With a groan Alvar's mental faculties slowly regained their former activity until he managed to groggily open his eyes. Thinking back the last thing he remembered was asking the old Isolde how he was going to learn on how to defend his mind after which she had put her hand onto his forehead causing Alvar to somehow blackout.
After he had come back to his senses Alvar began to consciously check his surroundings but what he found left him pretty much stupefied.
There he was, floating in an endless silver mist of sorts, and yet it could not really be called floating as Alvar could feel some kind of floor at his back that he was laying on. Turning himself onto his side Alvar laid his left hand onto the floor to check if his senses were playing a trick on him and yet there it was, the rough texture of a wooden floor!
Moving himself into a sitting position Alvar removed his attention from the invisible floor he was sitting on and began to observe the rest of his surroundings, though he didn't come up with many results in the end as all he could see was silvery mists that drifted slowly through the space he was currently in, wherever that actually was.
"Hello? Is anybody there?" Alvar called out after a while of simply sitting there and contemplating his situation. His words echoed through the mists, dampened to a barely audible whisper due to all the mist that surrounded him while sitting there on the ground.
Suddenly from all around him an old feminine voice echoed that Alvar found strangely familiar until he realised that it belonged to Isolde causing Alvar to let out a relieved sigh.
"How do you like your own mind? Rather blank don't you think? Hahaha" Isolde spoke, causing Alvar to spin his head around in order to find her but was unable to in the end.
"Very funny. Now can you come out please? Your mysterious demeanour is getting old real quick!" Alvar called out while annoyance began to grow inside of himself after what felt like minutes of waiting for nothing to happen.
"Spoilsport… Can't you at least act like you are a little bit scared? I haven't had this much fun in years! Hahaha" Isolde replied back causing Alvar to roll his eyes at her words which she must have noticed as her form materialised, accompanied by a soft laughter, right before his eyes as if she was part of the mist and simply decided to retake her human form.
"So, where are we? This can't possibly be my mind, right?" Alvar asked with a raised eyebrow while Isolde slowly sat herself down opposite of Alvar.
"Oh, but it is! At least from a certain point of view. You see, the humanoid mind is not so simple that you could quantify it into being and not being. What you see around you is simply a manifestation of what you imagine your mind must look like if you were to enter it!" Isolde said while a small smile played along her lips.
"Why would I imagine my mind looking like this though? I mean, shouldn't there be, I don't know, more to it? It is so empty!" Alvar replied while waving around his arms at all the emptiness around him.
"I don't know why you imagine your mind to look like this and no, there shouldn't be much more. In fact it is good that there isn't much more to be seen as that would cause more work for you in the long run." Isolde said, confusing Alvar even more.
"Hold on, hold on. The more you speak the more confused I become! Can you please start somewhere at the basics? As you know I'm rather new to all 'this'!" Alvar said with a frustrated expression on his face while he motioned for the slowly floating mists all around them.
"My, you are an impatient one today, aren't you? Hahaha. Alright, from the beginning it is. Let me begin with you and how you are different from the normal Norn.
The normal Norn, Human, Charr, Azura or Sylvari all have rather simple minds in their basic states, not enhanced from mana manipulation for example. In their basic states the mind of a normal Norn for example is a sphere filled with whatever goes through their mind at the time of observation. The further you dive into the sphere the more often things of a higher emotional value appear. Parents, friends and so on. The closer these attachments are to the core of the mind the higher the personal value they have for those people.
At the core of the mind is another sphere which leads to the subconscious. A space nobody not trained in the mental disciplines should enter as they could cause irreparable damage without noticing it.
In the subconscious mind the character of a person is formed through experiences mostly but also through traits that have always been dominant to their being. Furthermore anybody that trespasses into the subconscious mind must be prepared to not return as they can be entrapped in memories and such until they are unable to find the way back to the entrance. That is the main reason why nobody not trained in the mental arts should ever trespass into the subconsciousness!" Isolde said with a grave look towards Alvar who could understand why she made that point so clear to him as the subconscious mind sounded rather scary.
"Though I wonder, how are you able to train somebody in the mental arts if they aren't allowed to enter their subconsciousness? How would they ever reach the pinnacle in those arts?" Alvar wondered after a second of pondering, causing Isolde to nod in understanding at his question.
"When you are ready to begin your training to traverse the subconsciousness the one training you in the mental arts will take you alongside them into their own subconsciousness where you will learn what to look out for and so on." Isolde replied to which Alvar nodded in understanding as that would be the only way to make sure nothing would go wrong. Though he wondered how the first person to explore the subconscious had returned from their exploration in the first place…
"Now, back to the topic." Isolde said ripping Alvar out of his musings about the subconsciousness and return his focus onto Isolde who promptly continued her explanation.
"Compared to the mind of a normal person our minds and those of the other Havroune are a little more complicated. The reason for that is rather simple if you understand the main characteristics a person capable to become a Havroune must possess. And that is none other than the ability to traverse the mists." The old Havroune said after which she looked at Alvar with an expression as if she wanted him to find out the reason for himself and so he began to contemplate her words in silence.
'Hmm, what could be the reason. Maybe the pressure of all the information provided by the mists? No, that can't be it. I doubt Isolde or the other Havroune are none stop inside the mists with their minds. Then what could it be?' Alvar mused to himself while minutes of silence passed by between the two, Isolde seemingly happy to just sit there and wait for Alvar to come up with an answer for himself.
"Does it have anything to do with the dangers inside the mists? I've heard pretty often by now that the mists are dangerous, yet I don't really know why…" Alvar said a couple minutes into the silence, breaking said silence in the process.
"Yes, it has to do with that. Why the mists are so dangerous isn't all that important for now though. Can you think of any reason why it has to do with the danger the mists pose to us Havroune?" Isolde said with a small smile after Alvar had given her the answer he had come up with.
"Err, I'm not sure. Self-defence, maybe?" Alvar replied with a shrug causing Isolde to break out into a small chuckle after which she nodded in the positive.
"Indeed young Alvar, self-defence is an adequate term. Our minds are, from the moment we were born, attuned to the mists in some way, which nobody has found out why to this day, and in order to preserve itself once it comes into contact with the mists for the first time begins to shield itself in the most basic way a young mind can come up with. It empties itself!" Isolde said causing Alvar's face to become blank at her words.
'So my mind being so empty is not just a coincidence? Good to know I guess. But what is that mist floating everywhere?' Alvar wondered while his eyes roamed over the milky white clouds that drifted through the emptiness of his mind.
"If my mind being empty is a defence mechanism then why do I still need to learn how to defend my mind if it does so on its own already? And what is all that mist? Something my mind forget to lock away or so?" Alvar asked while motioning at all the drifting clouds around them.
"Heh, you actually nearly answered your own question just now. No, the mist around us is not some forgotten construct of your mind. It is the barrier that I erected inside your mind to hide it from the mists. You see, the defence of your mind is only basic in nature. You need to learn how to defend your mind in different ways because there are things inside the mists that can rip even an experienced Havroune's mind to shreds with nothing but a minor thought of there own. Even I with my considerable experience in the mental arts would never dare to venture too deep into the mists…" Isolde said to a nodding Alvar that now understood that the mental arts would indeed be a necessity for him or he would come to regret it sooner or later.
"So, what do I need to do to learn?" Alvar asked to which Isolde grinned in excitement. After all it had been a while since she had exercised her mind and she would enjoy every second of it!
Hope you enjoyed the chapter^^
"The first step to build up your defences is to strengthen the one you already have, like the fundament of a building you could say. Once your foundation is strong enough the only thing remaining will be your avatar, meaning you yourself as the representative of your mind, with everything about you hidden inside of your avatar, away from prying eyes." Isolde said while standing up from her sitting position with Alvar doing the same.
"How are we going to do that?" He asked Isolde who turned around to face him while walking backwards slightly with a small smile on her face.
"You are about to find out. Remember, all you have to do is stay calm…" Isolde said after which Alvar wished he hadn't taken Isolde up on her offer to teach him to defend his mind…
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'Remain calm she said! Don't lose yourself in the emotions she said! How the fuck am I supposed to do that if she keeps throwing fear inducing illusions at me?!' Alvar thought to himself while another one smashed into him, looking like a translucent wave of some kind, which roused the fear inside his core once again as he struggled to resist the urge to scream for his life all the while.
"Remember, this is all happening in your head. Even though real combat is possible in the mists, that is not where we currently are! You are the king of this realm, so firm your mind and stop shivering like a little babe in the cold!" Isolde called over while Alvar grit his teeth so hard they gnashed upon each other with an audible sound as he tried to resist the spell the she-devil had thrown at him.
On and on Isolde kept throwing emotion stimulating illusions at Alvar who by now was on his knees, desperately trying to keep himself from crying like a little child as all the different emotions, ranging from fear, happiness, self-pity, sadness and so on, raged through his every fibber like a flood after a dam had broken and unleashed the unstoppable torrents on the world behind its walls.
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After what felt like an eternity to Alvar, Isolde stopped her barrage and brought the two out of Alvar's mind after which the lad collapsed backwards with sweat soaking his clothes and training gear, as had become the norm for him the last few weeks.
"We'll continue with this tomorrow evening. I would advise you to practise on your own though. Every time you feel your emotions stirring try to calm yourself so that you will not be controlled by them. It will help." With those words Isolde stood up and walked over to Alvar whom she helped up onto his shaking legs, after which she lead Alvar out of her room and down the corridor to the gates that were still being guarded by, what Alvar assumed to be, members of the mist guard as he remembered them saying that they had made it their purpose to guard the Havroune, besides other duties.
"Have a good night Alvar, I'll see you tomorrow evening." Isolde said after which she turned around and was about to head back inside when Alvar remembered that he hadn't asked yet where he would meet her tomorrow.
"Isolde! Where should I meet you tomorrow? Where I did today?" Alvar asked the woman who only nodded in reply after which she disappeared behind the tall wooden entrance to the quarters of the Havroune, leaving Alvar alone with the mist guards who hadn't budged an inch all this time as if they were made out of stone.
After leaving the great hall Alvar headed straight home as it had become too late to meet up with his friends and he really needed to get some sleep under his belt, his muscles still aching from all the training he had done that day, now joined by the pounding of his head as well.
Clothed in silence Alvar more swayed than walked back home and after what felt like hours finally reached his home. Accompanied by the creaking of the door Alvar went inside where he spotted his grandfather sitting in chair with a book in his hands while his grandmother was cleaning some dishes.
"Ahh, Alvar! Welcome back! How was your meeting with Isolde?" His grandfather asked with curiosity as he had never been allowed to witness what the Havroune taught their students or those that fulfilled the basic requirements for the mental arts.
"Ugh, don't remind me of that torture. My head is still pounding so hard, it feels like on ogre used it to pound some of its brethren into submission with it…" Alvar replied which earned him a bout of slight laughter from his grandparents as he went over to the bonfire and grabbed himself some food for a late dinner.
"I still remember the day your mother received her first instructions in the mental arts. Her words held pretty much the same content within them as yours did hahaha!" Alvars grandfather said while lifting his horn filled with mead in salute towards Alvar who only grunted at his antics in reply.
His grandmother on the other hand must have decided to be the good one in their relationship at some point as she came over to Alvar and put a blanked over his shoulders and a cool piece of wet clothes onto his forehead, causing Alvar to moan slightly in satisfaction.
"There you go, sweety. Anything else exciting happen today?" His grandmother asked as she sat herself down next to Alvar while he still marvelled at the cool sensation on his forehead.
"Ye. Sjorn decided to be an asshat once again. He had me try to resist the strength of a cow! Imagine that for a second, will you? I swear, all my instructors want to see me dead in some way…" Alvar ground out while shoving another spoon full of stew into his mouth, his grandfather roaring in amusement at Alvar's words all the while.
"Now, now. I think they all want the best for you so don't be so hard on them, will you?" His grandmother said while patting him slightly on the back after which she stood up and went back to whatever she had been doing back there in the kitchen.
"Ye ye, I know. Doesn't change the fact though that I feel like a herd of cows played catch with me… I'll head to bed now. Good night you two." He said as he was emptying the last dregs of food in his bowl and headed into his room to fall tiredly onto his mattress while his grandparent's wishes for a good night echoed faintly in the background. Though Alvar barely heard them having embarked onto his journey into dreamland already.
There you go fellas^^
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