Kapitel 1: Engraved
Enraged
Emotionally dispersed
Confidentiality outstaged
Outpaced, I stand
Existence in a maze
Pessimism in gaze
Distressed
Emotionally depressed
Explosions in my head
Discomfort in my bed
Blood boiling with meds
Unable to curb the spread
Of suicidal virus in my veins
hence, Why wait?
like a leaf in the wind
torn, sewn and dry
misdirected and shy
thrown, dethroned and tried
For the debt conveyor
convict connector
The lone life collector
to come one day
and leave me under covers
of grass, leaves and soil
When I can just
Do me justice once
slowly cut myself twice
And squeeze my chest thrice
before blinking in apprehension
of alternate visions of aftermath
Whilst tumbling apart
Like drenched pages of Maths
Upon a crucifixional board of darts
Numerally shallow at heart...
A severed subconscious erased
An incomplete puzzle of life engraved
Ghouls knocking, spirits coughin'
One soulless purpose retained
The soul no longer (bodily) detained
( Anathii to Caith)