Slowly...
Just slowly I opened my eyes. I was in a white room. Maybe I'm in heaven. Dying feels just like living, I must say.
I could've died sooner.
Suddenly I felt weight on my right hand. Do you feel things when you're dead? Why does my body hurt? What kinda scam death is this? The weight felt a little too much so I tried to move my hand. "Seoyul?" I heard Yeol's voice. Was he dead?
"You dead too? C'mon the both of us shouldn't be dead! I died so you should be alive and living for both of-"
Yeol connected our lips....
He kissed me?! People, I repeat, he kissed me!
The kiss felt so real and good. At first I didn't kiss him back to avoid unnecessary confusion but I couldn't hold myself so I gave in to the kiss. It was slow and full of emotions; feelings we couldn't talk about. In about a minute we pulled away to catch our breaths, that's when I realized that I was sorta still alive. Like God was ever gonna let us have a passionate kiss in heaven.
I decided to play clueless "why did you kiss me?" I pushed him away and crossed my arms. " Why'd you kiss me back?" What a way to answer. Classic Hanyeol.
I don't know who saved me but thanks to that person. Yeol refused to tell me but he told me about my abductor, Kim Johan. He's currently in jail and that's thanks to my phone that I forgot to stop recording when I used it to threaten Yeol.
I wasn't so injured so I was told I could go home today plus I hate hospital smells. "Don't tell me the room is messy" I snapped turning to Yeol as we got out of the car. Don't judge me! It's not healthy for me to stay in a messy room. "I asked you a question!" Yeol still didn't reply, he just went to help mom get stuff from the car's trunk.
Mom looked at me and smiled shaking her head. "Was Hanyeol ever messy?" I nodded at mom's question "Messy personality. He's scary when annoyed"
"Aunt Miran.... Please help me beg Yul to forgive me for my previous attitude towards him" Yeol said dramatically putting his hands on his chest and forehead. "I'm not forgiving you... Not in a billion lifetimes. Now mom, you're sure he didn't destroy the room?" Mom sighed as we entered the house. She was definitely done with me and I know that very well but I won't stop.
"I can assure you that your two days away from home didn't cause a human avalanche" Mom stated sassily.
"That's great.... where's Aunt Sujin?" I looked around but didn't see her. "I'm right here my cutie pie" She came out of the kitchen and pinched my cheeks. " I'm preparing your favorite dish so you should get some rest and I'll call you you when it's ready"
I smiled and nodded "Alright! Thanks Auntie!"
"I'll go with him.." Yeol picked up my bag pack and started guiding me up the stairs. We were halfway up when mom called to us and we came to a halt. "Wait a minute, boys"
"Yes mom?"
"Your room is ready Yul. You can move in if you want" I always wanted it but now I'm not so sure. C'mon! It's either stay with my crush or in an empty room. "I'm not moving anytime soon"
Mom didn't look surprised rather she smiled and winked at Yeol? "See you guys later"
What?
What the actual fuck? What's going on with mom and Yeol? Were they planning to assassinate me? Or send me to Italy? Would I belong to a very rich mafia and he would treat me like a baby boy getting me everything I wanted then becoming a target of other mafia organisations and finally die after getting shot? No! I can't die just like in a novel.
"Chill we're not planning on selling you to a mafia boss" Mind reader pro max. Yeol rolled his eyes letting his body collapse on the bed. "Then what was the wink all about? Is mom shipping us?"
"Maybe" Yeol just answered nonchalantly. Why is he okay with that? I'm the one who's gay! I'm the one who has a crush but is trying to kill it! "And you're okay with that? My mother is shipping both her sons..." Hanyeol widened his eyes at my words. "Oh c'mon between you and I, she has a very special place for you in her heart"
Not that there's a problem with him being okay but; who am I kidding? It'll be impossible for me to get over him if he shows any green light. "You know that you're cute when angry" That's it! I'm done.
That's all it took to activate the butterflies and make me a blushing mess. No! Lee Hanyeol is your brother! You dummy, Seoyul! "Stop flirting with me, please"
"I don't wanna..." Yeol said pulling me to fall on him. "ouch... my body still hurts"
"Sorry, baby" He said playing with my hair. "Are you doing this because you thought I was gonna die? Or you're taking the challenge to the max?" I asked looking at Yeol.
"Hmm none of the above. I like you..." I must be hearing things. "Haha... I'm sorry I think my ears are faulty because I heard you say that you like me"
"I do like you...so much that I can do anything for you."
"You do realize that you're confessing to your brother. My mom and your dad are gonna get married. We're gonna be family. Your dad is homophobic and he'd hate you. Your relationship will become worse than before and he might kick you out. Your friends may not accept you, the society will throw-
I was talking nonstop until Yeol closed the distance between our faces. It wasn't a makeout session but it was worth it. "Stop worrying about me."
"How could I not? I can't help it. I... I... I.."
"You what?" Was I going to confess? Get your head in the game! "I don't like you the way you like me. No I hate you"
As much as I wished that my words sounded tough, I sound pathetic. "Alright... Since you don't like me, I would woo you into taking a liking to me"
"Before that, update your vocabulary" I hissed getting up. "... I'm going downstairs. One more thing, I know you are crazy but don't bring up this topic on the dining"
I know him and how he is. Typical Yeol would try and coax me into saying something about liking him in front of my mom and Aunt Sujin. "Getting scared are we? I have thought of many new ways to have you head over heels for me" Said Yeol mimicking the Aussie accent. "...and mate, we aren't brothers yet. Sure, your mom is an actual mom to me but..... I'd prefer her as my mother-in-law" He smirked and ruffled my hair.
Oh he's sweet but a psycho. He is literally crazy beyond repair. I didn't agree to date him yet and here he is planning our future which is cute. No! Heck no! Not cute but bad! "I should put up the 'crazy guy' tag on you. I'm moving to my room by the way"
"Moving? Why?"
"This room reeks of crazy and I don't like it" I stuck my tongue out and left the room. In a flash I ran to the kitchen. There I met aunt Sujin who gave me a skeptical look while mom gave me a quick glance from the other end of the room before looking away. "Why are you downstairs?"
"I want to help you and mom" I gave a nervous smile while Aunt rolled her eyes at me. "Miran! Yul and Yeol are at it again"
"Aunt..." I whined. "... I'm going to my room. I'm clearly not needed here." I left there going straight to the rooftop of the house.
I needed to think.
My current family was literally the best and I really don't want anything to stop it. Dad's in prison and I personally feel like it wouldn't hold him. Why am I still feeling scared? Would I ever get to overcome the trauma of him? His disgusting acts, his stupid cock inside of me.
I hate this feeling!
I didn't realize tears were welling up in my eyes until Yeol came and hugged me from the back causing me to flinch and making my tears to drop.
"I'm sorry" Yeol immediately let me go. He gave me a distance and came to face me. "I didn't mean to startle you."
I detest the fact that I was feeling this way. I wanted Yeol to hold me without me getting scared. I took a deep breath and smiled at Yeol. "No, I should be sorry. I'll definitely get over it"
"I'll be here waiting" He smiled and ruffled my hair.
Something felt different.
As soon as Yeol's hands came in contact with my hair, I felt peace. I felt safe, like nothing could actually make me feel bad about myself anymore. "Hey..." I called out.
Yeol hummed in response. "Can you promise not to think about what happened that day?"
Chillax.
I know my question is quite unseemly but I know my dad and he wouldn't forgive plus I suspect he's into shady business.
"So?.." I looked at Yeol who looked so conflicted.
"Alright, I won't but you have to promise me one thing"
"And what would that be?"
Hi I'm sorry for not updating. I had exams