Capítulo 19: Atleast You Would Be Safe
Min Yue was very familiar with Li Ruyan's personality and it was to the point that he was able to perfectly coexist with her despite their varying views in life.
He was also very accommodating.
He learned to like the things she likes simply because it was her that liked them.
Even if he disliked or hated the item or the food, as long as Li Ruyan likes it, he would also like it. He was never good at being humble or bowing down. Never did he placed in an effort to please other people but when it came to her, those kinds of principles would vanish into thin air.
When it came to her, he has no bottom line...sort of.
That was how special Li Ruyan was to him.
Min Yue also knows how special he was to her.
They have been together for half a decade already. Spending those years together allowed them to understand the other party's personality, their likes, dislikes, and the things that made them angry.
Of course, this also allowed them to find out what kind of character the other party possesses.
In the past five years, Min Yue was able to conclude that Li Ruyan was a strong independent woman. She loved her freedom more than anything else and the small things, the simplest of things, made her smile or laugh.
A rainbow in the sky.
A child's cute laughter.
Being able to arrive on time for an appointment.
Eating a hot bowl of spicy noodles.
Baking.
Hugging.
Spending time together.
Watching the sunset.
He could list a lot thousand different things that could make Li Ruyan smile and all those things could be done by any normal person. They did not need to spend too much money nor did they have to be rich. They could be a normal passerby and they would be able to do all that.
For other people, doing those things were normal, an everyday life occurrence you could say.
And yet, those occurrences were able to make Li Ruyan happy.
Even Min Yue thought that those kinds of activities were mundane or boring. He, like any other people, did not understand why someone would be happy over such simple things.
But as time passed by and he gradually spent time with her, he soon realized that he was wrong and that he had lived his life the wrong way.
When he met her, things were never the same for him. She was the light in the dark. The flower among the weeds. His water in the desert. She was his only salvation and the only person that could make his heart beat faster than normal.
When he was at weakest, it was Li Ruyan who came and saved the day.
She was like an angel from heaven, that descended to earth, extending a dainty white hand, a beautiful hand, towards him. And he accepted it, losing himself in the warmth of her palms and the hope that she brought along with her heavenly appearance.
Since then, he thought, 'Li Ruyan is dependable and strong.'
Subconsciously, he also thought that she would be able to make it through all of this and that she would not easily give up just because of one misunderstanding. It was a huge misunderstanding, he was aware, but he believed that she would be able to stand it.
For him.
For them.
For their future.
Min Yue exhaled.
As he looked at Li Ruyan right now, his confidence over their matters faltered. Seeing her tired and betrayed face, he also understood and realized that she was still human no matter how strong she was and no matter how much she loved him...
In the end, she was capable of feeling hurt and sadness and that the person she was right now, was capable of letting him go if it meant that they would be happy without each other. This was the kind of thing that was most likely going inside her mind right now.
Min Yue's heart sank.
He did not want her to give up on him, on them. He realized that he was being selfish. He was aware and he had sinned for lying and deceiving her. However, he truthfully, really did care for her and the past five years they were together weren't lies.
To him who has lost a lot of important people in his life, he was wary of abandonment and attachment. What was the point of being close to other people when there was a possibility that they would leave him?
It was better to be alone, he thought. That way, he wouldn't have to feel the pain of being left alone or hurt by people.
Despite thinking this, he was never able to fully live his life this way.
Because there was an existence called Li Ruyan.
To protect that existence, he needed to lie.
He did not want to, of course. But what else was he supposed to do? This was the only way he could get close to Yang Liu and to allow that man to let his guard down.
Only in this way would he be able to be with Li Ruyan without anyone's interference and only in this way would he be able to come clean and tell her of the real truth behind his mother and sister's deaths.
Min Yue was aware that he was being selfish but he would gladly be selfish if it meant that Li Ruyan wouldn't be involved.
With her personality, she would no doubt try to help and would even take risks for him. He could not allow that to happen. It was fine if it was him who got hurt but it would kill him to know that she got in danger because of him.
'It would be better for you to remain ignorant. Atleast, you would be safe.' He thought.
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