Kapitel 40: A Love That Lasts a Summer: A Romance Between a Governess and a Gentleman

"Stuff and nonsense, my dear; remember your dependent position and the advantages this match holds out to you. You must not think or talk of delay. He will be here tomorrow, and I hope his lover's eloquence will soon decide the question in his favor."

Poor Miss Rozy burst into tears and said it was so sudden, and she was so ill-prepared to take any decision.

She would, however, think about it very seriously and, in the morning, be better able to give an answer.

My mother, seeing that she was much agitated by what she had told her, very kindly said,

"Give the children a holiday this afternoon, and I advise you to keep your own room and write to your widowed mother to tell her of the offer and to ask her advice on how you should act."

Thus, we had many hours to ourselves. I had heard all that had passed and felt a sad pressure at my heart when I began to realize the fact that the proposal of Mr. Robin would, if accepted, lead to our separation and deprive me of my loved Miss Rozy.

The idea made me very sad, and I showed no alacrity in taking advantage of our extra hours of recreation with my sisters until Suzy began to rally me about my melancholy and asked what I meant by it. I at once said,

"Don't you see, if Miss Rozy marries Mr. Robin, we shall get another governess, and can we ever expect to get one who is so kind and excellent a teacher and who troubles us so little at our games?"

"Ah! That is very true, and we should be horribly annoyed if we were watched and interrupted. However, there is more reason that we should make the most of the present moment, so come along, Alexander, and let us have some real good fucking.

We have plenty of time; Mamma is not very well. No one will come near us, and there is nothing to hinder our having a jolly time of it; all three are stark naked together, so come along."

Her words had already changed the current of my ideas; before she ceased speaking, my prick responded, which her quick eye immediately observed, and patting it with her hand, she said,

"Ah! My dear little dummy, I am glad to see you are of my opinion, so come along."

Away we went, and a most glorious afternoon of orgies we spent.

Miss Rozy came to me at night and threw herself into my arms. In an agony of sobs and tears, and pressing me to her throbbing bosom, she sobbed out.

"Oh, my dear Alexander, I love you so dearly; you have become as necessary to me as life itself. I cannot bear the thought of parting ways with you, my loved one.

You, whom I have initiated into all the delights of mutual love—oh, the thought of parting is bitter and breaks my heart. Oh! Love me, my own darling boy, and press me to your heart."

I did more, for, as I have before stated, a woman's tears have a never-failing effect on the erective nerves of my machine. It was but the commencement of a night of the most luxurious enjoyment.

Miss Evelyn put no restraint on herself or me but indulged in every act of lubricity, and voluptuousness was drawing to a close.

In fact, when eventually she left me in the morning and I thought over all she had said, it became evident to me that she had already made up her mind to accept the very advantageous offer made to her.

The instinctive intelligence of a woman had at once shown her that such an opportunity was not to be lost for the sake of a mere boy, whom circumstances must naturally soon remove far away from her.

At the same time, doubtless, the idea that I was all her own making, for she never had any suspicion of my previous initiation, held a charm over her, to say nothing of the powerful weapon she had so unexpectedly found by her side and which had such a great influence over her passions.

We spent a most luxurious night and hardly closed our eyes, notwithstanding my afternoon's debauch; such is the power and resources of nature in a well-constituted youth of fifteen and upwards that Miss Rozy had rather to force our embraces than to stimulate by any artificial excitement my ever-ready prick.

I won from her a promise to come next night and let me know what fate had in store for us.

The next day, Mr. Robin was true to his appointment. Mamma received him with Miss Rozy by her side, and after the usual compliments, she rose and apologized for leaving them, as she had household duties to attend to.

Miss Rozy informed me afterwards that Mr. Robin, on my mother leaving the room, rose from his seat and approached her, saying, in the most frank gentlemanly manner,

"You are aware, my dear Miss Rozy, of the object of my visit, and I augur from your kind condescension in giving me this interview that my suit is not disagreeable to you."

Then, taking her passive hand and pressing it to his heart, he continued:

"I have loved you, Miss Rozy, from the first moment of seeing you. I feel that my future happiness hangs on your lips, for without your love, my life would now be blank.

I am here today to offer you my hand and fortune. If I have not yet gained your heart, I seek to be allowed to cultivate your society so that I may try to win it."

Then, seeing that she was greatly agitated, he begged her to be seated (for she had risen when he approached and took her hand), led her to a sofa, and seated himself by her side. He pressed for an answer. She said,

"You must be fully aware, Mr. Robin, that your generous offer has taken me greatly by surprise.

I feel most grateful to you for it, but I must implore you to allow me to pause until at least I have heard from my mother, to whom I will communicate the noble offer you have made to me, a poor governess who cannot but feel grateful to you for condescending to think of her in such a way."

"Ah! Say not so, my dear Miss Rozy, and believe me, it is no sudden impulse that has driven me to your feet, but ardent love and real admiration of your great beauty and admirable conduct ever since you entered this family."