We are wandering along the river bank, the moon shining brightly along with a thousand sparkling stars. A beautiful sight.
Two stars shine more brightly than the rest.
I take a seat on the grass with my fiancées, and stare up at the sky.
"Hi momma.. Hi pappee. I miss you so much. I wish you were here so I could tell you my news. I'm engaged! I've got two baby boys on the way.. And I'm happy!
I'm sorry I wasn't happy when I was younger; it wasn't your fault. It was mine. I didn't let myself get close to you.
When Uncle Dunc died in that car crash, I couldn't let myself bond with anybody. You know how much I loved him.. How close we were. It shocked me. I was scared I'd lose you too. And I did! You both died! You left me.
It hurt more than anything I ever went through.. But I forced myself to keep going. I kept my wall up when I should've let myself mourn.
I'm sorry I didn't mourn.
I'm sorry I didn't cry.