Kapitel 23: their smiles are irritating..
Yoongi's point of view
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(Read this slowly)
"They look happy,
together,
without me" i murmured. I wasnt able to concentrate on what they were saying.
Their smiles were bright and it was.... Bothering me.
Why? I wondered.
Was i like this, Everytime?
Maybe i was.
I never cared about anyone else. Rather they were happy or not. I was always away from all those emotions.
Then why? Why am i feeling a bit of pain in the heart right now?
Y/N with other members accompanied me by the couch. They asked her to join them with the editing. They asked me the same. I wanted to refuse but i agreed when she insisted.
'that is so stupid of me.' i sighed.
But i figured out after sometime that they didn't need me. They never needed me anyways. I sat on the side of the couch, looking at them laugh at Jin's another dad jokes. 'what was so funny about it.'
Looking at them, i felt empty somehow. I feel like i was being left out. But when did i started caring about this things? Wasn't i always alone?
Oh yeah.. i just forgotted that it was always like this.
It was almost 6 in the evening. Thoughts were clouded on my mind. I was getting more and more irritated by seeing their stupid smiles.
'why do you even care.. hah?' i asked myself standing up from the couch. It was always the same. Whomever i was close to, left me when i needed them the most. First my mom left me in this world suffering alone. After that my dad abandoned me. And when i decided on being alone, jimin entered accepting me in every way. 'Also that crackhead' coming up to me with that bright smile of hers. These both are leaving me too. 'what was i even expecting?' i pulled up my jacket.
'i was never like this? Then why do i feel strange?' i plugged my earphones.
Yes, i should pull myself together. Its fine. I'm fine on my on.
Afterall, in the end, I'm going to be alone.
There are all of the same kind.
'why did i even trusted them? Why did i even get closer to them?' i thought stepping out of the building, leaving everyone behind.
Like i care? Hah..
Why did i even chosed to walk on that path? Why i acted so indifferent??
I never tried to choose a different path, To walk down an unfamiliar road.
Coz i knew that I'll get lost and there was no one who will find me. Who will save me.. who will approach me. Who will call my name.
I was meant to be alone for whole of my life. Because I'm different from them.
I have decided now.. I'll try to be my old self. I'll avoid them... I'll stay alone.. I'll not care about anything... Yes, I'll be the selfish me.
I'll stay away so that i won't feel this pain again.
I was getting myself ready and that was when....
"Mr. Min... " A voice stopped me.
And that was when.. you called my name..
AUTORENGEDANKEN 
panda_girl
panda_girl p:y'all really read faster... (^～^;)ゞ
yoongi: you stupid potato.. it is because your chapters are short(╬ Ò ‸ Ó)
p: (ಥ⌣ಥ)
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