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Capítulo 28: Grounding and Stabalising

There were many things that Ash was researching and learning just in case of any sudden changes in her lifestyle or if it was needed in the future.

Some were related to ways to better control her emotions and gain a better mastery of her new abilities.

It was better to keep a stable mind during encounters with spirits and to not be controlled by ones emotions.

It was very easy to fall victim to some traps or to be provoked into acting in a way that was dangerous for a Balancer or Breaker by spirits and even by humans.

Watching all kinds of horror movies and other highly emotional films was a way to let her gather more information on a wider variety of things while being able to better control those emotions.

Fear was her strongest emotion that had taken hold of her so watching scary movies had helped her to manage that a little.

Her fears and other negativity that came from her previous experiences could not be treated by a trained professional due to her being unable to expose her identity and other details about her past.

The only way for her to manage what she was dealing with was to watch self help books or to look up more professional knowledge and techniques related to trauma.

What she had found quite useful was that there were several grounding techniques that were available so she had practiced them almost everyday.

Body awareness exercises focussed more on bringing her into the here and now by directing her focus towards the sensations on her body as she performed the steps.

Ash was seated in a chair and took in a breath through her nose over three seconds, held it in for three seconds then exhaled through her puckered lips before resting for three seconds. "Huu."

She repeated that same action five times as she could feel the air entering and exiting her body along with the contracting and expanding of her chest.

Both feet were placed flat on the ground without any shoes being on them and once the first exercise had been completed, her toes wiggled and curled up several times as her focus was on noticing the sensations on her feet.

The next exercise was to stamp her feet on the ground and when they made contact with the ground, she was focussing on the sensations on her legs and feet as they made contact with the ground.

Her hands were clenched into fists and then the tension was released as it repeated ten times.

Both palms then faced each other and were pressed together harder then held like that for fifteen seconds as she paid attention to the tension in her hands and arms.

Her palms were then rubbed together briskly as she noticed the sounds and the feeling of warmth that were made by her action.

Ash reached her hands over her head like she was trying to reach for the sky and stretched out for five seconds.

Her arms were brought down to her sides as she had relaxed and took five more deep breaths.

She was noticing the feeling of calm in her body that had not been there previously. "Ha.."

Grounding techniques usually used sound, touch, smell, taste and sight to connect a person to the here and now.

It often took people away from the bad thoughts they were plagued by or helped them get through a difficult experience they were having.

Those that suffered from trauma usually saw reminders or when they experienced similar situations, they did not handle the situation well and entered a fight or flight mode.

Some completely shut off and had difficulty functioning while others may have gotten violent or ran away in response to such incidents.

A panic attack was a common symptom to be found when most people with deep traumas would be confronted with things that would remind them of those experiences.

Ash did not want to be ruled by her fears and her past weakness and helplessness so she had to seek out some ways of coping.

She was gradually adapting to the techniques and was becoming more familiar with them as she had practiced them almost every day.

Some techniques were more suited to certain environments and situations so that they could still be used at any given time while some required the Ash to find a place to sit down.

Her body had become less tense and more relaxed.

Her breathing had slowed and become very smooth and stable.

Her thoughts had become clearer and less cluttered.

Her emotions had calmed down and soothed.

The previous complicated thoughts and emotions that had plagued her had no longer been on her mind once her attention had been placed elsewhere.

Any kind of soothing, grounding or meditative techniques that could be used and were made available to the public had been tried out by her so that she could understand herself and try to further work on her own issues a little.

Once Ash was finished, she had taken a printout and started to fill it in like any other day since she had escaped the Mental Institution.

A pen was twirled in her hand as she started to circle some parts of the questionnaire that had work and social adjustments on it. 'One to ten.. how affected is my everyday life by my condition? Work? Hmm.. I have no work but I doubt I could handle that kind of environment so just put a six.'

She looked at the next part and looked around the room then saw many left out and unclean plates along with some wrappers and packets laying around her home. 'Home management.. six? Social leisure activities? Nine? Private leisure activities? Four. Family and relationships.. ten.'

Ash went onto the next section. 'I have been thinking of ways to harm myself? Yes. I plan to act on these thoughts? No? I feel safe from harm from others? No.'

She then went on to complete the final parts that asked about her experiences within the past week or weeks to see if she had been bothered by certain things and how often she was. '0 - zero to two days, 1 - three to seven days, 2 - eight to eleven days, 3 - twelve days and above.

Little interest and pleasure in doing things? Two. Feeling depressed or down? Three. Trouble with sleep? Three. Feeling tired and little energy? Three. Poor appetite or overeating? One. Feeling bad about myself? Two. Trouble concentrating? One….'

Ash continued to circle each number until she had looked over them and compared her current one to her previous printout. 'Hmm.. very little improvement but it is better than nothing.'


REFLEXIONES DE LOS CREADORES
dancematdan dancematdan

2 advanced chapters can be found on my Kofi page for Reader tier members! Link is in the synopsis. :)

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Capítulo 29: Leap or Push

There did show to be some improvement as Ash looked over her results from the questionnaires but there were some days that had shown certain patterns once her mood had started to fluctuate more or had been better.

It showed some slight improvement on days that she was busy with other things and had little contact with others due to her being too distracted and not having to face certain uncomfortable situations and triggers.

When it was too noisy or she was in a more crowded place was usually when she had become much more irritable and had a lower mood.

Hiding herself away and keeping herself busy was a way to distract herself from her own issues but it was not the most effective way of dealing with it.

When she was confronted with a problematic encounter later, her bottled up feelings could come back up all at once so it was not healthy to keep doing that.

Ash was gradually learning different techniques but she needed to look more into the triggers and causes for her reactions and behaviours in order to understand herself.

If she had left her home to do something then it was more likely that she could encounter something unpleasant or was more vigilant of her surroundings so she would enter a fight or flight state.

The adrenaline in her body would keep her alert and ready to take action and that would be active for a lot of the time outside.

By the time that she got back home or to somewhere that she considered safe then she would be able to relax a little.

The main problem with that was that by the time she had got back home, she was already greatly mentally and physically exhausted so her mood would be affected further.

A little more time had passed and Ash had started to make some more progress with what she had been learning and practicing.

Repetition was the best way for her to get a better grasp over the different movements and her own abilities.

Her understanding of dark spells and basic spells had been increased while she had been able to cast more than the warding spell that she had used much earlier.

The time that had passed had gradually decreased the time before her vision of the future had started to go into more details about the person connected to it along with the beginning of their journey.

Less time was available for Ash to prepare for the coming days where the world would be thrown into chaos.

The person that was a part of her prophetic vision had already gained experiences of their own while growing up so Ash was still very far behind.

she knew that there was no time to waste but she could find the right direction to take in order to gain experience and increase her own power.

Ash may have harmed others but they were not innocents and they had been those who had harmed her physically or emotionally.

She did not have plans to harm innocents but it was an inevitable outcome that they may die in the future anyways.

The temptation to use them to increase her own power was very high and the increased anxiety towards the future had further increased the amount of times such an idea had popped up in her mind.

There were locations that Ash had noted down for the future since she was aware of some key locations of some spirits but many of them were far too dangerous for the current her.

Some minor locations were considered that had been identified as less dangerous but she had not yet felt that she could handle something that even that person could handle with ease.

That person had the support of others and had experience so no matter how easy it seemed for them to handle certain situations, it would not be the same for her who was alone, weaker and had less experience than them.

There were days where Ash just could not leave the house so it was difficult to find the motivation to go in search of ways to improve herself.

It took courage to be able to jump head first into those types of dangers and the unknown was still very scary for her.

The unknown was unpredictable and was scary to Ash.

The unknown was just another reminder of how many things were out of her control.

The feeling of having no control was just another reminder of her days where she was at the mercy of others.

That pain, helplessness and weakness would all come flooding back which would heighten her fear.

It required a leap of faith or a push to be able to take the first step forward but Ash had not been quite ready yet to do so with full confidence.

Even visiting locations around her that may have been safer during the time when she lacked the sight to see into and interact with the supernatural world, there could have been some hidden threats that she could not predict so it was better to stay in more populated places.

Ash had occasionally looked around the village she was staying in for any abnormalities but there were only tiny spirits that were mostly harmless floating around.

It had shown signs that a lot of dangerous spirits had been dealt with or had been kept out so there had to be some Watchers or Balancers that maintained or watched over the village.

If there were Watchers then they would report issues to request aid from a Balancer unless a Balancer had lived in the village and protected it.

She had looked around for any other signs of people who had noticed the spirits too but she had yet to come across any.


REFLEXIONES DE LOS CREADORES
dancematdan dancematdan

2 advanced chapters can be found on my Kofi page for Reader tier members! Link is in the synopsis. :)

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