Chapitre 43: Everything Between Us
Hyung is still in Korea?
My mind was bombarded with questions and worries.
Where is he right now? What is he doing? Who is he staying with?
I grabbed my phone and looked up his phone number. I hit the call button. It rang once but I quickly ended the call.
What if he doesn't want to talk to me?
"Ani, I need to talk to him. I need to let him know how I feel.."
I pressed the call button only to hang up right away again.
What if he doesn't want to see me anymore?
"Stop it Hani!! Just call him damn it!"
I took a deep breath and hit the call button just to hang up again. I threw myself onto the bed and had a little tantrum kicking the air and screaming to myself.
"I can't do it. I'm too scared he's going to hate me..."
I slap myself lightly before sitting back up in bed. If I couldn't call him, maybe a text would be better.
'Hyung, I know you're still in Korea. I have something I need to tell you. Meet me at the playground tomorrow morning at 8.'
My thumb hovered over the send button. Why was it so hard to hit the send button?
I closed my eyes and tapped my phone letting fate decide if I hit the send button or if I hit a random key.
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***Jimin's POV***
Another day has gone by. It was 2 in the morning already and I couldn't sleep again. Taehyung was lightly snoring next to me and already in a deep sleep.
In the darkness of Taehyung's room, I could see the tiny blue light from my phone that was being charged.
Only 6 more days until I leave.
I couldn't help but let a tear fall from my eye as I thought of Hani.
She is happy with Yoongi. Don't be stupid Jimin. Stop thinking about her. You'll be fine. You can get over her. You can do it Jimin....
I turned away from Taehyung when I couldn't hold back the tears anymore. I cried silently to myself because I knew how much I was lying to myself.
I miss her. I want to see her. I still love her...
I saw my phone flash for a quick second as if someone was calling me. It was too late for anyone to be calling me right now so I ignore it until it flashed again.
I gently got out of bed trying not to disturb the sleeping boy next to me. I grabbed my phone and my eye widen when I saw who the missed calls were from.
My heart increased and I suddenly felt all the blood pumping through my veins. I quickly unlocked my phone to call her back, but then I stopped myself.
What good will it do if we talk? It'll only cause me more heartache.
I turned my phone off and went back to bed. I tried to fall asleep, but my eyes kept on lingering back to my phone.
I need to let her go. Stop it Jimin...
But what did she call me for?
Does she know I'm still in Korea? That's not possible.
Should I just call back to see what she wants and say that I'm back at home already?
Ani, you'll only hurt more if you hear her voice.
I turned away from my phone and closed my eyes. I shook my head violently to discard those thoughts from my head.
I'm not going to turn my phone back on. I won't turn it on until I get back to the states.
I pulled the pillow over my head and pulled the blanket over myself in an attempt to keep myself as far away as I could from my phone... only to fail miserably.
I fell off the bed as I was trying to get up as fast as I could and ran towards my phone and turn it back on. I had gotten another missed call and a new text from Hani.
'Hyung, I know you're still in Korea. I have something I need to tell you. Meet me at the playground tomorrow morning at 8.'
I couldn't wait until morning, so I ran to grab my jacket but knocked over a few of Taehyung's things that caused the sleeping boy to wake up instantly.
"Jiminie.. where are you going?' He tiredly asked in his deep low voice.
"Oh, uhhh, I couldn't sleep so I'm going to take a walk. I'll be back real quick.."
"Liar.... You're going back to Hani's aren't you?"
I've told Taehyung everything that had happened between Hani and I. It was all so suffocating that I had to let someone know.
"Hani's?? Haha. Why would I go back there? Okay bye!"
"Jiminie!! Wait up! Let me come with you then."
"NO! I mean, uhh thanks but no thanks. I want to go alone."
"She hurted you a lot Jimin. Are you sure you still want to go?"
I let out a deep sigh. I wasn't fooling Taehyungie.
"Taehyung, I can't stop thinking about her...." I finally confessed to him.
"She texted me saying that she wants to meet tomorrow morning, but I can't wait. I want to see her..."
"Jimin-"
"For the last time. I'll only meet her one last time to hear what she has to tell me. I want to give her a proper farewell too. Being my friend all these years, she at least deserves that much from me besides a letter..."
He nodded at me allowing me to go and I thanked him before rushing out of his room and out the front door. I spotted a cab and waved it down. It pulled over but the driver said that he was getting off work. I begged him for a ride and that I'll pay him double the fare so he agreed.
We pulled up to Hani's house and I paid the cab driver and ran towards the front gate. I tried to open it, but it was locked from the inside. I climbed the gate and jumped over it. I ran to the front door to ring the doorbell, but then I stopped. I waited for my breathing to calm down and I finally pressed the doorbell.
*Ding Dong*
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I opened my eyes to see that I had hit the send button. I dropped my phone onto the bed and started to panic.
Oh my god! Oh my god! I actually sent it!!!
Wait... Why the hell am I freaking out? Isn't it a good thing that I sent the text?
I grabbed my phone and saw that he had read my text. I started to panic again.
HE WAS STILL UP?! HE READ MY TEXT! WHAT DO I DO?! WHAT DO I DO?!!!
I nervously waited for a reply. I did nothing but stared at my phone, but he never sent one. 30 minutes passed and still not one text from him.
Why would he want to see you Hani? You hurted him so much...
I fell back onto the bed and stared at the ceiling as tears began to form in my eyes. I closed them letting the tears fall down the corner of my eyes. I lost all hope that he wasn't going to reply nor was he planning on meeting me tomorrow morning.
I should have never sent that text...
*Ding Dong*
I lifted my head up and stare at my door in confusion.
Who could be at the door this late at night?
*Ding Dong*
I got up and made my way towards the front door.
*Ding Dong*
I open the door and was shocked to see Hyung on the other side of the door. He had his hand up and was about to knock on the door. He quickly covered his mouth in an attempt to cover his laugh. His action caused me to be even more confused. I thought he was mad at me? Why is he laughing?
"Hi Hani, You uh... You got a little something on your face. Your make up actually..." and then he burst out laughing at me. His cute little giggles that I have missed so much. I couldn't help but smile a bit at the sight I was seeing, until...
My makeup?!!! Oh my god, my makeup!!
I looked down at myself and I was still in Mi-Young's clothes and with all the crying I had done earlier, I probably look like shit. I ran away to my room and I could hear Hyung laughing so loudly and closing the door behind him. He was making his way upstairs to my room too.
I looked at myself in the mirror and what I saw was horror. My hair extension was falling out and all the crying I had done earlier had caused my make to run. I looked like a freaken clown!
Aishhh!! That girl is not my friend! She is an evil person who did not tell me I looked this horrible!
I quickly grabbed some makeup remover wipes and attempted to clean my face. I could hear his giggling nearing my room so I ran to the bathroom and shut the door close. I cleaned my face of whatever makeup I had left and gently took out the hair extensions. I finished cleaning up my face but I was still in Mi-Young's dress. I groaned out loud before walking out of the bathroom.
I sped to my closest and grabbed whatever shirt and pants that I first saw and sped back into the bathroom. All while Hyung sat and laughed to himself on my bed.
When I got back into the bathroom, guess what I had grabbed instead of a pant? That damn short once again.
Why are you doing this to me??!! Life hates me...
I whined silently to myself while punching and kicking the air for a minute before changing into the tank top and short.
I got out of the bathroom and saw that Hyung had stopped laughing. His focus was on the floor below him as he sat quietly while waiting for me. His serious expression caused me to wonder why he suddenly changed.
He lifted his head to meet my eyes and he instantly stood up. His face started turning red as he back away from the bed and me and headed towards the seat next to the vanity table.
I quickly got into bed and sat up while covering my bottom half with my blanket. I looked at Hyung and he was staring back at me. I turned away as soon as our eyes met. I was nervous so I started playing with my hands and kept my gaze on my hands. How am I going to tell him anything? He didn't give me enough time to prepare myself.
"I uhh, saw your text..." He said breaking the silence in the room.
"Oh.."
Oh?! Oh???!!! Really Hani?
"I mean, why didn't you just text me back? You didn't have to come over right away. It was already late. We could have met tomorrow morning."
"I couldn't wait-"
I looked back up towards Hyung and he seemed nervous too. He shifted in his seat.
"I-I.. uhhh.."
He started stuttering while trying to find a reason to tell me why he was here this late. I smiled to myself at how cute he was.
"It's okay Hyung. Since you're already here, sleep here tonight. We can talk tomorrow morning."
I smiled at Hyung. He didn't say anything but kept his eyes on me. His nervous self suddenly changed and his serious expression came back.
"I came here to hear what you wanted to tell me. And after that, I want to end everything between us..."
To Be Continued...
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