AN: webnovel Customer Service still hasn't reached out to me about the cover photo issue. They did ask me if I used Inkstone or the app... I am using the app, I work on my phone, and I'm poor ok? But it sounds like an issue on their end right? Why have that option in the app if others can't use it?
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1926
ROBIN'S POV
It took a little over a year of me processing all my shit before I finally was able to get myself back together, accept, and move on. I still resent whatever higher power that kept torturing me, I still feel hurt when I remember all the things I've been through in both lives, but I've come to accept and move on from it.
No, I didn't have a Bella moment where she was just there and the seasons changed around her. It's not for the lack of trying, I wanted to do it, just mope around and wallow in self-pity, but I still needed to hunt... Kinda robbed me of my moment, to be honest.
I didn't even feel like celebrating my birthday. But I did get gifts from everybody. My favorite was the guitar and violin... Eddie gave me the guitar and said he hoped that we could do a duet with him on the piano, and my parents gave me a violin because it could also be paired up with the piano.
I usually had my family hunt with me, but the Denali's decided to join us occasionally. I guess after they heard my story including THAT, they felt for me.
But what really helped speed things up, was me venting it all out by yelling at the sky and belting out angry songs, I figured out that it would help release all the feelings I had when I remembered about the bird friends I had. It was something alright, I let it all out, the Denali's were amazed at the extent of my gifts, and my parents who already witnessed me singing it out were no different, it was different.
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Flashback
It's not going away, the feelings just keep piling up it's suffocating me. It's hard to even control myself so I don't lash out at the people around me. Just because I'm unwell, doesn't mean I get a free pass to be a bitch to the people around me, especially if said people are just trying to help out of pure love and concern for me.
I remember that I've experienced something similar... Yes, the birds... When they left I was sad, and there was a build-up of emotion and then I sang, and it went away.
Let's do that, I need to do that.
I stood up from my chair and went to my mother who was in the kitchen chatting with Carmen while they were preparing food for me.
That's a lot of veggies, where's the meat? I'm a growing child mom! I internally rolled my eyes.
They sensed me come in and halted their activity for me.
"What is it, sweetie? Are you hungry? We'll be done soon." my mother asked. Oh, my sweet sweet mother, I love you, I do, but why do you insist on a healthy diet? Internally sniffles.
"Do you need to hunt? You just went yesterday... So I don't think that's it, or did something happen?" Carmen asked concerned.
"Did you get injured badly again? Is that why you need blood?" Mom asked with a bit of panic, I think she remembered that when I get injured, I get thirsty, by how thirsty, depends on how injured I was.
Ok, I have to say something before she starts to dry sob because she thinks she let me down again by not stopping me from getting hurt again.
*No Mom, I'm fine, I wasn't hurt. I just need an open space, preferably away from everyone. I need to yell and sing. It's not gonna be safe nor pretty for everyone, so somewhere I can go all out if there are boulders or trees I can destroy too, that would be nice.* I explained to her with my eyes furrowed.
"I know a place, there isn't anything around to destroy, but we can get some and just put it there," Carmen suggested.
Unfortunately, everyone was home, meaning everyone heard them talk, they obviously couldn't hear me, but what the two older women said was enough to pique their interest.
"I know the place that you are thinking" I heard Elazar say from somewhere in the house.
"We'll help gather boulders and other things," Tanya said, clearly sounding curious and expectant.
So they are planning to tag along... Haaah... Have you all thrown out any sense of delicacy when you turned undead? I just released an inaudible sigh.
"Sweetie, I think it would be best for them to come and witness your gift." my dad said when a response wasn't her from the kitchen.
"If you're worried about accidentally compelling or hurt us, don't. We can handle ourselves. Just do what you have to do" Edward followed up.
So I didn't have anything more to say, so I just gave my mom the ok sign, and everything went like a blur and here we are now located in an open area, with a couple of adult-high boulders and some trees.
I looked over to them to relay something very important.
*I'm really sorry about what you're gonna see and feel. I will get hurt, but remember that I will heal fast, so please don't stop me.* I gave them a pleading look and waited for them to agree, mostly directed to my family, I know how overprotective they are of me.
They all agreed, albeit reluctantly.
Getting their confirmation, I turned my back to them I turned on a melody...
-Fuck you by Silent child-
I screamed... I screamed louder than I have ever screamed in both lives...
🎶Am I wasting my breath on you
Feels like my words are never getting through
I've never said I hate you to someone
So much before
I'm light-headed when we're talking
And you shut the door
God damn
Like what are we still talking for yeah🎶
I sped up to one of the boulders and punched it, I kept punching and my fists bled, I heard the bones on my fists break, but I didn't care, I kept screaming and punching.
🎶Oh yeah
Oh oh
Woah
Oh yeah
Oh oh
I really hope you don't see tomorrow
I tried to play nice with you
Cause all you ever do is try to fuck up my day
And you were successful
I know you don't have anything
Better to do
Everything you ever loved
Has tried to escape you
So why would I want
Anything to do with you
Fuck you🎶
My family and the Denali, felt it all, they were crying without tears, and regardless of gender, they all cried. Hearing and seeing all this was torture, but they held on, they knew they needed to witness this.
My dad held my mom in his arms, holding her back from trying to reach me.
They weren't even remotely tempted by her blood, they were all just worried and hurting for the broken girl who was finally letting herself get fixed.
🎶I've had
A bad day
And it's all because of you
I've had
A bad day
And it's all because of you
I'm not
Ok
After what you put me through
Woooh, woooh yeah
Woooh, woooh
You broke me
Fuck you
Yeah, yeah
Fuck you
Woooh, woooh yeah🎶
And then I stopped, my chest kept exaggeratedly going up and down from my breathing, I was livid... I was enraged... I Looked up to the sky...
[AN: And seeeeeeee... I'm just a poor boy... Sorry, I had to do it. Couldn't help it]
I started to calm down, my breathing slowly came back to normal... I kept breathing in and out for a while... And then I opened my lips and started singing a new song to the sky, to whoever kept hurting her.
-Silence by Marshmello-
🎶Yeah, I'd rather be a lover than a fighter (fighter)
'Cause all my life, I've been fighting
Never felt a feeling of comfort, oh
And all this time, I've been hiding
And I never had someone to call my own, oh nah
I'm so used to sharing
Love only left me alone
But I'm at one with the silence🎶
They remembered what I'd been through before joining the Cullen coven. They couldn't even begin to imagine how I even survived, how much I suffered, but I made them, they felt it with every word.
🎶I found peace in your violence
Can't show me, there's no point in trying
I'm at one, and I've been quiet for too long
I found peace in your violence
Can't show me, there's no point in trying
I'm at one, and I've been silent for too long
I've been quiet for too long
I've been quiet for too long
I found peace in your violence
Can't show me, there's no point in trying
I'm at one, and I've been quiet for too long
I'm in need of a savior (savior), but I'm not asking for favors
My whole life, I've felt like a burden
I think too much, and I hate it
I'm so used to being in the wrong, I'm tired of caring
Loving never gave me a home, so I'll sit here in the silence
I found peace in your violence
Can't show me, there's no point in trying🎶
I finished singing, and let out a loud and heavy sigh in relief. I pointed my hands towards the sky and gave 2 middle fingers.
Haaaaah... That felt good. That felt waaay too good. So I guess I'll be doing this a lot, way better than therapy.
So here I am, all bloody from my own self-inflicted injuries, my hair a lot disheveled, with a relieved and happy smile plastered on my face.
I turned around to finally look at them, they looked worried and worn out, well emotionally worn out.
I met eyes with my family, gone were the dull pink eyes devoid of hope and life... Back were the sapphire pink eyes that seemingly sparkled with happiness and playfulness.
I gave them the most beautiful, well I'm tiny so it would be the most adorable smile I could make.
And ladies and gentlemen, arrows, arrows everywhere! Pssssh..swoosh! Straight to their heart, no one spared.
A lot of "so cute", "she's so adorable, how can someone so adorable exist!", "it's a crime to be this cute!", and "I wish she was our daughter", the last one was from Eleazar, and he received threatening glares from my family, which just made him smile sheepishly.
And then I remembered something... Fuck...
I looked down, hands behind my back, right leg digging holes in the snow... And I looked at them with wide upturned eyes, releasing my hand from my back to sign...
*I'm sorry, I have a potty mouth* I looked at them apologetically.
They just froze for a moment to process what she said plus how she acted when apologizing. And then they all just laughed and kept laughing for quite a while.
Flashback end
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Back to present
I did get scolded afterward about the swearing. But I did come clean that I do swear a lot, even before I met them, that it was a sort of coping mechanism for me, and now it just became a way for me to express myself, I say them jokingly or with love. I told them that I'd been censoring myself for them because I didn't want to disappoint them. I really didn't want to keep censoring myself anymore, it felt restricting, so I just wanted to now be able to act and express like my true self.
Suffice to say, since they are a simp for their adorable and most lovely hybrid up to date and for sure in the future(unless I make babies, then maybe, just maaaaaybe, I'll get dethroned) as well... They conceded and told me to at least not do it so much, or try not to do it in front of them. And mom even said...
"Men tend to not like women who cuss, so let's try not to do it as much, as it is unladylike. Tho I'm sure your future mate will love you regardless"
This earned a look of disbelief from my father and brother, unwillingness crossing their face, no doubt already planning the death of this nonexistent MAN... The Denali's just laughed, amused at their reaction... But me? I was wide-eyed in disbelief and horror because I now remembered I had to come out in this life... AGAIN. Dang it!
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AN: wew, coming out again. We're all pretty sure that she'll be accepted, but it's still nerve-wracking for most of us who has or had to go through it.
Update, (got an email as I was finishing this chapter) on the cover photo, Webnovel just sent me an email asking for the original photo. I already sent it to them, hopefully, they fix it or just upload it for me. Idc at this point. They're stressing me out.
AN: I don't think I'm ever gonna be able to put up a cover photo. It just doesn't work, the other authors told me to do it via Inkstone, but I can't sign in there either.
Webnovel did reply, but they just told me to resize it again, and then try to upload it... Again... Then if it still doesn't work, tell them.
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1928
ROBIN'S POV
I'm 13 y'all! Due to me not being able to celebrate my 11th birthday, my family and then Denali's went all out for my 12th, and pretty much the same for my 13th, I think they're just having fun throwing a party for me. They were still amazed seeing me grow up, they even got worried that I'd grow old and die on them, but my father assured them that I should stop aging around my 25th if we go by what's stated on my files from the lab.
Since I'm all functioning again after the debugging and reboot of my hybrid shell of a body, mind, and soul... Mommy dearest has decided that I can start studying again, also Dad and Eddie decided that I needed to learn how to fight, so the Denali's will cover that.
Oh, yeah the Denali's also learned how to sign, so 25% of my plans to mess with them have been thwarted.
I am training my gifts now too! Like for real training, not just me singing in the woods trying stuff, I get to try it on people, both humans and vampires. Eleazar became fascinated with my gifts and insisted that we train them so I could have some semblance of control and not accidentally compel everyone and instead just focus on one... Just like how Kate used to have her electricity just on her hands, bit later on she was able to use it all over her body. I usually use it on passing hikers, when they sense someone coming, Eleazar gets me to try and compel them to do some simple things, we even got to test out if I can make them forget if I compel them to do so, I can. I still can't focus my voice's compulsion on just one person, so I had to ask family to at least be out of hearing distance when I get close to the human ear to whisper it.
It was extreeeeeemely hard, I wanted to bite them so badly when we just started doing this. I almost did, that was also the first time I had to compel someone to forget. Got me a bit down for a while, If my family didn't stop me on time, I would've killed someone again, this time it's an innocent person.
Moving on... Kate, she's the one who volunteered to teach me how to fight, can't say I don't like it, she fights well, and she's pretty hot. Also, although I'm now okay with interacting again with men, I'd still prefer wrestling and being choked by a woman, an older hot woman. (he he he)
[AN: I get it. But, TF!]
I do get free time, I usually try to learn a few other skills around like playing instruments, they were pretty easy for me, perks of literally having the skill to learn faster. I am now proud to say, I know how to play, the piano, violin, and guitar... You should have seen their faces when after a bit of practice, I just started to play PLAYING GOD BY POLYPHIA. I'm planning to learn wind instruments next, should I go for a harmonica first? Hmmm...
I also have to get used to humans again, since the incident, and with me going through my self-imposed self-healing retreat, kinda, if you count me just locking myself up and just going out to scream and sing for a while a retreat, then it's a retreat.
That is why, I... Well, My parents, brother, Kate, and me are, are at the shopping center, I loosely use that term, because it's still just a bunch of shops built close by, malls aren't a thing yet in this period of time.
We've just been walking around, gathering a lot of looks, because why not? We're all good-looking people walking as a group. My family and Kate were positioned in a way that they surrounded me, so they can come to my or the human's rescue when I lose my shit.
And it's annoying, but I get it... I'm actually having a hard time, but not enough for it to show on my face like Jasper did in the movies. You know, I think he was having a harder time than the rest, because he also had to feel the others' thirst, same goes for the paper cut incident, he might've been influenced by everyone's heightened thirst, especially from Edward, Bellas her blood singer. Poor guy.
I can manage easily enough if I'm not directly next to them...
I felt a tap on my shoulder, when I turned around, Kate was smiling mischievously and Edward was sending her a curious and also unwilling(?) look, then looked at me worried.
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Third person POV
*I don't like that look, what is it, Kate? And you brother, what's up with that face?* Robin asked wary of the way they looked at her.
"I just had this great idea, so we can train your resistance you know, I was just thinking of how I help you, and here you are being mean," Kate said while playfully pouting at her.
"I don't think it's a good idea, she's not ready yet," Edward said while glaring at Kate.
'Oh come on! Don't tell me you're not at least curious. Plus, it is also a way to test her resistance ok?' Kate thought, knowing Edward could hear it.
While the two continued to glare at each other, Robin tried to see where her parents were, and she saw them inside a shop that sells crafting materials, Esme's been into DIY stuff lately. It won't be long until she moves to something bigger, like renovating houses like in the movie.
They are still within sensing distance so they weren't worried much, Robin's been doing amazing with her self-control.
"Fine, but we pull her away as soon as we see a sign of discomfort" Edward finally conceded, but had a frown on his face.
"Yes! Of course!" Kate exclaimed, happy that her little plan would come into play.
*Do I not get a say in whatever this is* Robin said a bit ticked off that they're deciding things on their own.
"Don't be like this, it's for your good. Plus, we'll be just right here, close enough to take action ok?" Kate said trying to convince her.
*fine* She said giving an exasperated sigh.
"Great! Now, what we-" Kate tried to say but got interrupted by Edward clearing his throat.
"What I wanted you to do is interact with someone here, in close proximity, anyone, find your type" Kate corrected herself, sending a glare at Edward, then smiled innocently at Robin.
'seems easy enough, I guess...' She gave them a nod and looked around to find a target, then for some reason, the last bit of what Kate said stuck out to her, 'My type, look for my type' She thought, there's a lot to choose from, everyone's seems interested in on them, they felt their looks and heard their whispers... and then she locked on to a young pretty blonde girl who seemed like she's around the same age as her in a flower shop, tending to the flowers, 'I bet she's the daughter of the owner...' she thought while walking towards her.
The young blonde noticed her coming, she was already aware of their presence, but it was hard not to, they just all looked beautiful and handsome, one, in particular, caught her eyes, and she couldn't help but steal glances at her, she was just too beautiful, surreal... She saw that she made gestures with her hands when communicating with the people who came with her, so she caught on to the fact that she couldn't talk.
Her heart was pounding, she tried to not gawk at her and tried to look normal while tending to the flowers. And then she felt a presence behind her. 'Oh my lord, she's even more perfect up close, how is this even possible?!' she thought, in a daze from being in close distance from the same person she was just admiring from afar.
Robin smirked, amused at her reactions, the girl's heart was beating so fast that she was almost worried that she'd have a heart attack. She waved a hand at the dazed girl's face to wake her up.
It was effective, the girl did wake up but was now beet red from embarrassment, she panicked and covered her face immediately, subconsciously moving backward, getting her feet caught on a pot and she was about to fall but someone caught her in time.
They were now in an awkward position, Robin having pulled her over to herself to save her from falling had the girl in her arms, but the girl wasn't complaining, she was just staring up at her, as Robin was a bit taller, she saw her eyes closely, they were pink, the most beautiful shade of pink that she's seen, they seemed to sparkle like jewels, she was mesmerized.
Robin, having the girl literally within her embrace was internally panicking, 'She smells so good, Fuck! She smells different, her scent is making me crazy! Just my luck, is she my blood singer?!' all this thought, but outside she was just smiling at the girl. 'well, at least she's cute?'
[AN: guys, I know it's so coincidental and kinda out of nowhere, but this needs to happen, trust the process... trust me 🛐 🥺]
She stopped herself from breathing and calmed herself down. 'I can do this, let's not pull a canon Edward move and make the girl think that she stinks'
She let go of the girl, holding her shoulders, she looked over the girl up and down, then at her feet. Deliberately showing that she was checking if she was ok.
The girl out of Robin's embrace, woke up from her daze, felt more embarrassed but was able to hold herself in place afraid that she might make the same mistake.
"Thank you... I'm fine... Uuh.. How can I help you?" the girl managed to ask albeit in a small voice.
Robin was still having a hard time controlling herself, but it helped that she stopped inhaling her scent, and the girl looked so cute all embarrassed right now, 'she's so red up to her ears, I can almost see a smoke coming from her head' she thought while giving the girl an amused smirk.
Robin broke from her staring contest with the girl, leaned her head a bit to the right, looked at the flowers behind the girl, then nodded up to point at the red roses.
The girl got her signal and moved to pick up the point at the roses, relieved that she was able to stop embarrassing herself. "You want roses? How many do you want?"
Robin held up her hands and pointed them to the pot, indicating that she wanted all of them.
"All of them? Are you sure? There's a couple of dozen here..." The girl doubted if she made a mistake in understanding her gesture. She just received a nod, confirming that she wasn't wrong.
"Ooook... I'll wrap it up for you real quick, I'll make it into a nicer bouquet, usually we charge for that, but as thanks for you saving me earlier, that part is free," she said then quickly moved to wrap up the flowers. She was still nervous feeling her gaze on her.
The girl finished preparing the bouquet and quickly went to hand it to the taller girl.
"Thank you for your patronage, please stop by again," the girl said, the last line sounding hopeful.
Robin smiled at her, took one of the roses, handed it to her, and then turned around to leave. The girl just dazedly took it and watched her walk away.
Unbeknownst to Robin, as soon as she left towards the girl, her parents came back to join Kate and Edward, they all witnessed the scenario, they did notice that she stopped breathing, and Edward was about to pull her out, but Esme stopped him, telling him that she seemed like she can handle it... And she did, she handled it well.
They were all amused watching their darling little girl flirt with the human, a suspicion crossed their mind. The couple exchanged glances and smiled.
Kate in particular was smiling from ear to ear, to her, this was almost a confirmation. She was so glad she did this little experiment.
Edward felt complicated, not because of the possibility of it, but because he felt his baby sister was growing up too fast. Soon she'll have a lover, and won't be around them as much... and he didn't like it.
[AN: Siscon🤣]
Robin got back to them with a frown.
*Let's go home, please. Right now. I need to be away from here NOW* she said with a pleading look.
Seeing her act like this, Their expressions all turn into worry and immediately take the girl home.
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AN: last chap of the day.
Just curious, have any of you used the Talkie app? It's where you can talk to AI and stuff. I asked because I tried, and that shit was freaky... It was like I was talking to a real person. 😱
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