Capítulo 187: Chapter 186 Don't Love Me 2
I stared out the glass with swollen red eyes. I couldn't even see the view of the night sky clearly cause of the tears still threatening to fall from my eyes. I was heartbroken, my heart was shattered in thousand pieces as the fourth wave of tears rushed down to my cheeks and I didn't hold it in.
I let them out thinking it would at least calm my broken heart, but no matter how hard I cried, I felt the same. Even with the air conditioning in the jet, it still felt so suffocating.
Everything Alex said was still fresh in my head even if it was few hours ago.
You might be wondering how I got to the jet all alone, crying even more than an annoying child. How did things turn from good to worst.
For sure he might get a divorce now. I regretted confessing to him, I wouldn't have if I knew it'll get to this. If I knew our honeymoon would be cut short cause Hazel said she liked Alex. My heart felt heavy at the thought of this. What will happen to mum if we eventually get divorced? I can manage if it's just me but mum's condition was still very poor.
Aunt Amelia might never support us, not after my rudeness at our last meeting. I couldn't stop sobbing, no matter how hard I tried to calm myself.
No one told me, heartbreak was really so unbearable. He said it's because it's me, he said he can never have anything to do with me. He yelled at me like he was about to devour me, he... He was cold. He was cold towards me.
"For fucks sake what the fuck is wrong with you woman? Alex said in a cold tone. He sat up as if realizing himself and he took in deep breaths, "You can't Love me Hazel, thought we already agreed on that?"
"That was before all this I......!" "I love someone else, you should know that already!" There was a hint of anger in his voice as he spoke. Why? Just why was he angry? If he loved someone else why did he do all those things to me? Why did we get married? Why the grand wedding ceremony? No one was restricting him from getting married to her.
I was played. That was when reality hit me, he wanted a piece of me and he had it. I tried to push my tears back in feeling so stupid right now. I let him use me for his amusement, I let my heart get used to him. I couldn't explain how stupid I felt at that point in time.
The thought of him loving someone else, broke me, the feeling was unexplainable. I just couldn't explain what my heart was doing to me.
It felt more painful than when I thought I lost my mum,
"I... Is it Berverly!" I found myself asking even if I knew the answer to that question. I warned my stupid heart but it wouldn't listen, it never listens to me.
"Yes I love her!" He said coldly. His words were like a pitch fork ripping my heart out off my body. Like a thousand daggers piercing into my heart all at ones. The pain was unbearable.
I nodded at his words and parted my lips to speak but before I could, "Park your bags we're leaving!"
"What? Now? why are we leaving?" "Cause you fell inlove with me, that's why!" He said sternly, in a way he's never spoken to me before, no matter how angry he was. Why was he suddenly upset? Was it that bad? Was I that bad to him?
"You should know all this is a game we're literally just having fun. You enjoyed it as much as I did!" He said firmly.
"Don't think I treated you specially, you're no different from the rest I've fu**ed Hazel!
I tried to stay as calm as possible even if my mouth was hanging open, so as not to cry before him. His harsh words were really taunting me. "You had a single thing to do. Don't love me. I don't need your stupid Love!" "What the hell were you thinking? That I'd love you back?
It was my fault, I shouldn't have been decieved by his fake kindness. All those acts were just to have a taste of me. "There's no point raising your voice at me, it's not a bad thing to love someone. It's my heart I can do whatever I wa....!" "It becomes a bad thing when it's you. Can't you see?" Two drops of tears fell down my cheeks, I could not believe this.
The tears I tried holding in, were pouring out uncontrollably, I didn't meet his gaze anymore. I bent my head taking in deep silent breaths to calm down as I used the back of my hands to wipe my tears
"I'll go pack my bags now!" My voice trembled, even I noticed it. My steps were quick as I let everything out in the closet, sobbing lightly. I tapped my chest many times to calm the aching heart, holding my lips with my palms so my sobs would not be heard by him.
I left the Villa with Alex still in there as he asked his guards to send me to the airport so I could go home. He made it clear to me that he still loved his ex, right after we had sex.
Now I recalled everything that happened earlier, the pain got even more unbearable. This was not how I imagined our honeymoon would end. I was excited earlier that he loved the villa I picked, now I didn't even get to explore the place.
Maybe if I avoid him, then I wouldn't get hurt anymore. This was no way to reject someone, he could just say he doesn't like me, instead of throwing insults at me for loving him.
I arrived back in NYC the next day by noon and got into the convoy already waiting for me. We arrived back at home and got into the mansion only to be astonished by who was sitted on the couch with Alex.
How did he even get back home quickly. If she's here then I guess we're getting a divorce now.
He warned before but my stupid heart didn't let me think things through.
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