Chapitre 41: Chapter 39

Tears were streaming down my cheeks but I couldn't feel anything anymore. I was numb. Completely numb. The words of my own father were stuck to my heart leaving a deep scar inside it. I thought maybe he have a little bit of feelings for me. Maybe he still remembered that I am his own flesh and blood. But I was wrong. I am nothing more than a product for profit for him. He uses me however he likes. Can't I just run away from all of this? All of the miseries caused by my own parents? I grabbed my cell phone from the top of the pillow nearby and went to gallery which consist of most of my and Joonie's pics. The one we took at our first date. He took me for ice skating even after knowing that neither of us knew how to do it. A chuckle escaped from me along with tears. Then I came across the pic of our first anniversary. He decorated our bedroom with scented candles and flowers. It was the most beautiful moment for me that I ended up crying like I am doing right now. It was also the night I finally decided to give him my everything and I never regretted that. He was and always will be the only one I love. I also came across the pic of the time we went to karaoke along with Hobi and Yunki. It was before the three maknaes came in our lives. Only I was able to sing high notes at that time rest of the three being rappers and having short vocal range ended up straining their voices. But it was quite funny sight to watch for me. I was laughing hard while clutching to my stomach during whole time but we had lots of fun. Ah this one. This is the pic when he took me on a date in a restaurant on my birthday. Just the two of us but we ended up fighting because the waitress there was trying to flirt with him and he didn't even refuse her instead on top of that gave her his beautiful dimple smile which only I deserve. I left the restaurant without even eating anything and he had to buy me lots of chocolates to finally made me talk to him. That moment makes me laugh whenever I think about it. We are so much in love but it is soon going to end. The harsh realization made me broke down in crying while clutching to my heart as it really stings due to suffocating all this time. The sudden ringing of my cell phone made me flinched and dropped it on my lap. After calming myself down and wiping away all the tears I picked it up. 'My dimple boy' It says making a drop of tear to slide down my cheek from my left eye. "H-hello" I cursed at myself for straining my voice due to all those crying. "Love?" His deep voice came spreading warmth throughout my body especially my throbbing heart. "J-Joonie" I choked. "How are you hyung?...I can feel you are not OK. Something is not right...but I can also sense that you are not going to tell me anything." "Joon I-I am sorryyy *sob*" "I wish I could help you baby but you are not even telling me except just crying and making me worrying about you more and more." "Talking to you is e-enough. It gives me strength." "That is why you never called me last few days right?" There was hurt coating his voice and making me sniffle again. "I-I am sorry" A deep sigh came from the other end "I will always be there for you hyung remember that and I will always wait for you even when you will push me away I will never stop loving you." My silent sniffles converted into loud sobs and I ended up crying harder. "H-hyung? Are you OK? Please don't cry hyung I can't see you like this." Before I could reply I heard a slight tap on my window making my head snapped in that direction. I saw someone's hand covered with black glove tapping on my window. My eyes widened and my body stiffened and a cold shiver ran through my body. "Hyung? Jin hyung? What happen?" Joon was busy calling my name but my mind stopped working due to terror. "I-I will talk to you later Joon" I finally spoke. The hand was still there and a second hand also covered in a black glove joined it. It seemed someone is trying to climb into my room. "What? Hyung are you OK?" "I am OK Joon. I promise I will call you back" and without waiting for his answer I hanged up.