Kapitel 2: September
Sierra just told me that Dyllan called me gay. Say it to my face!
It's hard because, I'm trying to help my little sister with math. She yells at me because she "knows" what she's doing. Bullshit!
I hate painting my nails they ALWAYS mess up! Ugh!
I hate school!
So today, I met the Advocate and Lawyer I went into the court room learned about everything talked about the things that happened and so and so but I am going to court 100% on Wednesday Boo!
Fuck my life! I'm going to kill a bitch Wednesday(my father).
The video was not that bad at all but I didn't cry even though I wanted to.
I also need to fix 3 of my nails because they got fucked up. White nailpolish looks really cute on me. I might wear it more often.
Countdown until court 5 more fucking days!
High School Musical Auditions next month
I am so scared to try out for it what if I freeze up!?!?
The Lawyer said that I am aloud to bring a stress ball in to the court room so I can "play" with but I'm very fidgety so I tend to move around a lot so I am deathly afraid to talk Wednesday.
HAPPY Birthday Lindsay!!!!!!
HAPPY Birthday Auntie Debbie!!!!!!
I am so bored! Oh! I called my Lawyer to tell her that I don't want to go to court.
We went to Kroger's bought some food then we went to McDonald's to get some more food!
Sadie was attacking my right hand but she was playing.
I got pictures of some animals(well there stickers but I had to put the stickers in the right place to make the animals I think I have like 10 more to go) for my story I hope it turns out good when I'm done with it(but I forgot it in my backpack in my locker at school) I'll get it Monday no biggie.
3 days till court
HAPPY BIRTHDAY Ashley & Courtney!!!!!
I painted my toenails.
I have a small bruise on my right hand from Sadie
It don't hurt though. It's right above my vein.
I want some more coloring books & wordsearches I'm so bored!
I hate school it's too early for this shit I hate waking up in the morning how can Sierra be up & ready to go I can't even do that shit goodness can I go back to bed
2 days till court
So Kylie dragged me over to Josh's table and Will's face was so red it was so adorable.
Then after lunch Kylie noticed that I was shaking which I was.
Tomorrow's court kill me now I am going to be positive today but I don't think that I will.
I think I'm going to be writing my story again.
Well, I hope I can write.
I've been thinking about being a journalist. But it might be hard but I can always try. I'm still on chapter 3 in my book, again it's really hard to get good ideas.
I got a 50/54 on my test today.
My mom got me a puzzle and I did the border and some other pieces 750 puzzle pieces.
The puzzle is looking good so far.
My puzzle is looking fantastic! I need more puzzles!
I had a dream about my dad he was really abusive
I couldn't stop him nor anyone else.
Kylie hurt her ankle and everyone pays attention to her. I wish I had all the attention, but I'm not cute enough. No one will ever like me!
I'm not good enough to get asked out to homecoming, maybe if I didn't help kylie I honestly don't even know!
How come I'm always the one who gets put down.
I wish Will would notice me. Maybe if I dissappeared then they'll worry about me. But I really want to get run over by a truck then I'll get noticed right. Tbh I really want to run away because I'll never have anyone to love, to hold, to anything. Why? Because I'm not the hottest girl in school.
It's pajama day!
Sierra needs to learn how to leave people alone! I'm sick & tired of her getting into trouble.
Jacob said something and this girl was like "Stop staring bitch!" Bitch I ain't afraid of you!
Oh and Will was standing in front of my locker. He moved out of the way though but his back touched my locker!
I don"t want to dress up tomorrow.
It's hard for me to concentrate becuase I'm thinking about Sierra ruining my life.
I cant even concentrate on writing my story because of her, she's ruining my fucking life!
Kiko messed up my hair twice! I honestly don't want to talk to anyone tomorrow. Why does sierra have to ruin my senior year.
kylie and i want to be on prom court together but i think that she'll be the only one on the prom court because everyone hates me because of my dumbass sister.
I got a 52/60 on my test! I need more ideas for my story ugh!
I want to take a picture with Josh Henderson sometime this week but he might not want to take a picture with me because again Sierra bothers him and his friends in design class.
Sierra honestly makes me want to kill myself why does she have to get into trouble every fucking day?!??!??!?!?!?!?!?!!?
I honestly wish that i was somebodys high school sweatheart.
I dont feel like dressing up the rest of the week.
Today was decade day tomorrow is wild west.
I hated being in the front where my crush could see me!
Josh said my nae and I smiled?!?!
Ava said my name!
I hate high school!
I'm afraid that sierra will tell Josh that I like Will!
Tbh, I want to drop out of choir.
I wish that I had the guts to talk to Will.
I also wish that I could ask Josh if me and Kylie could take a picture with him, hopefully he doesnt get Will but I do want Will in the picture too
i still want to know why Will was blushing?!?!?
Was it because I was there? I want to know ugh why does Will have to be so fucking cute
what if Will had a crush on me?
But why would anyone want to date me?
Why would a guy like Will like a girl like me?
I'm not cute
I act stupid
I have a fake laugh(like what my dad said)
No one will ever like me
And I'll never be on the prom court because I'll never win and I will never have a king but I want a king but I dont know who will be my king
I'm writing another song guess who its about Ill Goebel A.K.A Floop! If I cant tell him that I like him then I'll sing about how I like him that's a great idea right but the question is do I have the guts to sing it infront of everyhone especially him probably not but I can always try to
I took a picture with Will, Josh, and Trevor Oh My God! Will touched me Ah! Thank you god!
Kylie said that she was going to print the picture and give it to me
I hope she does print it out
I wish I went to this years homecoming I could've had a great time
I would've taken more pictures I'll never do that after high school but the only dance that I'll go to is my prom with my friends but I want to go to prom with that special someone but then again I have no one no boy will ask me out to my prom because no one likes me but I'll be okay I'll be with my friends yeah friends which are mostly girls but still I'll be happy
Actually no I won't be happy because I just want to be with that special someone
God I really wish that I have a job a car and a phone then I'll be happy because I'll be at my homecoming but if there is a slow song no one will dance with me.
I wish I could get into a fight with my dad maybe that will make me feel better that day will come soon and I'll be ready
Hopefully no one asks me where I was Saturday
Before lunch started Josh goes 'Elizabeth we're going to walk with you' but I left them
I had no one to talk to at lunch thanks, Brooke, Madi, and Kylie.
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