Chapitre 11: THE TRUTH UNTOLD
Sejin handed the medicine to Jungkook.
"Put this on your gum and lips later. Maybe you should wash your face first," said Sejin. He also gave Jimin a medicine to reduce the bruise pain on his arm.
Sejin observed BTS faces, full with worries and pressure.
"I have something to say. I don't want to scold you anymore since Bang PD already did it. You guys are not a kid. You know what good or bad for you. Before I start, are you guys okay? Why everyone looked extremely terrible now compared to just now when I leave with Bang PD?" asked Sejin.
Everyone silent. No one want to answer to the question. Sejin sighed. He looked at Jin.
"Jin-a, do you really want to leave BTS?" asked Sejin casually to Jin. All eyes on Jin. Everyone put attention to Jin's response.
Jin took a deep breath before he answered, "Hyung, do you think i make a joke out of this? I really want to leave BTS. I have enough of this. I want to take off this idol mask and be real without harming the other members. I'll leave for good. For the sake of BTS and me. Please let me free, and let them free from this pressure".
Sejin sighed. He didn't want to let Jin go. He tried to console him.
"Jin-a, being an idol means you have to sacrifice your life for the sake of public acceptance. Your life become a public life. You cannot avoid social pressure and public attention to your life no matter how much you want it. We live in a society that paid us to entertain them. We dont want to live by pleasing others, but this is what living in this society means. Give them what they want while hiding yours," commented Sejin.
He tried to make Jin accept the reality of celebrity life and endure this pressure.
Sejin came closer to Jin. Yoongi stands up and give his seat to Sejin. He put Jin's head on his shoulder. He slowly wrapped Jin into his arm.
Jin's eyes sparkled. Tears suddenly flowing on Jin's face. Emotionless Jin cried the moment Sejin hugged him. Yes, a warm hug flew away half of his worries and insecurity. Maybe all his body wants now is just a warm hug. A screaming that he never realised.
Jin knew he isnt an amateur who is still not used to this kind of life. But he just can't continuously living in this kind of life. Lie and hide. Got scared while hiding it. Living worrying whether people can accept him for who he is. Worrying who gonna be affected because of his real ugly side of himself if he reveals his true self.
For Jin, it is enough if he suffered alone in this lonely garden, but dragging down these 6 flowers that he treasure the most together with him is a bit too much. He doesnt want to become a poisoned flowers that caused others to die. Would it be different if he never choose this path? Jin keeps questioning himself. Sejin patted on Jin's head.
"I know this is not the kind of life you wanted the moment you signed the contract with us. You may sometimes blamed your young self for choosing this path. Don't do it. Don't be too hard on yourself. Even if you choose a normal life, you can't guarantee your life is better as a non-celebrity. You may not be able to do what you want either. You may still need a small public acceptance to survive. Not too much attention, but you need to receive their acknowledgements. You still need to compete with people and get their trust. It's similar but different. Otherwise, why living is so hard for everyone? Why famous celebrities still need fame to sustain in the industry? They need to survive in order to continue living. They have no option. Do you think those retired celebrities really live happily and get everything back to normal? No. Because their life has already been accessed in public. People will still judge and talk about you. You might feel depressed and lonely now even you are busy as a celebrity. But living a normal person like me, I also cannot avoid difficulties. There will be another sort of problem that you will face too as a normal people. Both path has torns. Jin-iya...You always choose to be happy. I hope you really make a wise decision this time," Sejin realistically trying to illustrate the kind of life as a non-celebrity like him.
Namjoon nodded. He agreed with Sejin. He squad in front of Jin. He looked at Jin's eyes softly.
"That's right, hyung. Don't make a rush decision like this. Let's think all over again and sort out this issue together. You need time to think about you, your family, friends and fans," said Namjoon. He knew that the decision was made without much thoughts and influence by emotions. It is too drastic to the extend that the members have no idea that Jin took it too seriously. No one expect about it.
Sejin nodded his head. He tapped on Jin's shoulder to give him strength. Jin wiped his tears from his face. His sparkling eyes is still red.
Jimin in silence observed Jin's behaviour. For some reason he feel bad for Jin. Did he pushed Jin way too far? He didn't have an answer. All he knows, BTS is really mentally and emotionally drained with works and problems. If he can, he wanted to run away from it.
Sejin looked at the rest of BTS members. All of them looked extremely exhausted. He suddenly smiled. Namjoon noticed it and asked, "Why are you smiling, hyung?".
"Nothing. You guys are all grown up now. You worry and think about each other a lot. Very understanding but still have ego," Sejin commented short and smiled.
Taehyung smiled softly. "Hyung, you said you want to tell something earlier. What is it?" asked Taehyung.
Sejin raised his eyebrows. His eyeball roaming around. Ah. He just remembered the reason he returned to the room.
"Oh yeah. Thanks for reminding me," said Sejin.
He turned to Jin and told him, "This is also for you, Jin. This good news will help you to think all over again. I think God also want to help us".
Hoseok became curious. He asked, "What is it, hyung?"
Sejin smiled, "Actually Bang PD-nim pulled all his contact and push them to find the real culprit of this issue previously. He really took care after you from here while you guys traveling overseas. After he scolded you, right after we went out, he received an update from someone about the Big Hit's staff that committed to this incident. He got the phone number and personally contacted the girl. He threaten the girl to meet for further discussion or he will file a lawsuit against the girl. After a few minutes, he told me that the girl has agreed to meet. Not only with Bang PD, but she will meet all of you to apologise and tell the truth of this incident".
Namjoon asked, "When will it be?".
Since your schedule is too packed and she is currently in America, we will meet her before BTS 5th Muster once she reached here," replied Sejin.
"It's funny if she actually have the ticket to see us," Yoongi interrupted.
Sejin shocked, "How did you know? She does have the ticket. That's why she returned," said Sejin.
Yoongi smirked, "I knew it. I can see the future".
Hoseok disbelief it. He got irritated and said, "Wow. She's really shameless. How can she buy the ticket to see us after she messed up with our life like this?"
Yoongi commented "Maybe she already have the ticket before she resigned from Big Hit,".
Hoseok nodded, "Yeah, it's possible. I hope she dragged Steve along. I really want to smash his face".
Sejin sighed. He told them, "Unfortunately, Steve still can't be reached. She said she doesn't have his number. We dont know what actually happened. We need to wait for her to know what's going on".
The room become silent. Everyone find it weird but they will patiently wait for the day the found the truth. Sejin assured them everything gonna be solved soon.
Jimin suddenly got up. He took the phone and heading outside the room. Taehyung asked him, "Where do you want to go?"
Jimin answered short without looking back, "Toilet".
Jungkook find it suspicious Jimin suddenly wanted to go to the toilet with a phone after Sejin's delivered the information. After Jimin closed the door, Jungkook said. "Jimin hyung do something suspicious again. Something fishy. Anyone noticed that?"
Taehyung looked at him and stroked his hair from the back. "I think you got too sensitive now. Maybe really wants a fresh air or something. Just let him go," Taehyung said short.
Jungkook glanced at Taehyung. "Fresh air in the toilet, with phone? Suddenly? That's ridiculous" said Jungkook.
Yoongi in silent agreed with Jungkook. He actually started feeling suspicious with Jimin a few days back when he caught Jimin in talking with someone through the phone. Something serious. He doesnt know what it is, but he sure there is something going on with Jimin. Even in this room, he observed everyone for awhile. But he doesn't want to throw any accusation or bring the issue out to avoid clashes among members. He still unsure what it is. Until then, he will continue observing him.
Jin also found suspicious Jimin suddenly got up and leave the room. But he already decided to forgive and forget their fight for the sake of BTS. Whether Jimin is right or wrong, until the day he leave the group, he will cooperate well with other members and bring everyone together.
"I don't think Jimin looks suspicious. He will always looks suspicious if we keep thinking he is doing something weird out there. Maybe you're too sensitive or overthinking," Hoseok said. He doesnt want anyone think badly towards Jimin.
Jungkook not satisfied. He felt like people think that he is the negative one purposely badmouthing Jimin. He wanted to defend himself.
"No. He is..." Jungkook unable to continue his words when Jin suddenly interrupted.
"Jungkook-a. You are usually quiet, so I dont I know what you are thinking. I'm shocked to see different side of you these days. Now i know what you are thinking, let's not accuse one another and wait a little while. You cannot accused him without proof. So let's not get suspicious with one another and stay united," said Jin.
Jungkook understand Jin's thought, but he can't help getting offended again hearing like he intended to accuse Jimin for no reason.
Jungkook sarcastically responded, "Jin hyung, it's irritating that i'm at your side but you blaming me for accusing him. Well. You want to leave BTS right? You want to run and hide. You are too afraid if people will leave you after revealing the truth. So you leave them first. This is what you think, right? If you want to go, just go. Don't come again. You dont even trust anyone afterall. Let's just disband our group,"
Jungkook got up. He throw the pillow to the sofa and get out from the room. Jin barked at him. Jin shouted at Jungkook but he doesn't want to listen. Jin got extremely angry. Jungkook let Jin babbling alone and shut the door hard.
Sejin shakes his head and madly said, "Why are you guys keep arguing like this. Nevermind. I will follow Jungkook". Sejin run and follow an angry Jungkook.
Jin on the other hand, feel burned in his heart. He told the remaining BTS members that he returning to his room. The rest of BTS members leave in this room with confusion. The room that was so loud with argument suddenly become silent for a minute. They looked at each other.
Taehyung broke the ice, "So only 4 of us are not fighting with anyone right?"
Namjoon sighed, "Hurm. You guys make me feel like i am a failed leader"
Hoseok responded, "Ya! Namjoon-a. Don't think like that. If you also lose strength, I dont know what will happen to us. Let's stay at positive side". Ho seok tried encourage Namjoon not to lose hope.
Yoongi agreed with Hoseok, "Hobi is right. If we got emotional like them, we can't solve the issue. To be honest, I can see in Jin's eyes that he still want to remain as BTS members. 'I still want you' clearly written in his eyes. But why he keeps insisting to leave? He really need to know the truth from the woman fast before he make a wrong decision again".
Taehyung scratched his head hard. He feels stressful. "I can't wait to see that woman. If only a man can hit a woman, I'll probably punch the girl the moment I see her later".
Yoongi added, "Taehyung-a, hyung already shoulder throw her in my mind several times already". Yoongi tried to make fun to lighten the mood. Taehyung, Namjoon, and Hoseok laughed before everyone go to their own room with so much thought running in their head.
État de l’alimentation hebdomadaire
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Power Stone 
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