Darrien.
''So your boyfriend is not here anymore. What's bugging you?'' Alanis asks me with that smug smile still on his face.
He is enjoying this a little too much. He has no answers for me. I need to speak to someone that can explain this shit to me. the minute I find out that this is okay, I plan to let go completely.
''It's none of your business.''
He laughs ''Well someone is feisty.''
I roll my eyes ''What if I want to do the ritual on Thursday too… with Jabi?'' I ask him, totally contradicting myself right now. I don't know what I am doing right now. I want to speed things up so fast. I am getting impatient.
''Uh… wow. Have you thought this through?''
I nod. ''We kissed. At his place. I got so fucking tempted. It was a mess. I can't continue living like this,'' I admit running my hands through my hair from all the frustrations.