminded me of Nyx as well, but her words are soothing for some reason…
Maybe I just felt refreshed that someone could say words that are true but not so hurtful...
Maybe because she is the holder of the prophecy? But I do not think that...staying with the newly crowned princess, and getting to know her, I see that it is just her nature, to be honest, and kind, a bit clumsy too but, she is refreshing to be with.
I wish someday, I won't be frozen in place and could walk beside the light of the sun.
Cadeaux
-- Cadeau
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-- Classement
Power Stone 
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