Alanis.
He can see right through me.
All day, I could tell he knew something was wrong. He gave me this weird look, like he was using his eyes to tell me that I could trust him. I know I can trust him. This is not about trust; this is me not wanting to see him hurt again. I really don't know how he will handle this. He is still trying to get over his father and now I have to spring this up on him.
How do I do that?
The day ends and I succeed in not saying anything about what I know. This is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I know I have to tell him but I don't know how to tell him, here I am staring into his eyes and keeping something so big from him.