Capítulo 6: CHAPTER SIX

A plan that backfired.

I brought my legs closer to my chest as I stared at the lake in front of me, not daring to look at Max in the eyes. So much for not falling for his charms, I felt angry with myself but at the same time pleased that I had stopped myself from going further. I had played a game, but it ended up backfiring on me, almost burning me.

I knew that I shouldn't have played that game, knowing very well that I still had feelings for him. I had provoked him, luring him in to trap him but he turned it back on me.

Luring me in, provoking me.

I stood up abruptly, dusting my ass as I turned around to walk away when he swiftly stood up and grabbed my arm, holding me in place.

"What are you so scared of?" He grabbed me by my chin and made me look at him, his eyes looking back at me with sorrow. "You! I'm confused, and, and scared. I am terrified of you. Of my feelings, of this emptiness and everything else. My love for you, this, this feeling that won't go away and this heart that won't let go." I brought my hands up, crying in them until sobs were the only thing coming out of my mouth.

I was brought into Max arms, his body cocooning mine more in a protective way than a sexually way. I for once let him hold me tightly as I cried out. "I don't know if this helps but I can't let go either." I laughed between tears as I pulled away from him slowly, wiping my tears away.

"Sooner or later we both will have to." I finished wiping my tears as I sniffed, running my palms across my forehead. "What happened between us is the first thing we need to let go of."

"Anything but that." He grabbed my face in his hands. "What happened between us was because we were in love with each other, I can't just let go of that."

"And look at us now Max! Look at us now! I guess that love wasn't enough." I shouted at him as I pushed his hands away from my face. "I lost my virginity to someone that wasn't my mate. Isn't that enough for you?" I ripped the arm he sneaked around my waist and stepped back.

"You didn't seem to complain about it years ago." And the dick Max return. I don't know why I even bother. I glared at him fuming. "I was fifteen for the love of God! I didn't know what I was doing at the time. I guess I was so in love with you that I didn't think about the consequences that sleeping with you might bring."

By now he was shaking with anger. "Why do you got to bring the age situation into this conversation as an excuse? I was young too when it happened, you were my first too. I was sixteen and I don't regret it. Heck! I even wanted you even more after that night but my paren..."

"Yeah! Your parents died and you became a jerk? Is that your pathetic excuse Max? You say that I use this age thing as an excuse, but you don't mind using your dead parents as pawns for your mistakes. They aren't the reason why you became this trashy person. You chose to become this person, it's a choice! You could have easily turned your life around and be a better person. Learn from your mistakes and move on, but guess what? You decided to become a fucking jerk and is still using your parents dead as an excuse. Yeah, because your parents died you treated everyone around you like trash, yeah, because your parents died, you became a jerk, yeah, because your parents died you decided to not give a fuck anymore. Ha!" I shouted at him.

"I lost the two person I loved the most Alexandra. You had your parents and your brothers with you. I had no one. No one!" He shouted back at me, and I scoffed, still making excuses. I looked at him furiously.

"You had your sister." I hooked my point finger around my pink finger as I continued to mention more people and hooking more fingers, "Your aunt. You had Chris. You had Justin. You had me. Heck! You even had my brothers, but you turned into an ass and everybody hated you ever since because of that."

"Your brothers hated me since they found out about me and you." He shouted. "My sister looked so much like my mother that I couldn't bear seeing her every single day." He sighed.

I fumed. "Because she looked like your mother you had to send her away? How about her mate Max? My brother was left heartbroken when she said that she had to leave him!" I shouted at him. How can he be so cruel! I don't even recognize him anymore. "You weren't the only one heartbroken Max." I muttered, looking away from his heated gaze.

"I'm sorry about your brother but his mate is still alive." He growled out angrily. He would never change his mind Alexandra, get it in your thick skull.

Images flashed through my mind as I gripped on the soap harder, scrubbing my body where Max touched me. I felt disgusted with myself. I cursed at myself for being so naïve once again. He would never change; he's just using you.

When he finds his mate, he's going to leave me like a trash can. I'm just one of his multiple conquests. I promised myself that I would never fall for that again and look at me, kissing him like an idiot.

I wrapped the towel around me as I came out of the shower and stepped out of my bathroom. I threw on an oversized shirt and slid on my panties, making my way toward the light switch and turned off the lights.

With my keen eyesight, I reached my bed in no time and dove in. Gathering the covers from the bed, I snuggled closer to my pillow, hoping for the sleep to come but it didn't. I sighed, turning over as I stared at the ceiling, come one Alexandra, get some sleep.

I turned around, curling more into the bed as I closed my eyes. It only lasted five minutes before I snapped my eyes open, a sigh of frustration escaping my throat as I threw the covers off me, making my way out of the bed and out of my room.

I went to Alexander's room and knocked on the door, walking in when I heard a faint come in. I stepped into his room and closed the door behind me. "Alexa, what are you doing in here?" He rubbed his eyes, looking at me surprised. "I can't sleep." He scooted over and patted the side of his bed for me to climb in. I climbed in and put the covers over me. I could feel my eyes getting heavy each time until I couldn't hold them open anymore, and let the darkness took over me.

I woke up in the middle of the night, sweating and panting heavily. I tossed the covers on the side, getting up from the bed and headed towards the window. I opened the curtains and looked up at the sky. A wolf howled in the distance, making me shiver but not in fear.

It was like it was calling me to go to it.

Like my feet had plans of their own, I was already moving towards the door. It was like the wolf was controlling my every move, like I was in a trance. "Alex, where are you going?" My brother asked sleepily.

"I'm going to grab some water." I mumbled quietly and he nodded, going back to sleep. I opened the door and walked down the stairs as I moved to the front door of the house.

I grabbed the handle and opened the door, walking alone in the woods to meet some wolf I didn't know and could be dangerous for all I know.

I stopped walking when I came into a clearing with a wolf standing in front of me. Looking into the wolf's eyes, I realized immediately who it was. "What the hell Max?" I whisper-yelled at him as I looked around for the wolves guarding our territory. "Do you know what time it is?" I huffed in frustration. "How can I talk to you if you're in wolf form doofus?" I nagged at him.

He growled at me and took a step forward. "Don't growl at me mister, and how did you do that?" Crossing my arms, I looked at him angrily. He ran behind a tree and came out with shorts on. He ran his fingers through his hair, groaning loudly. I shoot him daggers and jogged at him angrily.

It's only 5 o'clock in the morning and he already managed to piss me off. "I couldn't sleep, I had to see you." Groaning again, he grabbed my face and kissed me with so much passion that I widened my eyes in surprise.

He never kissed me like that before, not that the others were bad, but I fell more emotions in this kiss than normal. Kissing him back passionately, I wrapped my arms around his neck. Max's hands roamed everywhere on my body while mine ran up and down his chest as the kiss got very heated.

Max added tongue but I didn't allow it at first, so he gently bit my lip causing me to moan in his mouth, that's when he took the chance to shove in his tongue, mixing it with mine. His tongue explored my whole mouth as I let a soft moan escaped my throat.

I deepened the kiss as I ran my fingers through his hair, pulling it lightly. Closing my eyes tightly, I grabbed the back of his head with my hands, pushing him more into the kiss, his hands made their way down my ass, pulling me up, making me wrap my legs around his waist.

I gripped onto his hair slightly, grinding my body with his, hearing him moan through the kiss. I placed my hands on his body and began to rub his delectable abs. My smile grew as I heard a low moan coming from Max mouth.

I pulled away from the kiss, leaning down and began to kiss his neck. Max pushed us against a nearby tree and kissed me harder than before. Howls echoed through the silent night, making me pull away from Max. "Max, you need to go." I breathed out heavily, trying to catch my breath.

He pulled away from me and leaned his forehead against mine, trying to catch his breath as well. "Alexandra." He touched my cheek, "I really need to talk to you, I..." Howls echoed through the woods; I looked around panicking. If the wolves find Max here this will not end well. "Hear me out." He touched my arms and I sighed, shaking my head.

"Max go! Please go, they will find you. Just go. We'll talk another time." He shook his head, being his stubborn self. "This is not over Alexandra." He pulled me in for a kiss and the howls became louder. I pushed him away and he turned around, shifting into his wolf.

"Alexandra? What are you doing here?" I jumped, turning around to find Anderson standing there with the border patrol, I looked around as I ran a hand through my hair, "Nothing, I just needed some air." I gave my brother a short smile, "Let's go inside." I glanced over my shoulder as I walked with my brother backed towards the house, releasing a deep breath at that.

The moment I reached my bedroom, I closed the door behind me with my back as I rested on it; my body was shaking from almost being caught kissing Max.

I closed my eyes and I couldn't help but think of the very passionate kiss Max and I shared back in the woods. Deep within me there's a voice screaming at me that this is wrong but at the same time, there's a voice giving me a million reasons why this was right.