Chapitre 43: The Pain In My Heart Part 2
Miracle's POV
I am no longer crying, yet I know it now swells my eyes. I pray that Jace will not be riding with us. It takes ten minutes before Jace answered his phone, Charles has been calling him many times. It hurt me, even more, to think he is having a good time, that he couldn't even bother to pick up his phone.
"What took you so long to answer, Jace?" Charles asked and I can feel the irritation in his voice, I can't hear what Jace is saying, but I can tell that he is trying to explain everything to Charles.
"Okay, no problem, see you then, goodbye Jace." Charles spoke and he hangs up his phone.
"Jace said, her girlfriend will take him to the manor." Charles said without looking at me, then he starts the car engine, and we left the mall immediately. I am still in a state of denial, even though I have seen him kissing his fiancée. It hurts me to the highest level, I have to face the fact that Jace King is taken. I have to go on with my life and pretend that I don't know Jace King. I realize I don't have any right to feel this way, yet I can't stop myself from hurting.
"I think your phone is buzzing, Ms. Mira." Charles noticed, my mind must be in another world since I didn't even hear the sound of my phone, I felt guilty when I read the caller ID, I forget to text Jaxson.
"Hello! Jax, I am very sorry, I forgot to text you, I am now with Charles, we are on our way going back to the manor, we accidentally bumped into each other and I got tired and wanted to go home, I am extremely sorry."
"It is alright Miracle, I called because I can't leave home early, and I felt relieved that you have already found a ride, before I can ask you to ride a taxi, take care Mira, and hope to see you later."
"Okay, thank you so much, Jax. Bye, you too take care." I said and ended the call. My mind was occupied by Jace that I forgot to send Jaxson a text message.
Jaxson was my first love, but right now I don't think about him before I go to sleep, unlike when I was a teenager, I always dream about Jax, and I wished that someday I am going to meet him again, and we will fall in love with each other again. Can I give Jaxson another chance? To be honest, I felt butterflies in my chest when he told me he never stops loving me. Am I feeling something for Jax? Or I am just thinking about this aspect because Jace hurt me. I am not sure, the only thing I am certain, my heart is aching because of Jace. I can't forget the way he is holding her waist.
I can't neglect the angelic face of his fiancée, I hate feeling about them having intimate moments together, for certain they are now in a hotel making love until midnight or morning. I want Jace to cherish me and to make love with me too. What? Why am I thinking all about this now? I can't deny I want Jace to be my first, and I despise myself thinking about him this way. I yearn for his kisses and the warm touch of his hands as I long to be in his arms again and I have to stop all this craziness.
My goal now is to forget him, he is getting married for God's sake, I should stop fantasizing about him. Jace King is not my boyfriend, therefore I don't have any right to get jealous. I am better than this. I hate hurting other people's feelings.
"Are you okay, Ms. Miracle?" Charles asked.
"Yeah! Please don't laugh about my stupidity, Charles. Don't worry, I will do anything to forget what I feel for Jace and one thing to do that is to find someone to date." I replied and sighed.
"So, you are now looking for candidates?"
"Applicants for what? For the tour?" I asked, confused.
"What else? To be your date because I wanted to apply you know." Charles declared.
"Charles, stop it already, we can be good friends, but not lovers, I prefer us to be friends." I answered.
"Ouch! Don't you find me handsome, Ms. Mira?" He added.
"You are handsome, Charles, and very attractive, but we don't have the sparks, you know what I mean?" I asked him.
"Yeah! I know what you mean, Ms. Mira, but I prefer to be honest with you, I want you, Ms. Miracle, I experience not only sparks when I am with you, I can feel fireworks all over my body because I like you since the first time I saw you, but I know you don't feel the same way towards me, and I am happy to tell you about what I felt." I am taken aback by Charles' confession and I don't think he was serious at first, but I can see the sincerity on his face.
"Wow! I didn't know, and I am sorry Charles, and right now I don't know what to say." I murmured.
"You need not say anything, Ms. Miracle, you don't have time to notice me all the time since your eyes are busy just staring at Jace every moment he is in the background." He stated.
"Oh, Am I that pathetic Charles?" I said.
"You are not pitiful, Ms. Miracle, Jace is to be blamed also, he is giving you the wrong signal, or maybe because he can't control what he feels for you too, that is why even though he has a girlfriend he still kissed you." Charles replied, and I never got close to anyone before, since Johnny, I felt close to Jace, but on a different level. I can feel that I can trust Charles about my innermost thoughts.
"I doubt about that Charles, he told my father he will never like me, and I am not his type Charles, I have seen his fiancée a while ago, and she is stunning and very beautiful." I said looking at the view outside the window.
"Do not underestimate your beauty, Ms. Mira, you have a beautiful face and a gorgeous body, and you have a strong sex appeal that is so hard to ignore, don't get discouraged, you have to fight for your love." He declared.
"Wow! You are only trying to make me feel better, Charles, and there is no love to fight for, I know where I stand in his life, Charles and it is better to forget him now than to suffer later. Don't worry, I had already survived a terrible heartache before, and I am sure I can manage this time. I am stronger than you think." I said and I am proud of myself.
"I mentioned you are beautiful not to make you feel better, I am telling you the truth. Yes, Ms. Mira, I know you are strong, don't worry, you can tell me everything you go through, your secrets are safe with me." Charles said.
"Thank you for all, Charles." I replied, then we fell silent for a long time until we reach home. He opened the car door for me and I climbed out of the car with a heavy heart.
"You are always welcome, Ms. Miracle." He said, then I get inside the manor and go directly to my room, in my solitude I broke down again until there are no tears left in my eyes, they became more swollen now, the facial tissues are scattered on my bed and the floor. I am wondering why I need to undergo this kind of heartaches when I am not even his girlfriend. At least when I wept over my breakup with Jaxson years ago, I can say he was my official boyfriend even it was an act on his part, but he told me he fell in love with me too, and he informed me until now, he doesn't stop loving me.
I wish to see Jax, even I know I will use him, I can't stand the pain alone. I prefer to be with someone. I realize I didn't think anymore, I lay on my bed and I sleep without changing my clothes and without eating my dinner. I am shocked when I realized I am still wearing my favorite jeans and T-shirt, I get up and looked at the time on my side table, it is already midnight. I take a half bath and change into my nightgown. Since Jace told me I was wearing an inappropriate nightdress when he was sleeping beside me on my bed, I bought a nightgown a little daring, but not made of thin materials.
I am starving, but I am not in the mood to eat, I get up and I get outside my room and notice the room of Jaxson is still lighted, I don't know what I am thinking, but I go to his door and knock. He is shocked to meet me at his door, I even get inside even without an invitation, then I heard the clicking of the door lock, when I turn around I found Jaxson standing so close to me.
"Are you alright, Miracle?" He said looking at my mouth. The moment Jaxson asked me if I was alright, I can't hold back my tears anymore. I said nothing, but I felt he moved closer to me. The moment Jaxson cupped my face I closed my eyes and I felt his lips brushed mine. He kissed me tenderly at first, it feels like his lips didn't touch mine at all, but then he claimed my mouth hungrily and I responded with hunger. I kissed Jaxson back thinking nothing, I just want to forget Jace.
I didn't notice that we moved closer to his bed until we both fall to the soft mattress without breaking our kiss. He kisses me wild like he is taking everything he can, and I kissed him like there is no tomorrow, he is stroking my thigh and I can feel his hands travel in my back, he is touching me everywhere that made me feel hungry for more. I get rid of Jaxson's shirt, and I am feeling his glorious six-pack abs. I admire his body ever since, and now he became yummier. I love the way he traced his lips on my mouth. I moaned, and he grunted and we are both panting, I felt breathless kissing Jaxson hurriedly.
I felt electrified, and I am horrified by what I have done when I saw Jace's handsome face flashed before my eyes and I hate myself. I stand up abruptly and leave Jaxson's room without saying goodbye, and I am rushing when I stumble upon Jace who just arrived from his date. He holds my waist to keep me from falling, and I can feel the electricity coming from his hold, I could tell Jace always gives me fireworks.
"Miracle, please wait!" Jaxson called out, and I felt my whole body turned cold as if someone had poured cold water on me. I can see the look of pain in Jace's captivating eyes when he saw Jaxson on his doorstep calling my name. And his eyes widened when he looked at the half-naked body of Jaxson stands in his doorway and I think he wants to say something when I get off from his grip and run to my door and closed it loudly without uttering a single word. How could this happen in one night?
Cadeaux
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reçu État de l’alimentation hebdomadaire
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Power Stone 
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