Kapitel 6: Chapter 06

(A/N: No chapter yesterday because I was simply not in the right state of mind to write. Just have to deal with RL situations. I tried to write yesterday but it was simply all trash, worse than the previous chapters, so I could only write today, forgive this author.

Reminders to my sexy readers. I have not read the entirety of DC or Marvel comics, thus, my knowledge about them are pretty jumbled up. The timelines in the flashback would be a bit confusing for the hardcore marvel fans, so forgive me once again.

Like I said in the synopsis, this series is pretty much AU, but I would still make Deadpool as real as he can be. I wanted to make it much closer to the character as I could, but that doesn't mean it would all be perfect. I am, but a simple author that loved writing, mistakes are unavoidable.

I base the happenings of the story in DCEU as well as my little knowledge of the comics (ever-expanding knowledge), so relying on your knowledge as a reader in comics wouldn't help you to know what timeline I am trying to write.

For those who are annoyed by the frequent wall breaking, it's fine, it was only until the flashback were all done. After the flashback, wall breakings would only appear here and there, so no worries.

For those who wanted DP to meet Harley, well, we would get there, just be patient. That's all for now, thank you for trying this book.)

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*Creak*

A door opens and there, came out Deadpool, or came in, rather. Because he was now entering what you call an abandoned building in a desolated area in Gotham.

Deadpool was strangely silent as he opened door after door until he finally reached the room he choosed to live in.

The room was very simple. It has a slightly worn-out but still comfy couch in the center while beside it was an old small round table with an old-fashioned brown radio box on top of it. A simple but old television across the couch, and a bathroom with a restroom at the very side of the room.

The room isn't actually in a good condition either, it is also very worned out due to its poor maintenance. The wall at the side has numerous holes in it, the cemented floor was dented and dirty, while the ceiling looks like it was about to collapse anytime.

But Deadpool doesn't care. For him, this place is where he rest and would take a dump, so how the room should look like was the least of his care.

After entering the room, Deadpool took a deep breath, inhaling the scent of the room.

"It smells like shit in here". Deadpool commented. But even though he said that, he stil walked his way into the couch and stretched his body a little, earning him a satisfied sigh.

Glancing at the small round table beside the couch, deadpool took the old fashioned small radio box and turned it on.

*Ssshhh*

Deadpool turned channel after channel until he finally found one broadcasting channel that could be perceive by the radio box.

Putting it back down on the table, Deadpool then let himself collapse in the couch as he listens to the music that was being played on the radio.

...

(A/N: Angel of the Morning)

(There'll be no strings to bind your hands

Not if my love can't bind your heart

There's no need to take a stand

For it was I who chose to start

I see no need to take me home

I'm old enough to face the dawn)

(Just call me angel of the morning, angel

Just touch my cheek before you leave me, baby

Just call me angel of the morning, angel

Then slowly turn away from me)

...

This was one of the rarest moments where Deadpool would completely shut his mouth as he listens to the song in a daze. He was still sprawled down on the couch, unmoving, as he stared at the ceiling. His expression could not be deciphered under his mask.

But one thing is for sure, he's deep in thought.

Remembering what happened to him back at his homeworld and how he arrived here, he could not help but sigh in slight depression.

A couple of minutes later, Deadpool finally moved and put his right foot over the arm of the couch, while he leaned his head on his left hand as he stared at a certain direction.

"Have you guys ever feel love?... Me? Haha! I did! But you know what? Those who I love could not love me back... Some do like me, but they could not accept me". Deadpool suddenly talked, his tone has a tinged of loneliness within it.

"I've done everything! Everything to make them love me back! But... They just couldn't.... They just couldn't accept the real me...". Deadpool said with self-mockery clear on his tone.

"I've been betrayed for so many times, but I couldn't help but fucking trust again. The friends that I know back there? They wouldn't hestiate to put a gun in my head! My ex'es back there? They've tricked and deceived me many times...". Deadpool's voice was a bit shaky as he remembered all that he experienced.

"I tried to look jolly and unaffected, but it fucking hurts inside. I mean, who in their right minds could stay sane while watching your own fucking wife marrying another man while you were being pinned on a fucking boulder!" Deadpool literally yelled with a bit of anger in it.

"Good thing I am not on my right mind... They married, then went away. Leaving me with a divorce paper and a letter from my wife, saying... To move... on? Ha..haaha..hhhahahahaha! Fucking shits!" Deadpool put his arm over his face as he laughed in self-mockery.

He suddenly remembered, all the things that happened to him and how he got in here.

...

A couple of months before the present.

(Marvel Universe)

It all started in a bar, a bar where a man who was wearing a familiar red and black tactical suit could be seen downing alcohol as though he could not have enough of it.

He wears a mask that was partially lifted as he keep on mumbling incoherent words while downing another bottle of alcohol.

His left hand was holding a bottle of alcohol while his right hand was on his phone. He was calling, calling anyone that could accompany him from times like this.

But... No one came.

He called Spider-man, he answered, but only told deadpool to move on and stop disturbing him as he was currently busy.

He called Logan, but he only heared a grunt before the line was cut off.

He called Luke Cage, but he just casually crushed his phone on the other side because of annoyance.

He called Domino, but she didn't even answered.

He called Rogue, but she's the same as Domino.

He even tried to call Fury, but he only said to suck it up and never call him again.

He called anyone and everyone he knew, but not even one came...

His friend, Bob, was also on a mission in Hydra. His best-friend, Weasel could not be contacted.

Deadpool, literally felt abandoned.

So he furiously downed another bottle of alcohol.

He remembered the life lessons that the dead shark he killed said to him back then, but it worth like shit in times like this.

Where did he go wrong? Isn't he a good friend? He would immediately storm his way if any of his friends need help, he would try to console his heartbroken friends with his humorous jokes.

Hell he would even stand up for them whenever the world was against them.

He once played the bad guy to make the whole X-men earn the trust of the people!

He defended his best buddy back in school from being killed by Domino with his own body!

He also hates it whenever anyone messes with his friends...

But now that he need them... Where are they?

He was left alone... Just like always.

He should have understood it all from the very beginning. No one could really trust him, no one would go out their way and protect him when he needs it. No one could stand up if ever the world was against him! Instead, they would team-up and defeat him!

It has always been like this... From the start, it has always been like this. He's always... Alone.

Downing the bottle of alcohol, Deadpool strangely remained silent.

Today, his wife, Shiklah, married Dracula. They married and sealed it with a kiss in front of him! He tried to stop it, he tried to convince her, he showed his love to her even as she literally blasted him with her magic.

Even though he knew that she had sought sexual pleasures from other people, he sucked it all up as he knew that he was in the fault by neglecting her while he do his usual missions on the surface.

So even after he literally saw her in a bed with a werewolf, he just shot the werewolf and asked for her explanation.

But she kicked him out. After numerous tries, he still tried to make it clear that he really loved her, but she still married Dracula and divorced him.

He hated it, he's hurt, he felt betrayed. But deep inside, he knew he was in the wrong, so he played it cool and acted all jolly despite the pain that he felt from seeing his wife marry another man.

After they left, he planned to asked Spider-man to accompany him but he just vanished right after the fight with Shiklah, and when he called him, those were the words that he said. "Move on, I'm busy".

Deadpool... Was abandoned.

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(A/N: This really happened in the comics folks, but the part where he was calling everyone because he needed someone to accompany him was not in the comics. But he did once called for help when he was in danger and the people he called just reacted like what was portrayed above.

For those people who were confuse. Why the hell did the author turn Deadpool into a drama queen? Bruh? I dare you to experience the same. Not to mention Deadpool has mental disorders! So you could only imagine the blow that he received!

He has "Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder", "Manic-Depressive Disorder" and "Onset Schizophrenia". Hell, just the Manic-Depressive Disorder was enough to explain this scene. Deadpool could have sudden mood swings, thus even though he was jolly in the last chapter, he could turn into like this after the next one.

Now you asked me why I chose Harley as the love interest? Poor Deadpool need a Psychiatrist! And not just a normal one would suffice, thus, Harley should it be.

Sorry, just a short chapter for now as I am really still not in the right state of mind to write. But it would all go back to normal tomorrow, that, I am sure of.)

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