After taking a few deep breathes. I was able to calm down. I stood their steadily as they dress me up. I didn't mind the details, they want me to check as they dress me, I couldn't careless right now.
The only plausible possibility that I am facing right now is that I died... due to over work. Which is really a stupid thing to do, but that's what I can only do. My parents eversince I have a job have no one else to worry about. My siblings and I have graduated in university and have a decent job, so we give them money for their travels. I don't have any significant others nor friends to hang out with since they are all busy as well. Thinking back eversince I had a job.. I never once taken a break. I was working non-stop.. but why?
I tried thinking about it but my head hurt.
"Arrgh!" I flinched in pain and held my head. Memories flowed inside my head... not my memories but this body's memories. Reenste Ermyntrude's memories.
After a few minutes I found myself crying. This child have been through a lot.
"Lady.. why are you crying? Are you okay?" Asked by a maid. I looked at her and smiled.
"I am okay. Is the envoy there yet?" I asked. She looked at me frozen, but then immediately snapped out of it.
"The envoy is going through other family and clans that received a gold to fetch them. He'll be here soon... I think." I just nodded and turned my attention to the mirror and couldn't help not to cry.
This girl.. Her life wasn't so bad when she was younger. She have a loving parents, both are great. Her father was a proud warrior, he is not a high ranking officer, but was respected for his strength and mind. The mother was the loveliest. She was a mysterious beauty that entranced all just by looking at her. She also have a keen mind that helped their family's business. When she was 7 her father wad critically injure and this was taken advantage by their enemies and also from their relatives who are envious to their life. Her Mom did everything she could to protect them. But her Dad died... rather he was killed in front of this child by someone close to them. Her Mom told her not to do anything. To remain a good girl and don't seek revenge, and she did. Her Mom was taken away after hiding her away. Months later, in this house where she is fostered or more likely, taken in as a servant, she received a news where her mother was found dead in the woods.
She remained with no family. She have relatives but treated her as a trash. A year later, a cousin came to this household, the brown haired guy I saw earlier, treated her as a normal person. Which then became the reason for her to fall in love to him. Despite the ill-treatment of this family she remained because for her, this place is the only way for her to be close to him.
But one day, someone told her cousin about her feelings, her cousin rejected her, telling that they are impossible and stop having feelings for him. Then adding to the blow, she found out that he is to be wed soon. This crushed her, thus all the sadness and grief consumed her and she took her own life.
"Lady Reen... Please do not cry anymore, your clothes will be wet. The Envoy is here soon." I noticed the worried yet somewhat weirded out look she's giving me. I kinda get it because the precious Reenste is kinda a quiet type. Even though she's bullied, she won't cry easily. She been through a lot but she is strong. Plus accessing her memory more, she is also a gifted child with a genius mind like her Mom. Plus that thing in her memory.. she's somewhat practicing martial art secretly.