Dear Mrs. Dale Barber,
That night...
Ahm...
That night that you asked me to make love to you for the first and last time.
I wanted you to stop me from leaving.
That annulment was a test.
I never wanted to annul our marriage.
I just wanted to know if you would fight for me.
You knew that I was having an affair with Lexie and yet you seemed not to care at all.
Pakiramdam ko tuloy you were pushing me away because you're just waiting for the right time to leave me and be with Marco.
I've already convinced myself that I love Lexie kasi hindi ko nararamdaman na may paki ka pa sa akin.
Nakumbinsi ko na nga yung sarili ko na sya na talaga yung mahal ko.
Kasi sya pinaglaban nya ako.
Pinili nya ako.
Yun lang naman ang gusto ko.
Yung piliin mo ako.
But then you told me that you would sign the annulment papers and finally let me go.
Para akong sinampal ng katotohanan na hindi mo talaga ako mahal.
Why did you asked me to make love to you then?
Para ano?
Para may maiwan kang ala-ala sa akin?
You don't know how much I've been longing to make love to you.
To make you feel my love.
But you always push me away.
Tapos nung gabing yun, you asked me to make love to you sa una at huling pagkakataon.
I'm sorry I hurt you that night.
Kung alam mo lang kung gaano ko kagustong wag nang tumigil ang sandaling 'yon.
The feeling of being buried deep inside you is so surreal to me.
Pakiramdam ko any minute gigising ako at malalaman na panaginip lang iyon.
Masarap na panaginip.
Pero panaginip lang.
Pagkatapos ng nangyari, parang wala lang sa'yo.
Ganun mo ba talaga kagusto na mawala na ako sa landas mo?
Nung tumawag si Lexie, sinadya kong iparinig sa'yo.
I've always wanted to call you love.
To come home to you everyday.
Yun yung pangarap ko eversince I was 9.
To make you mine because I have always been
Yours,
Edward
PS Day 12 of missing you
Present
Napapakamot sa ulo ang aircon technician na pinapunta sa office ng lalaki.
"Hindi ka pa ba tapos dyan?" seryosong tanong nito sa kanya.
Humarap sya dito.
"Eh sir, wala naman po akong makitang problema sa aircon nyo..."
Hindi na nakipagtalo pa ang lalaki.
"Fine! You can get out of my office now!"
At natatarantang lumabas naman ang technician.
Inadjust ng lalaki ang necktie nya.
At hinubad na rin ang coat nya.
"Ugh Dale...this is your fault! You awakened the dragon!" sinisisi nya si Dale sa isip nya.
Kung bakit naman kasi naiisip pa lang nya si Dale ay ganun na ang reaksyon ng katawan nya.
Just the thought of making love to her is enough to make his body feverish.
He frustratedly turned up the temperature on the ac.
He has no choice but to put aside his thoughts of her.