Chapitre 9: LOST
Namjoon, Jin, Taehyung and Hoseok stopped at the door. They shocked hearing Yoongi yelled at Jimin.
Yoongi sighed. He pushed Jimin to the side. Afraid that Jimin could injure himself. He picked up the glass pieces on the floor one by one. Namjoon and Hoseok came closer to help Yoongi pickup up the glass. Jin, on the other hand, took a bowl and handed it to Hoseok. Hoseok put the pieces of broken glass into the bowl.
"Are you okay?" Taehyung asked Jimin. Jimin didn't give any response.
Taehyung pulled Jimin to the sofa. He gave a small massage on Jimin's shoulder. Jimin sat and rubbed his face. Tears started running through his face. Jungkook, on the other hand, running to the washroom. Calming himself. He felt the heavy feelings lifted in his chest. His breath becomes unstable.
The room becomes silent. Only the sound of glass picked and dropped into the bowl filled the room.
"Ouch!" Yoongi shouted. All eyes on Yoongi.
Jin came closer to Yoongi, "Why? Did you get hurt?"
Yoongi snapped Jin's hand from touching him. The blood running through his finger. Yoongi got a small cut on his finger. Thank God it wasn't so deep. "I'm fine. It's not that hurt compare to the pain looking at us now," Yoongi stand up and leave the room. Everyone looking at Yoongi leaving the room. Yoongi shut the door loud. Anyone can tell Yoongi was irritating.
Namjoon stood. Looked at the remaining BTS members in the room. "Seriously, what are you guys doing? Fighting for what?" asked Namjoon. Hoseok continued picked up the broken glass.
Jimin with teary eyes and anger on his face got up and went out of the room. Ignoring them.
"Jimin-a..." Taehyung tried to pull Jimin's arm to stop him, he looked at Jimin's face closer. His face became wet. Tears keep coming out although he did want to cry. Taehyung let him go. Thinking that Jimin might need some alone time.
Taehyung wants to find Jungkook. Before he goes, Hoseok called Taehyung and asked, "What happened actually before we came?"
Namjoon sat at the sofa. Jin and Taehyung followed. Hoseok threw away the broken glass and the bowl into the dustbin. Taehyung sighed. Hoseok sat next to Jin and Namjoon. Facing Taehyung on a single seated sofa.
"Jungkook-i and I trying to talk with Jimin about us. Our relationship. We don't have a bad intention. We just want all of us to be closer like before. Not in an awkward relationship like now. Closed on camera, on stage only. Looking at some members put a mask just for show, it's hard to watch," Taehyung paused. Jin breathes out loud. He knew he is apart of this problem. He can tell their fight caused other members involved in their fight.
Taehyung continues, "At first, there is no issue. We try to understand him. So we joked in between having a serious conversation. Then, Jungkook told him to just hug Jin-i hyung and apologies. Because Jin-i hyung might have a little pride to apologise first. Afterall, we are the maknae line. We understand that Jin hyung might feel a bit pressure with the issue and having a hard time now. I think, Jimin took it in a wrong way and misunderstood Jungkook".
Taehyung paused a little. He looked at Jin and told, "Jimin said he won't apologise for something he didn't do. That was when the argument started. Jimin expressed his thought on the issue and what he felt after being blamed. He really tries his best to understand and forgive Jin hyung. But he felt unfair if he needs to apologise when he didn't do it in the first place. He said he did felt a sense of responsibility towards Jin's incident because he did involve and played a part on that night which caused Jin hyung to be framed. He feels bad too. But for apologies for trapping Jin hyung into the incident, it's a bit too much. Jungkook at the other side, being too argumentative and pushed Jimin a bit too hard to just apologise. Jimin did not react well and becomes too defensive. He said, even if he apologises, he won't feel good about it. Nothing hurts more than disappointed by someone he thought would always trust him. I think he feels insecure. He doesn't know who actually trust him now. That's why he became cold. Although I can understand Jungkook point of view to save BTS relationship, sensitive Jimin may not be able to tolerate being provoked too hard when he feels it is unfair. That is what i observed".
Jin found it weird that argument like that leads to a physical fight. Shouldn't it be better when everyone opened up their feelings like that? Jin then asked, "It doesn't make sense. It doesn't look too heavy or too heated conversation until cause them into physical fight. Isn't it weird?"
Taehyung drinks mineral water bottle before he continued. "Jungkook suddenly spoke informal language with Jimin because he was too mad. He raised his voice to Jimin".
Pfffhh. Namjoon who drink mineral water splashed out some of the water from his mouth. Ridiculous! Just because of Jungkook speak banmal to him? He finds this funny. He smirks a little.
Taehyung understands Namjoon's body language, continue explaining the real situation. "Seriously, hyung. They weren't in the right mind. Jungkook thinks Jimin is too stubborn. Jimin think Jungkook is too pushy and rude. I got trapped in between them. I never see Jungkook angry like that. It was really heated. Even Suga hyung who slept at the corner also woke up to stop them".
Hoseok was curious. He wanted to know more. But Taehyung stopped in the middle of the story. He asked, "And then? What happened after Yoongi hyung woke up? What did he say?"
Taehyung sighed hard. He rubbed his neck and shoulder as he feels the tension raised in his body. He said, "He told them to stop bickering. But Jimin cannot stand looking at Jungkook being too rude to him. He demanded an angry Jungkook to apologise for being rude to him before he cannot control himself. Jungkook blows up after hearing that warning. He threw his jacket on the floor and yelled. He blamed Jimin for causing this mess. He said Jimin make things complicated and make himself looked suspicious. Jungkook said he can understand now why Jin hyung accused Jimin and never apologise to him. He has no surprise now if Jimin was really involved in the incident and framed Jin hyung just by looking at how Jimin reacted to the accusation".
Hoseok rubbed his face. "Ah...Jungkook-i," Hoseok sighed. Jin glanced at Hoseok. Seems like Hoseok at Jimin side. He shouldn't think like that. But he couldn't help thinking like that.
Taehyung expressed what he felt at the situation, "I don't know what to do because Jungkook started taking a side and against Jimin. Suga hyung and me trying to stop them from arguing any longer. Jimin took his phone. He didn't want to continue the confrontation. He wanted to get out from the room, but Jungkook keeps talking and cursed Jimin in front of us before Jimin reached the door. Jimin heard him cursing. He turned around. He pushed Jungkook from the back until he fell down at the sofa".
Namjoon shocked. He can't believe that Jungkook cursing at Jimin. He cut the story and wanted to ensure he hears correctly, "Wait. What? Jungkook was cursing?!".
Hoseok also can't believe that, questioned, "Seriously? Cursing? Jungkook-i??".
Jin became speechless. He can't believe his maknae will curse his hyung. No wonder they got into a fight.
Taehyung nodded, "Yes. He cursed Jimin. Suga hyung held Jimin to stop him. He hugged Jimin so that he can't pursue Jungkook. I help Jungkook to sit properly. But Jungkook glaring back at Jimin. I saw fire in their eyes. That was when Suga hyung told me to gather all hyung fast. We cannot handle them alone. We were afraid someone might sleep at the hospital tonight".
The rest of the BTS members sighed. The room became quiet. Now they understand why they were quarrelling way too loud. Everyone trying to analyse the whole situation before Jin asked, "What should we do now?"
Hoseok looked at Jin. This is all started because of his problem, "What do you think we should do now? I want to know what do you feel after hearing this".
Jin stared at the carpet. He quiet. Thinking that he needs to do something to fix the situation. As the eldest member, he needs to put everyone together. But it becomes hard when he thinks about his situation. He becomes more confused. Why it become like this? Why things become complicated? Why can't everyone pretend as nothing happen and let time heal everything?
Jin expressed his thought, "To be honest I don't want any of you to get involved in my problem. I really feel lost right now. I really don't know who should I trust. I don't want to think much about my issue until the time comes. I know I keep wandering around because I don't know what should I do. I try not to make anyone uncomfortable with me especially in front of the ARMY. I want us to be together. Stay like this even with my problem. But I don't know. Am I right to do this? I know where the issue is coming from. But I don't know where should I go. What I know is it shouldn't make us crashing into one another".
Namjoon understood Jin's frustration looking at other members fighting because of him. He tapped on Jin's tight twice. He asked, "Okay, but what should we do now?".
Everyone quiet. Jin closed his eyes. His head down. He answered slowly, "I don't know. This is too hard. I thought we are on the right path. I am so confused. I don't want anyone to leave me alone. Like our song, I still want to believe even though it's unbelievable. To lose your path is the way to find that path".
Taehyung nodded. He stared at the carpet, "You're right. We are lost our way. Constantly pushing without rest within the harsh rainstorms. We are lost our way within a complicated world without an exit".
Hoseok stared to the wall. Namjoon stared at the ceiling. Everyone lost in their own thought. Although they lost their way, they will never lose their dream.
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