Capítulo 13: Permission

That evening, Ara walked to her father's room at Anne's request. Her father would only be home for a week before going back to Zari, and this time would likely be the same. Her heart was filled with longing for her father, whom she didn't see often, but this was the first time she had privately visited him since coming back in time. She found it difficult to talk to him, even now. She felt like she couldn't express her feelings honestly. If only she could be a little charming like her sister, or if she could live up to her father's expectations like her brother.

She clenched and unclenched her hands nervously before raising her hand to knock softly.

Richard's gruff voice came from inside. "Come in." At his permission, Ara carefully opened the door and stepped inside. Richard was sitting at a large desk, with a tall stack of papers to one side. She could see how busy he was. He probably had more work to catch up on after being away for so long.

He glanced up at Ara, who was standing there silently. He then opened his mouth to speak first. "Why are you here?"

She tried to think of how to start with her words but couldn't even find a greeting for her father. She had taken care of her family since she was little and grew up clever and quick-witted, but Richard acted rather bluntly toward her. She often felt mistreated by her father's behavior, but somehow she ended up as his mirror image.

She slowly opened her mouth and said softly, "I'm sorry if I disturbed your work, but I came here to ask your permission. I received an invitation this morning from the Morrison household to attend their wedding anniversary banquet. I want to take Anne with me."

"Take Anne with you? You know your sister dislikes places like that. Why not go by yourself?"

As a prestigious family, the Boxtons valued power most. They tended to think little of society gossip, and to him, Ara's life was merely a child's play. Of course, Ara understood that way of thinking, having grown up in the Boxton family, but she did not approve of neglecting this aspect of society. They should never take gossip lightly. Ara understood the value of it better, having already lived through a lifetime once.

"Anne requested to go with me. You know you can't stop her from going out forever like this. I won't let anything happen to her. You can leave her in my care if that's what you're worried about."

"Have you forgotten what happened the last time you took her to that masquerade ball?"

She couldn't fully remember what had happened at that ball, but she needed to convince her father to let her sister come with her. "No, Father, but this one is different. She wants to attend it. You can't raise her like a bird in a cage because of some silly misfortune that happened years ago. Nothing will happen. We'll be very careful this time."

Ara knew what her sister wanted. She wasn't doing this as a favor to Anne because she gave her a dress, but because it was what her sister really wanted. Even though she couldn't fully remember what had happened at that masquerade ball her father mentioned, she still wanted Anne to come with her.

Richard stared silently at Ara as he ruminated over her words, then spoke to her with an inscrutable expression on his face. "Ara, since when have you started talking back to me? Are you trying to challenge me?"

Ara felt ashamed by her father's scolding. She couldn't remember what she was like to her father in the past. Did she talk like this to him back then?

"I—" Ara tried to explain with trembling eyes, but Richard snapped at her.

"Enough! If you want to go so badly, then you can go with her. But if anything happens, you'll be held responsible for it. Understood?"

"Yes, Father."

"And this will be the last time you attend any such events. As a woman, you should learn to stay at home as much as possible and keep an eye on the house until you get married."

"Yes, Father."

Richard didn't stop there and continued to speak. "I wasn't going to tell you this now, but you have a marriage proposal from House Crawford."

The words flashed like lightning in her head. Since she was born into nobility, it was expected of her to marry someone chosen by her parents, but she hadn't heard of this in her previous life. Ara questioned him in a shaky voice. "A marriage proposal for me?"

"Yes, you are old enough to get married. I'm going to decide your marriage before it's too late. You're getting older, not younger, and besides, you've passed the normal age for marriage. So you should be lucky enough to get a proposal from House Crawford."

She didn't know how other noblemen's daughters reacted after being told that their parents had decided who they would marry. But weren't there two reactions? You wonder who your match is, or you cry and scream that you do not want to get married?

Ara also wondered about the family name Crawford. However, she did not feel excitement, anxiety, or grief like other ordinary noble daughters. She had already decided to marry the Crown Prince for her family's sake anyway. She just wished her father would talk to her warmly.

"I don't have any objections to this proposal, but I still want to marry someone more powerful, with a position that would be beneficial to our family," she stated firmly.

"Really?" Richard's normally stern face flickered with surprise. He had thought she would be in tears at the thought of leaving the house. He didn't expect her to give such a rational answer, but the surprise did not end there.

"And if possible, I want him to come from a family with a higher status than ours, and if he's a merchant, I want him to be one of the richest men in the kingdom. If not, then I want him high enough that he can have private conversations with the king."

"Is that the type of man you wish to marry?"

She wished her future husband would be handsome, caring, and gentle.

"Yes, I don't care about appearance, age, or personality. I don't care if he's old or fat, as long as he has power in the land of Findara. I am willing to marry him."

"I see."

Ara breathed a small sigh of relief at her father's reply. Her ideal man was someone who was handsome and had a good personality. But she knew that was an impossible wish. Love is not on her goals list in this lifetime. It would be difficult if her father chose just any man for her. At least she firmly gave her opinion, and it was better than revealing her whole story. She would meet with the Crown Prince in a few days, but if that marriage failed with Hamon, then she would have to meet another man her father chose for her.

She slowly turned to leave the room, when she heard her father speak again. "No matter what happens, bring your sister home safely, and don't stay long."

She paused but then stepped forward as if she didn't hear his words, and said softly while closing the door without looking back at him, "Have a good night's sleep, Father."

As she closed the door behind her, Richard stared at the closed door with a blank expression. "I'm only doing this for your sake, my child," he mumbled to himself, his voice tinged with a sadness he rarely showed.