Kapitel 36: I don't want this

We stood over the positive tests in silent, I swear my life flashed before my eyes when I saw the two pink lips; I saw myself holding a baby alone, sitting in the hospital alone without Xavier. I didn't know what to think, I was pregnant. I had a living human inside me. This wasn't where I saw myself in a few months, I was met to be getting my high school diploma, not having a baby!

"We can't tell him" I look at Stephanie panicked

"I can't have this baby Stephanie," I say breathing heavy. I don't want this baby, I wasn't ready for this. I was careful, how did this happen. I took the pills, if I didn't I wouldn't be as surprised as I was.

"You're just panicking right now," Stephanie says trying to calm me.

We locked ourselves in the bathroom in my room, Xavier and Alan still weren't back. And I didn't want Dan to hear us. It took me a while to finally have the courage to pee on the stick.

"No, no" I mumble "Xavier doesn't want this. I don't want this"