thisgirl818

Seven years ago, you told me you loved me. I laughed bitterly as I reminisce the way your tears fell down, trying to convince me that you never lied in this love you claimed to have for me. I rejected you of course. Who in their right mind would savour the words of a cheater?

He was my sunset. My fire. And as the sun went down, so did he.

She knew what she did to him and he was left unspeakably broken and lost. He thought that everything was going right. It wasn’t fair that she would just hurt him like that. She had those secret filthy nights all to herself and he never thought he was never enough. She tried to push herself to stay, trying to love him but in the end all was lost when she stayed too long in that cabin. Waking up in someone else’s bed, somehow satisfied which was confusing to her.

This is a story of my bestfriend’s first love and kung paano siya bumalik pero hindi ko alam na bumalik siya, I seriously have no clue at all. Anyways, ayun na nga six years ago I accidentally made love with my bestfriend’s first love. Gusto kong sabihin na accidente yun because I was drunk pero deep inside alam ko na ginusto ko din yun because I was falling for the jerk. It was something that I’ve been desperately trying to conceal throughout all my high school days. Akala ko pagbalik ko which was four years ago ay hindi ko na siya makikita pa. I heard he’s engaged and my bestfriend cried so hard na baliw-baliw na siya nun, ako namanhid lang expected ko na yun. Then one crazy drunken night bago ako umalis, we sort of kind of happened. First time kong malasing nun, my whiskey did the best distraction and everything got haywire at sobrang nahihilo ako nun haha.. pero I remembered everything. I remember how he felt like, his scent, his touch, when we kissed and went on. It was a crazy drunken wild night. A primal agony. At hindi ko makalimutan when he said the words I used to long to hear. It seemed right at that moment. But it scared me in the morning, he was asleep. Breathing like the world was at peace and happy, at one moment gusto kong humiga na lang ulit at matulog sa tabi niya pero I had to leave. I chose to go for my bestfriends sake.

"When we never even had the courage to speak with words? The only thing we had we're those stolen glances" Somehow, at some point of your life you'd wished for things to overlap. That if only eyes could speak you'd tell that person how to feel. Is it really possible to fall in love just by stealing glances?