Capítulo 148: Chapter 145
" I don't even know what to say, I'm really sorry. "
Reign simply shrugged, and I scrolled up the uncountable number of texts warning him off me. I looked at the number that had sent them, and even though it wasn't Austin's, I very well knew he was behind it all. And I couldn't wait to see him again so I could try and drill some sense into his skull. Even though I was sure there was no point in doing so. I felt extremely embarrassed, I was constantly defending him to Reign yet he was busy just contradicting everything I said about him.
" There's more, he's left quite a number of dms on all my social media platforms. All of them!"
Reign took back his phone, then he told me that he had even tried to block Austin but he just kept creating new accounts and bothering him. I tilted my head to the side, even for Austin, that sounded a little too extreme. Not that he wasn't capable,but I doubted Reign threatened him to that extent. " " Does he know you're here?"
" He brought me here himself. "
" Really? That's shocking. Guess I should be ready to deal with more threats. "
The term threats was appropriate considering what some of those texts had said. Some of them had glued themselves to my mind, the most upsetting of them all. For instance, there was one that said "If you meet up with him again you'll regret it!"
That was just crazy on all the levels,and if Austin dared to pass it off as no big deal I was legitimately going to get mad. I had thought he was finally starting to act right and he went ahead and pulled something like this. And what was worse was that I knew I had signed up for all of it when I officially started to date him. Even after the ultimatums I gave him after we got back together he clearly wasn't going to change.
" You two have been close for a long time, has he always been like this? It must be hard for you to even make friends. "
I immediately thought of Adrian from back when we had been young and Austin's warning that I never hang out with him again, then there was the whole situation with Kira and Max. I was honestly going to defend him but the truth prevented me from doing so. And my silence was an answer in itself.
" This isn't okay Kyle. You know what such relationships are called? Controlling! You're a victim. "
" I told you it's not like that. You just don't know him like I do. "
" I don't need to know him to realize that he's controlling. You're a smart kid Kyle, this isn't right and you know it. "
" I know he might come off as too strong and overbearing but I swear he loves me, he just gets a little too obsessed sometimes. "
" Love isn't always a good thing. And you're way too young to be caught up in something like this, way too young. "
When he talked like that, he really did feel like an elder brother, but one who was set on getting his opinions across despite how I would feel about them. His honesty was appreciated, but I couldn't help that my mind automatically went to Austin's side. He was the one in the wrong but it felt like my duty to defend him.
" But it's upto you, I know it's tough but you have to think about your wellbeing. Because this..." he waved his phone around, indicating the texts, " This is nowhere near acceptable. "
I shrunk back on my seat, suspecting that that's how one felt when they were summoned to the principle's office. And the manner in which Reign spoke made it clear that he wasn't speculating but rather stating facts which he knew were true.
" It wasn't my intention to deflate your spirit, cheer up! I intended for his meetup to be fun, "
I forced a smile, but my mind was just a mess. I hated that almost everyone I was close with kept telling me to rethink being with Austin. That would never happen! There would be no second guessing my decision. I knew how it felt like to be without him and that was just something I wasn't ready to endure ever again.
" I have a demo for my new song, not even my band members have heard it yet, do you wanna hear it?"
He was good at cheering me up,I nodded and he sought out the demo he was referring to on his phone, then he took out his airpods and offered me one after connecting them, putting the other one on. Music was a good distraction, especially when the music in question was his. There was just something unique about his voice, every time I heard it I always wondered how it was possible for someone to produce a sound that good. It had a catchy tune to it that always left you craving more. And from what I picked up, the song we were listening to was about unconfessed love. One of the lyrics that stood out the most to me went something like, " I'm in the limelight, surrounded by shadows, wishing I could reach you but afraid I'll stumble. "
He was judging my reaction so hard I had to look away, then I smiled because I was literally the first one to listen to it. That meant a lot. During one of our recent chats, he had asked me whether I had ever wished I was straight. The first time I had been asked such a question. And my answer had been an instant no. I realized that I had never even known what it felt like to be straight, to wish that a girl would notice me or to want to get closer to one in a manner besides friendship.
It just felt unnatural in my case. I always heard straight people saying that they would never be attracted to someone of the same gender because it was just weird and wrong....well, in the same way, it felt weird and wrong for me to think about being with a girl.
It felt weird and wrong for me to think about anyone that wasn't Austin. Ever since I was ten years old I had known that I wasn't really like the other kids, that there was something about me that wasn't as it should be.
And that realization was only confirmed when we moved away and I secretly cried in my bed for two weeks straight because of how much I missed that stupid jerk.
And I had told Reign that he shouldn't think of himself as flawed. He wasn't imperfect simply because he didn't like what most people liked. And there was nothing wrong with him. And by helping him I was also helping myself, I needed to remind myself of those facts sometimes as well because the world we lived in was often times cruel.
" This is gold, " I truthfully told Reign after the demo came to an end. It was obvious that it was incomplete and there was still some work to be done, but whatever I had listened to was better than good.
" I hope you're not just being nice coz we're friends. "
" I'd never lie to you, especially about something like this. I swear once it's out it will become a part of my playlists 'most recent ' songs. "
" I'm glad you like it. It's actually going to be my debut song as a solo artist. "
My eyes widened and I went speechless, staring at him and wondering whether what I'd just heard was real. And not knowing how to react because I wasn't ready for such news yet. I loved BluePrint, all of them. The whole band. And he seemed to read my mind because he quickly explained things.
" Don't worry, the band isn't splitting up. I've just wanted to try and do something different on my own, and all the other guys are getting busier as well. Nathan's planning on proposing to his girlfriend... which is confidential information that I just relayed to a member of the public..."
I gasped, wanting a lot more details. I hadn't even known that Nathan was dating. He was the most reserved member out of them all so the news was really shocking. Reign made me promise not to tell anyone, and he was willing to tell me anything I wanted to know. Of course my first question had been who the girl was, I had assumed it would be someone famous but it turned out to just be his highschool love who he was still dating. I was happy for them, and I felt even more proud since I officially new something that even the internet didn't.
" What's the song's name?"
" Don't have one yet, I'm sure I'll have thought of something by the time I'm almost done . "
I nodded and he blew out a breath, then he asked me whether I wanted to eat something since the place had great pastries, and before I could even respond, he called over a waitress and ordered.
" If I flop this debut then I can forget all about my solo career, that's why I want to make it perfect before I let anyone else listen to it. " he confessed.
" Well, I have no official musical experience but I know a good song when I hear one. And that one's definitely one of the best ones I've heard. "
" That means everything to me. And if my inspiration says it's good then it has to be. "
The waitress came back and I was grateful. She was helping me to avoid a very uncomfortable situation, because him calling me his inspiration was the same as him saying that the song was possibly about me. I had guessed as much while listening to it, but I was a expert at playing dumb when it came to him. There was really no point and I wasn't ready to lose his great friendship. I changed the subject afterwards and started to tell him about my upcoming exams. And later on he helped me brainstorm on probable topics for a future physics project. He had the best ideas. A talented and smart person who also happened to be sweet. Not a common combination to come by.
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