For days, I searched and searched but I didn't find anything worthwhile, most of them that looked like they'll work out never did. I don't know if the fault was from me but I couldn't give up easily. A month later, results were out. I scored 233 out of 400 in JAMB and I had 5 A's, 3 B's and a C in my WASSCE result. It wasn't all that outstanding but I did beat my siblings, now what was left is to gain admission. I followed all the steps required and did all I was asked but at the end, I didn't get admission. What could have been the reason? My WASSCE result was perfect for the course I wanted to study and my JAMB score was ok, I mean, my best friend in school had 180 and she got admitted in the same school I applied for and the same course. Is it because I was trying to kill 2 birds with one stone by applying for admission here and applying for scholarship abroad? Was it because my parents refused to bribe any of the officials so that I can get admitted? I never knew what happened to this day.
I was devastated. My mom suggested I go learn a trade, probably how to make cakes and pastries and so I did that. I did have a boyfriend then, his name was Victor, but I wasn't really into him and I didn't want to hurt his feelings so I couldn't breakup with him. I never told him how much I wanted to leave the country, I never told anyone.