It was Friday, and like on most days we hang out at lunch with Jose and his friends. We all messed around with each other and do different things on different day's. We play soccer, tag, mess around with the boys or it's the other way around, and we would also just talk with one another. This time the boys picked up the girls and runned around with us in there arms or on there backs. I stand looking at them and laughing, then, suddenly out of nowhere Jose picks me up in his arms. He spin's me around and looked at me. I don't know how long it was but we just looked at each other and smiled.
"Jose, what are you doing? The yard ladies are going to say something," I said with my face blushing and looking in his eyes.
"I just want to see how beautiful you are," He said looking at me and smiling.
As I suspected a yard lady told us we can't do that and for him to put me down.
"You know, your kinda light Jenny," Jose says with a smile.
"Hey, I am not. I weigh over the weight scale," I said laughing and smiling.
We went with the other's and I can see Gaby looking at us. I felt like she wasn't the only person looking. It was fun and whenever I get out of the house it feels different, I liked coming to school. Cress changed me a lot, and I liked how things were. Until when that one fateful day had come. The weekend passed, helped around the house for my Mom. Monday started off like any other day. 1-2 period ended and 3rd period at P.E Miguel and me talked, we have been talking with each other since the beginning of school. He talked to me about what had happened between him and his ex. I was sad for him, that what he was going through by himself must have hurted him deep down, and he didn't tell anyone. *~ And you think you can help him~*. Thoughts came up in my head. I didn't like them, I don't know but I felt like something bad was going to happen, and that it would change me and my life. I wondered if I would be able to control myself any longer. I reassured him that everything is going to be fine, that things are going to get better for him. *~ Why are you worried for him, your as in much pain as he is. He doesn't understand nothing*~. I smiled and helped him to not get in as much of a situation I was in. We talked more, and then a subject that I thought he wouldn't bring up came.
"Jenny, I want to tell you something. It might sound weird, and I don't expect a respond from you. Back in 7th grade do you remember how we would mess around with each other and talk during passing period," He said looking down and glancing in my direction.
"Yes, do you remember putting gum in my hair. I thought that you forgot about it," I said laughing and smiling.
"Well I liked you during that time, I didn't know how you felt but I didn't tell you. Sorry, I stopped talking to you and hanging out with you because, well Samantha and me talked and we worked things out. Well, that's what I thought. I used to like you, I just didn't know if you felt the same towards me is all," He said kicking grass, glancing in my direction, blushing.
I didn't know what to say, I felt sorry for him, yet I felt a different emotion towards him when he said that. I was surprised.
"To be honest Miguel, I liked you too, I didn't think that you would too. I thought that you stopped hanging out with me because you didn't like me, so I brushed it off. I'm surprised that you said this though, thanks for telling me," I said nervously, and smiling.
"Who's that guy that you hang out with at lunch, are you guys dating," he says looking at my direction.
I didn't know what I was feeling, I just told myself that these were the emotions I had for him during 7th grade. ~I should let go~ I told myself.
"Well his name is Jose, no were not dating, I wish though. I've liked him since towards the ending of 7th grade. We just never asked each other out. I'm a bit shy, but our friends already think that we are dating," I said smiling and laughing nervously.
"Oh, well yea you guys do look like you guys are dating," He said rubbing his neck, looking down blushing.
Then all of a sudden the bell ranged for 4th period.
"It was nice talking to you again Miguel, I hope you don't have any trouble with Samantha. Your going to be fine Miguel," I said smiling, and blushing a little bit.
I met up with Angie and then before we left to our class. One of Miguel's friend, Chris, comes up to me and says
"Miguel likes you, I just wanted to say that. He said that he would like to date you also," Chris said.
I didn't give a respond back. Angie responded saying,
"We have to get to class, and you should too, bye," she said with a little tone.
I didn't know what to feel, or for what to say. During class, another guy who me and Angie got to talk with passed me a note saying if I can be his girlfriend. I didn't know what was happening. I said No, and sorry, that I only saw him as a friend. ~What is going on today~ I said in my head. Time passed by, lunch came around. I saw Jose, then I spotted Miguel in my sight. I saw him talking to his friend, then going off to a girl. ~ He doesn't like you~. I looked away, went to Jose, and we messed around. I forgot what was happening when I was with him. Me and him had 5-7 period together. We went back to class together. In my sight, I see Miguel again walking down the hall to class. He looked at me too, I looked at him. I didn't know what was happening. I didn't hear anything. Then, Jose shocked me and said,
"Hey Jenny, are you ok? Do you feel fine?" He said with a bit of worry.
I look at Jose, " I'm fine, it's ok, it's nothing." I said with reassuring him.
I look back and Miguel is gone. Me and Jose enter the classroom and school ended. I walked with Jose and he gives me a piece of paper.
"Don't read it until you get home ok," He said while walking off.
I hold the piece of paper in my hand. I walked fast to my house. When I arrived home I opened the paper. I couldn't believe what was happening today.
~{ Will you be my girlfriend -Jose♥}~
I tried to sleep over this. I had a strange dream. I was dreaming about 7th grade, when I met Miguel. Then, when me and Jose met. What we did. I didn't know that the decision that I made would change me, my life. The gate that I tried so hard to keep close, locked up. What I was most afraid of. •~Myself~•
I know this chapter is a bit off, I hope that I made it in a way that you can read and cooperate with. A lot of things are going on in this chapter. A girl (Jenny) is having mixed feelings, not knowing what to do. I hope you can understand it as best as you can?. Thank you for taking in your time and reading this. I hope you have a good day ?.