Capítulo 44: MISFORTUES OF LIFE 2!
{ In the hospital, where Song Jun is admitted after he attempts to harm himself. Dr Cao is trying to explain the situation of Song Jun to Tang Xian.}
"Tang Xian, it all started when you left him alone at that time! At that time his age, his understanding capabilities, apprehension of the situation was immature.
The understanding of life at this age is exactly like we are in the movie. If the kids get really good upbringing or they are pampered one, they live in the life of fairytale. For them, life is always like sweet dreams but the nightmare Song Jun saw at that age broke him from inside.
The change in your behaviour towards him, made him go into the shell be for him nothing else mattered, no person, no situation, not even good. For him, you were his everything. He loved you since he was a small Tang Xian. It is just that for ten years old Jun, his Xian was his Xian ge, his gege nothing else. No charm or any physical attraction but when he saw that girl kissing you all his emotions erupted at the thought of losing you physically. It is really hard to understand. At a small age when kids have something precious and close to them, a mere thought of sharing them get them angry and here he saw that you were getting robbed from his. He got frightened at the thought of forfeiting you.
And then the betrayal from his father, who was his hero, made him close all the doors of his heart and not to trust a single person other than his mother. It blocked all the good emotions to make a place in his mind.
His mother's love was only his solace, he got at that time! His love, longing for you kept him breaking from inside. Whenever he saw people around him getting loved by persons of their dreams, he felt insecure. His thinking started to falter. He saw people like him who were in love with another man and getting it back. Though their relationships were not known to the whole world it was known to the society they were living.
He started to blame himself for losing you. When he saw people like you two leading a normal life he started to imagine how it can be best to get living with you easily and without any problems but the past was something which he could not change.
He started to curse himself for the things that happened in school, at that time. Everything was happening inside his mind and it started to mess around in his brain. Making him go crazy by thinking that he was the only culprit behind everything that happened at that time."
Tang Xian was flabbergasted, on the revelation, he was listening from Dr Cao. When Lu Yanli left him alone in Song Jun's room, she immediately called Dr Cao to come and talk to Tang Xian about the mental health of Song Jun.
Looking at peacefully sleeping person in front of him, something broke inside Dr Cao's heart too. When he met Song Jun for the first time, that time only he got to knew that the person is hiding so much pain and soreness in his heart.
He got to know that time, that Song Jun needed someone's help to come out of that torment.
"Tang Xian, he was broken when he left for Korea! He was still doing fine, till some days but things got out of hands when he got beaten up by his father which eventually lead him to hospital for many days.
He was already suffering from your separation and his father made it difficult to come back.
His father threatened him with your life, Tang Xian! He won the war against his son but only to lose that son for forever!
But I think he never felt that way. For him, the prejudice was the most important things in life, even more, important than his son and his life!
That day, aye handled him very well. Even made him believe in love but things were not as simple as they looked. There is something more to Song Jun's anguish which laid him to the path of affliction!
The only way to get Song Jun back is only you!
If you don't want him to harm himself again, then you have to give him everything he missed in those 10 years.
The love he did.
The sacrifices he did.
The sufferings he got.
Yes! He now knows that you also waited for him for ten long years but still those wounds a deep-rooted inside his heart. To heal them, you will need to give him everything!
All of you Tang Xian! All of you without making it so oblivious. Are you willing to leave everything behind Tang Xian? Maybe you will lose everything in this. Your name, work, that singing competition, even yourself too and don't think I am asking you to do this for him because he waited for you or endured all the torture. No Tang Xian, I am asking you to do this because I can see how much you love him. I know for Song Jun you are everything but for you, he is your breathing.
You are willing to do this for your love. For him, everything was you since his childhood. It never changed for anything. He never feared for anything Tang Xian other than fear for your life, the separation from you. He never gave up on your love! He always kept his priorities set, his only priority was you and only you.
When his father threatened him with your life, he never stopped loving you or seeing you. He only kept you away from all the troubles, which were supposed to come to you because of him.
He only stopped you to come to him but he never stopped coming to you Tang Xian! Till the time he was small, he listened to you when his mother spoke to you. He made the fake social accounts which let him knew more about you. He read your all emails and letters, again and again, every day.
Here, you had support from your parents. You were constantly in touch with aye, who all the time helped you to keep your love alive.
You met with the Lu Yanli, who trusted you and become your solace knowing your preference, that too without judging you. You lived in a very safe heaven which was built by your family.
But you know what something Tang Xian, he never had the support of his both parents. He made it big for himself. He became a big name, accomplished big achievements but the only person who stood with him there was his mother. For him, the whole world stood against him.
Yes! Aye helped him a lot but his father was his hero, who killed him every day with his beating, words and threatening.
He never met good friends till the time he didn't become the part of the pop group but it was too late for him Tang Xian! It was too late!
That time he had already sealed himself in the shell, though he opened up a little something really bad happened to him after that which made him shuddered within. Something which we still, don't know.
He lost everything in bargaining of living the hell of life just to meet you again! For him dying was a very easy option other than living in the hell that was created by his father and different people he met in his life but there was a hope to meet you and make.
But after meeting with you and getting love from you made it is easy to choose the option of living everything behind, the reason only known to him. What happened in the office, whom he met or he saw or someone said anything that leads him to the path of destruction. I am not saying someone did it or said it deliberately but something triggered his fear and his condition worsened.
You know a single thing or even a single word can become a trigger to people like him. Don't take me wrong but patients suffering from depressions with suicidal tendencies can lead them to do this. You have to make him speak again. I know what I am asking you is wrong. I studied your case too. Asking you to care for Song Jun is wrong. Anything can aggravate your condition if only you will stay with him but I want to give it a chance.
Why? Because you can mend his mind Tang Xian. Your presence in her life can make it easy. In this last few days, I saw his condition getting slightly better just by your presence. His improvement was satisfactory in the last few days.
But something triggered his emotions in office, Tang Xian! Something surely happened and other than him no one can tell us about it. We need to wake him up from this nightmare.
He only wants your love Tang Xian, he doesn't even want to live a single second without you but his feelings are pure for you. In the last few days when Lu Yanli showed him the wrong picture of your relationship, he didn't do anything to you or said anything to you. Lu Yanli told me how his behaviour towards you remained the same. His trust in you didn't break nor he fought with you for your deep relationship with Lu Yanli. This is the best part of his innocent love for you Tang Xian.
Otherwise, he would have troubled you after seeing what we showed to him and this is the best thing in your relationship.
Tang Xian, Do you know how much he loves you? When he got famous and earned money, he got the flat only to make his Xian paradise there. Aye showed me some pics of that house. Do you want to see??"
Tang Xian who was listening to Dr Cao got so immersed in the things of Song Jun that he didn't realise when eyes betrayed him like he was their enemy. They didn't help him at all to let him see his Xian paradise. The first pic of nameplate...
AUTHOR'S THOUGHT:-
Dear readers, what you think of this? Emotional blackmailing, mental torture at a very young age can lead a child to develop long-life diseases.
If you are a parent please listen to your child's cry maybe he/ she only required your mental support. Even if their demand is not logical please at least listen to them and try to tell them that you don't want it with all possible good reasons. Please don't force on them or blackmail them.
If you are children try to talk to that person who is sensible enough to understand your problems and support you.
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